Chapter 444

Bai Liu turned his head to the side, his eyes moved down to avoid Xieta's sight, he stood up quickly, and his tone was calm: "It's going to be dawn, I'm going back."

"Then..." Scheta raised his head quietly, his silver-blue eyes also reflected the dim moon in the sky and Bai Liu who was standing by the corridor, and asked in a very soft tone, "Would you like to return tomorrow?" come back?"

Bai Liu was quiet, he didn't ask [Then do you want me to come] like yesterday, but Xieta seemed to know that Bai Liu wanted to ask this question, so he answered naturally: "I hope you come tomorrow."

The scene in his eyes floated, reflecting the cloud at dawn: "I hope you come every day."

"That way I can see you every day."

Bai Liu's breath stopped clapping, and the fingers hanging by his side curled up, and when he took another breath, his tone was flat again, as if a stranger: "Why do you want to see me every day? ?”

"I'm just an ordinary sacrifice."

"There's no need for a high-ranking evil god to see me every day, and then waste so much passion and curiosity on an ordinary sacrifice like me."

Xieta looked at Bai Liu intently: "Then you are just an ordinary sacrifice."

"Then why did you come to see me on stealing the keys the night before?"

"Obviously we can see you at the evil god festival in a few months' time, can't you?"

Bai Liu paused.

Xieta laughed suddenly, he lowered his trembling eyelashes, looked at Bai Liu's right hand curled up slightly behind his back, then Xieta raised his left hand, slid his slender fingers into the gap between Bai Liu's clasped fingers, and slowly , holding Bai Liu's hand with interlocking fingers.

"It was you who woke me up with pain, and you were the one who wanted to see me, but in the end, I, an evil god who doesn't understand anything, should tell you why I want to see you every day."

"I'm just an inferior, substandard mirror."

Xieta raised her eyes, and looked at Bai Liu with good eyes: "Of course it is why Bai Liu wants to see me, and why I want to see Bai Liu."

"Can I wait for you tomorrow night?"

Bai Liu pursed his lips into a straight line, and he clenched his hands for a few seconds to hold Xieta's cold fingers, but soon loosened them again, and walked quickly towards the exit of the shrine with his head down, leaving only A sentence without emotion:

"I won't come tomorrow night, you don't have to wait."

Scheta's hand was loosened, and she fell to the corridor.

The wind blew up the big tree in the middle of the courtyard, and the fallen leaves fell one after another, making circles of ripples on the pond. Xieta stood up, and his whole body was caged and blown up as light as a cicada's wings. Thin and wide sleeves, through the gauze, the fallen leaves, the wind, and the morning light, the eyes are completely blurred, only the fading smile on Scheta's face, and Pale lips that seemed to fall apart.

Bai Liu heard the sound of the chain moving behind him, and he heard the chain on Xieta's feet being dragged on the ground, then stretched straight, making the sound of being pulled.

Scheta was walking behind him without making any sound of footsteps.

Bai Liu didn't look back, but stopped in his tracks, with the icy temperature left by Xieta's fingertips on his palms, he closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and asked, "What do you want to say to me after catching up?"

"I don't understand." Scheta whispered, "I think you want to come to see me."

"But why don't you come?"

Xieta paused, "Are you angry?"

"I'm not angry." Bai Liu was silent for a few seconds after finishing speaking, "But I'm really not very happy."

"Indeed, I will use all means and means to meet someone because I want to see him, but if that person is only willing to see me because I want to see him, I will feel that my efforts are worthless ‌Equal returns.”

"Because it's not an equal deal."

Bai Liu lowered her eyes: "You are just reflecting my affection for you."

Scheta asked softly: "Then what is an equal deal?"

Bai Liu finally turned around slowly, he stared at Sieta's clean eyes, without any emotion on his face:

"I need you to see me yourself."

"If one day, Mr. Cthulhu wants to see me, I will naturally come to see you."

After finishing speaking, Bai Liu lifted the lantern placed at the door, bowed slightly and bowed to Xieta who was standing still in place: "Good morning, Lord Cthulhu, I still have to practice the sacrifice course, so I will leave first."

Xiao Kui, who was yawning by the attic window, looked at Bai Liu, who came down the mountain road with a lantern, and raised her eyebrows slightly: "It's very early today."

Bai Liu went back to the attic where he lived, put down the lantern lightly, took off his clothes and lay down on the tatami.

Although the movement was very light, it still woke up Cang who was next to him. He looked in horror at the white willow whose dark eyes were staring straight at the ceiling, rubbed his arms, and carefully Called: "...Master Bai Liu?"

"Are you in the mood...not okay?"

Bai Liu hummed lightly: "It's sort of."

Cang  moved over curiously: "Why? Didn't you just meet Mr. Cthulhu?"

But obviously Master Bai Liu was in a good mood when he came back from the country after seeing Lord Cthulhu yesterday.

"Because I hate people liking me because I like each other." Bai Liu's tone was flat, "That kind of love is very cheap, not as stable as a deal, just like the love for a dog."

Cang was shocked: "What is love for dogs! Dogs are so cute! I really like dogs!"

Bai Liu, who was lying on the tatami, glanced sideways at Cang: "Then why do you like dogs?"

Cang did not understand very much: "Of course it's because the dog is cute!"

"No." Bai Liu withdrew his gaze, "People like animals because they presuppose that animals love themselves, so they choose animals that they can easily dispose of without loving them, such as dogs, cats, and rabbits."

"Because these animals have no ability to resist humans, they can only be domesticated or abandoned in the face of humans."

Cang's pupils trembled, and he stuttered a bit: "No, that's not the case!?"

"Then what if you raise a dog that doesn't love you?" Bai Liu continued, "That dog bites you every day, grins at you, and causes you and your family to suffer many serious injuries. ,what will you do?"

Cang began to waver, he opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say a word.

... He will probably send the dog away, or even beat the dog.

"This is why humans choose safe pets to love. This is essentially a pursuit of low risk and high return." Bai Liu said softly.

"But it's not all like this!" Cang tried hard to refute, "My liking for dogs is also due to my natural liking for their personalities!"

Bai Liu swept his eyes wide: "In the same situation, there are two pets, a dog with a snake-like temperament and a highly poisonous lizard with a dog-like personality, who would you choose?"

Cang stammered: "...a dog."

Bai Liu asked nonchalantly: "If so, can I choose neither?"

Cang immediately answered: "I will choose neither!"

Bai Liu looked at the ceiling: "But I chose that poisonous lizard."

Cang was very shocked: "?! Why, isn't it possible to choose neither of them?!"

"Yes, I didn't want to choose either." Bai Liu slowly put her scarred arm over her eyes, and then exhaled slowly, her tone was very calm, " But I fell in love with the lizard, so I really wanted to keep him."

Cang's pupils trembled continuously, he almost panicked and took a few steps back, then swallowed nervously: "Master Bai Liu, are you in love with a lizard, a lizard?!"

Bai Liu was familiar with the lizard's reaction, and continued: "But this lizard doesn't know that he is a human, because he has no way to give me the same share of human affection."

"I'm probably the only human in the world who can raise such a lizard that can poison everyone at a glance."

"He only knows that I am the only human being who will take the initiative to approach him, touch him, and be with him forever, so he will take the initiative to touch me, hug me, and be nice to me, It's like how people feel pity and love a dog who comes to lick their hands."

"Gods should feel this way about weaker people too."

Bai Liu's breathing became extremely slow: "But he still doesn't understand what this means to me."

"It's really hard for me to admit... I would love..."

Bai Liu said that his chest suddenly rose and fell, he clenched his hand covering his eyes tightly, clenched into a fist, pressed hard to the point where his fingertips turned white, took two deep breaths and then fell silent down.

After a long, long time, Bai Liu didn't talk, and when he fell asleep because Bai Liu covered his eyes with his arms, he suddenly heard a sentence from Bai Liu. Here is a slightly hoarse sentence:

"It's really the most unfair deal I've ever made."

Bai Liu smiled shallowly: "I actually love God like a dog."