Chapter 88 - Overthinking leads to nothing

Pacing in his room, Shanaya thinks hard how to start. It was so awkward for her to speak of such things. But, she could feel Vihaan's eyes on her, expecting her to speak.

But, damn it! Those eyes were making her nervous.

All she wanted was to say it and end the agony and maybe the guilt she was feeling.

"It may sound weird and, I am sorry in advance, but, just don't take me wrong or, such thing." blabbering while using her hand to convey her words, Shanaya looked at Vihaan.

Reducing the distance between them, Vihaan winced when the motion creates pain, but before Shanaya could see him in pain, he spoke:" What's wrong?."

But before Shanaya could say, she heard the third man" Sir, first aid." .

The thought of someone seeing her inside Vihaan's bedroom that late in the night caused tension to Shanaya and she stopped dead. No way she was going to let others know about them or even have any doubt on them.

Hell, they were not even 'them'.

She saw Vihaan moving toward the door and heard him saying something like " Thank you and make sure to do what I said earlier."

Next moment she saw Vihaan putting the first aid box on the table and giving the attention back to her" Sorry, yes, what was it?".

But, Shanaya had other things in her mind. She remembered the words Vihaan had spoken the moment she had entered and, she spoke out with a concern" What's wrong? Are you hurt somewhere?".

"No, I just found I do not have the kit in my room so, I asked." hoping she would buy the lie, Vihaan tried to change the topic by asking" Yes, back to you."

"Just get over with it, Shana!" listening to her heart speaking, she no longer gave a damn to her mind stopping her and blurted out" Did we ki.." but at the last moment her mind took control and, she stopped.

"Kissed?" Vihaan completed the sentence in his mind and, his heartbeats increased like ten times.

Shanaya did not need to complete the question, for she had already gotten her answer. The look on Vihaan's face was her answer and, she found she was, lost.

She realized she had no idea what she would be doing after knowing the answer. But, at the moment, looking at Vihaan, she knew she should have given a thought to it.

How was she going to react once she would hear Vihaan saying 'Yes'?

Will Vihaan even speak the truth?

Vihaan had no obligations to speak the truth, and, he might not have remembered it at all! Hell, what if it was a mistake from his side.

What if he says the alcohol in his body leads to it, just like Shanaya's.

That kiss meant so much to her, even if it was a drunken kiss. For God sake, it was her first kiss!

She was not going to crumble and break because of someone else, anymore. She had a bucket of it in her past.

All the negative thoughts start rooting in her mind, and before she knew all the negative habits of Vihaan start erupting in her mind.

Every breath leaves her body the moment she realized she had fallen for someone who is drunker and, it shook her like nothing. She had loathed every person, whom she had seen drinking and for god sake, Vihaan had done it, again and again.

He had even challenged her to see him drinking the night she had gone on the terrace to talk to her parents.

Looking at her all silent, Vihaan spoke with tension in his voice" Did we, what?" but got no reply.

Shanaya did not hear any word Vihaan said, her mind on Riya's words" Shanaya you are repeating the mistake." and she now knew Riya was correct.

Saar too was drunker and was not that one of the reasons they could not be together?

"Sorry, I have nothing to ask, I.." not knowing if Vihaan heard her, Shanaya walked toward the door, busy in her thoughts and world.

"Shanaya? Tell me what's wrong!" losing the patience, Vihaan grabbed her elbow, stopping her from moving. He did not even give attention to the fact he just called her by her name.

He needed to know if she was talking about kissing and, no way was he going to let her go without it.

"And then what? You are going to kiss her again and then what? Are you ready to be in a relationship? Will you ask her to be with you? Hell, will she even accept you? You do not even know if she has anything for you." he stopped the moment he heard his mind and, losing his grip on her elbow, he stood blank.

But, he needed to be clear on it. He wanted to know everything that was going in that little head of Shanaya's. He wanted to know how she was feeling, but the silence from her side was torturous.

He was ready to accept any decision of hers, but not the denial he had seen Shanaya doing. He knew she was talking about the kiss and, he was going to give them a chance more.

And, after that? He was sure he was going to let her go if she wanted.

"Complete your sentence, Shanaya. Did we, what?" making sure he had her attention, he spoke with his eyes locked with Shanaya's.

His heart was pounding in nervousness.

All he wanted was her to acknowledge the kiss, nothing more nothing less. He wanted her to accept it, as if the kissing matter to her, just like it matters to him.

But everything shatters the moment he heard Shanaya" Nothing, I was just ..." and he did not give attention to her words anymore.

He was going to let her go.

He had let her go.

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