119 She loves me more

Lying on the bed, Huang Qiuyan stares at the ceiling. The burning sensation is getting worse by each passing moment. The empty blood packets are lying on the floor. She turns to her side and clutches the white bedsheet. It's so clean. She's feeling unclean. 

She climbs off the bed and pulls the white bedsheet. With pensive eyes, she tears it into pieces. Still, she's not satisfied. She wants something. Why is Fu Sheng not back yet? How long does she have to wait? 

How long can she wait? 

The door opens and Xiao Chun Dan walks into the room with a bag. He glances at the pieces of the bedsheet. His host has been acting strange. She is too quiet. She refuses to leave the room. She doesn't want to see anyone else other than him. She even asked him to tell the vampires to leave her alone. She made him go outside and get her the blood packets. Even after finishing hundreds of blood packets, she is still hungry. He can tell that something horrible is happening inside her. 

It's only been hours since she woke up. Her stats are frozen. There's nothing wrong in the analyzation report of her blood. However, he can't be sure because his analyzation cannot check the status of magic in her body. The seal might be keeping her magic frozen, but what is happening to her body after the enchanted magic and aberrant life force energy merged? 

"Put them on the bed and get out," Huang Qiuyan tells him from a distance. Though Xiao Chun Dan doesn't have a blood vein inside his body, she's still afraid of going close to him. If she could, she would use the bond to call Fu Sheng back. Whenever she tries to tap into the bond, she finds something keeping her back. 

The boy places the blood packets on the bed and leaves the room without saying a word. She is thankful that he is so obedient today. She doesn't have the energy to argue. Rather, her throat is so dry that she is having difficulty speaking. She exhales and picks up a blood packet. It doesn't help her, but it's better than nothing. She sits down on the cold floor and sips the blood. A few drops of blood fall on her white shirt. It takes only a few minutes for her to finish all the packets. She's still thirsty. Craving for something more. She lies down on the floor and resumes staring at the ceiling again.

She should find Kai.

If she gives in, she won't be able to face Fu Sheng. Drinking the blood of pureblooded vampire is not same as drinking a hunter's blood when she was on the verge of death. As his mate, she shouldn't drink another man's blood. Even if he hasn't accepted her as his mate again, she shouldn't disappoint him. She made enough mistakes. 

It is only a sip. If it doesn't satisfy her, she won't seek Kai again. 

No, she drank fifty packets of blood in the last few hours. Where did all this blood go? This is not hunger. Something is wrong with her. What happened when she lost consciousness?

She can hold herself back. She only has to wait for a while. Fu Sheng must be on his way back. Through the bond, he must have sensed that she's sick. He will come back.

Why is she this weak? She's always causing trouble for him.

She should take Kai's offer. Fu Sheng should finish what he set out for. She doesn't want him to abandon his mission and come back for her. It's only a sip. Only a small sip. She will do better after drinking a little.

Huang Qiuyan sits up. She grabs her hair and squeezes her eyes. She feels like she hasn't eaten for months. 

Just a little will do. She will only drink a little.

She walks to the door and then, she turns around. It doesn't feel right. Then, it doesn't feel wrong either. She paces around the room. She won't succumb to her cacoethes for drinking the blood. She can hold back until Fu Sheng comes back. She doesn't want him to look at her with disappointment. She won't be able to bear it.

Outside, Xiao Chun Dan is reading the vampire encyclopedia in his mind. Though pureblooded vampires are rare, the converts aren't uncommon.

[When converts lose control of their thirsts, nothing would satisfy them until they give in to the insatiable craving. In the bloodthirst initial stage, the converts have an extreme urge to drink. Their skin becomes white due to the lack of required blood craved by their bodies. In the next stage, the converts often have blackouts and are controlled by dark instincts. They often have no recollection of their past actions. In the last stage, the converts' minds are overtaken by their thirst for blood and lose their rationality. If a convert reaches the last stage of bloodthirst, it's best to exterminate its' life.]

Xiao Chun Dan rubs his forehead. His host is already in the initial stage. Is that why he can't get back in her mind? 

"Uncle, why are you sitting on the floor?" The arrogant childish voice wakes him out of his thoughts. He looks up and sees Little Fu Mian standing in front of him while watching him with furrowed brows. He notices that she's carrying a book in her hands.

How did this little nuisance here? Xiao Chun Dan scowls at her. This is not the right time. "Why are you here?"

"Uncle." Though Fu Mian hates calling him that, she doesn't want to risk angering her mother. It was quite difficult to get out of her room. She pretended to sleep until Uncle Noah was gone. Then, she sneaked out of the room to find her mother. She's been walking for a long time.

"I can't sleep."

Sighing, Xiao Chun Dan stands up. He might be the only system in the world who has to take care of his host's adopted daughter. Even if he hates this girl's existence, he is still her uncle. "You can't sleep. Then, I will read to you."

"..." Who is asking him? She wants her mother to read it. "Uncle, if you read it to me, I might start hating the story. You shouldn't work too hard. I am going to see my mother."

When he sees her turning around and take a step toward Huang Qiuyan's room, he grabs her hand. "Don't go inside."

"Why?" Fu Mian tries to jerk off his hand. "I want to see Mommy. Let me go."

"She's not feeling bad." Xiao Chun Dan explains, "Don't bother her now. I can read better than her."

"But, I want her," She yells at him. "Uncle, don't try to keep my mother only to yourself. You should learn to share. She loves me more."

His host loves her more? He grits his teeth. "That's not true. She loves your father more."

"That's fine. I love my father more than I love her," Fu Mian replies with a clear voice. "But, she loves me more than she loves you."

"Why would she love someone who can kill her with a drop of blood?" Xiao Chun Dan lets go of her arm and bursts into laughter.

"You!" Red with rage, Fu Mian points her trembling finger at him. "You are a bad uncle."

"You are a bad niece," He barks.