79 There's hope for people like me

"A human's words..." Huang Qiuyan finds it hard to believe. "Human hearts are flawed. Can a flawed heart love someone like that?"

"Flawed hearts can easily waver, but souls do not waver." Jin walks ahead of her, leading her through the dark corridors. "My ancestors believed that true bond is one way for two souls to find salvation in each other. They also believed that the true bond was only a means for two souls to realize their love for each other. It acts as an intense connection at first, pulling two souls who are meant to be with each other. The true bond is like the umbilical cord between two souls; however, even if there was no true bond between those souls, they would have still met and fallen for each other. In this world, there were many people who loved someone else the same way."

He pauses for a moment and looks at her thoughtfully. 

"There's hope for people like me."

Even if there is little chance of true bond happening to him, he hasn't given up on finding true love in this life. He will find her. But he also hopes that she will find him first.

Huang Qiuyan gazes at him. These purebloods... They are like ordinary people with hopes and dreams. They might have lived for a long time, but all they want is someone to spend their eternity with. 

Did she misunderstand these purebloods? Did she misunderstand him?

If she was Fu Sheng, would she believe someone who showed up with an enchanted wooden arrow hidden under her dress when the humans betrayed the purebloods once? 

What's the difference between those humans who killed the purebloods two hundred years ago and her? She had the same prejudice against them.

These purebloods are only people. 

Is he more human than her? Being able to love a child who is not his daughter by blood is not something all men can do. Heck! Her father didn't love her when she was his daughter by blood. Even if her mother and father say that they did love her, she wouldn't believe it. If love means choking your child every day by telling her how she's not good enough, she doesn't want that love. If love means telling your child to lower herself and throw the pride away to get accepted by other people, she doesn't want that kind of love. Huang Wei Yi told her that their mother cries for her.

What's the point? She's scarred. She is realizing it after her death. She doesn't feel like a vampire. She doesn't feel human. She knows who Huang Qiuyan was. 

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'Who is Huang Qiuyan?'

She receives another mental slap in her head. She curses Fu Sheng in her head. She has to find him and give him a taste of his medicine. True mate? Screw him! Why is he hitting her inside her head? 

[That hurts!]

[Xiao Chun Dan, you know my pain now.]

Jin stops suddenly and turns around. "My lady, is something wrong?"

She smiles and shakes her head. "Nothing is wrong."

"I will show you Brother Aiken's treasure first." Jin grins at her. "Brother Aiken loves collecting books. He owns the den of knowledge."

He pushes open the large wooden door. When Huang Qiuyan steps inside, she seems to have stepped inside another world with a sky made of books only. She blinks in surprise. Seeing so many books at once makes her dizzy. She's never been much of a reader. 

[Elder Sister, you have to come back here and let me scan these books. These will be valuable to you in the future.]

[Can't you do it now?]

[No, it will take time. There are too many books.]

"If you want to find a spellbook or books on the true bonds, you will find them here." Jin points at the shelves. "That area contains the biographies of the pureblood kings. Brother Aiken is writing the biography of our king. If you want, I will steal the draft and show it to you."

She contemplates seriously. If she reads the biography, wouldn't she find out more about Fu Sheng? 

"Is it okay to steal it?" She whispers to him. 

"He will hang me upside down and break my bones." Jin whispers back, "Only if he finds out."

"You are quite confident that he won't find out." She lowers her voice further.

"He hasn't found out about the things that Kai and I stole till now. He's too busy to notice." Jin smirks at her. "Lady Huang, you want to know more about our king, right?"

She pushes a strand of hair behind her ear. "He is the king of vampires. I am just curious about what kind of king he is."

Jin laughs with a low voice. "You should never suppress your curiosity when it comes to the king. You are my friend. You can ask me anything."

"Where is the king right now?" She squints at him.

"He's with Fu Mian." Jin straightens his back. The king has warned him to not reveal about Fu Mian's condition to her. "Our next stop is the pantry."

"Pantry?" Don't they drink blood? Why do they have a pantry? Are they keeping humans inside the pantry? She exclaims, "Does it have blood?"

"Of course." Jin gives his hand to her. "Hold it, my lady. I will take you there right now."