171 Am I weak?

"What if..."

"No" Xu Beihan stopped yifei from speaking whatever she had in her mind.

Even though Yifei herself did not want things to go the way they were going, there was nothing she could do about it.

Yifei was able to see that things were already out of their hand. Trying to softly persuade Beihan she caught his arm lightly and spoke, "Beihan, Why don't we try to talk to someone?"

Beihan was in deep thoughts. He was physically present here but his mind was wandering somewhere else. He frowned and narrowed his eyes. Looking towards Yifei with a fierceness he shook his head showing his rejection on her idea.

Yifei already knew the result. She still wanted to try and see if time had healed his hatred. Unfortunately, like years ago he still had the same hatred, and Yifei's another attempt to persuade him failed.

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In Qing Shan's office,

Throwing a stack of papers on the floor Qing Shan shouted, "What is this? Can't you find out who orchestrated this?"

"What is the use of having you all then?" Qing Shan asked pointing towards the trembling group of people.

"There is nothing they could do." A hoarse yet authoritative voice sounded following which grandma Qing entered the office with the support of Secretary Han.

Entering the office Grandma Qing first gestured the group of people to go out while Secretary Han helped her on the couch.

Qing Shan remembered how his grandmother had warned him not to try and find it. Grandmother Qing's words resounded in his ears. Sitting on his chair as if his body has lost all of its strength he covered his eyes with the back of his hand.

Looking at Qing Shan who was sitting on the chair trying to accept his failure Grandma Qing felt sad. She knew he would feel dejected after not being able to give a proper answer to Zhi Ruo after her injuries. But there was nothing he could do.

There was nothing she can help him with except warning him to not go deep about the matter. For now, she can just stall the time. Stall the time for their fate to be crossed. She didn't know if history would repeat itself or a new history would be created. But she can only pray for the safety of her children.

Today her purpose of the visit was actually to make Qing Shan give up and remind him of his promises and the dangers lurking around him.

She knew things, she knew everything that happened and at that time, she was young, frivolous. She did not want the same thing to repeat. Now she was old, even though she had the knowledge she was weak. There was not much she could do. She can only help both of her children to grow stronger and support them with the knowledge that she had.

At the most, she can substitute her life for them. But her one weak life was not at all worthy as compared to a strong and determined life.

Qing Shan was feeling unworthy. This was the second time Zhi Ruo had been in a problem because of him. During both incidents, he was unable to give her a satisfactory explanation.

During the first time, he had promised to not fight for blood with family, making him unable to do anything to his brother. During the second incident, he is unable to even find the person who orchestrated the incident.

How weak can he be?

Is he even a man?

These things were burdening him, crushing him again and again.

Squeezing his heart to the point it started bleeding.

He felt unworthy of himself, unworthy of loving Zhi Ruo. unworthy of everything.

A man who had the control of everything yesterday was feeling unworthy of himself today.