Chapter 98 - Let's move on

Shanaya's expressions changed with the speed of the light. She had not seen him since the previous day.

But, she turned her attention in the direction Erina was looking and, she winced with pain.

Sitting at the far corner of the hotel vestibule in the black suit, looking more handsomely than ever was Vihaan.

But, not alone.

Seated opposite to him, was a beautiful woman all dolled up in a black sleeveless gown.

She was there to impress him, as in really impress him.

Vihaan seemed to have heard Erina, for he looks at their direction and the shock on his face was enough to say he was not expecting them to be there. .

Looking at Vihaan who had changed his hairstyle as if to impress someone, Shanaya knew one thing.

He was playing with her feelings.

Shanaya felt betrayed and broken, again and, she knew her mind was correct all the time.

"I will meet you later. I have to meet someone." without looking at Erina, Shanaya spoke and walk away from her.

She could not risk showing her tears that were on the verge of falling.

Rushing inside the restroom, she had sighted earlier she could not be more thankful in her life.

The restroom was all empty, all to her tears and sadness.

Bending on the white marble slab, she breathed heavily, as if she could not breathe properly. Gasping for air, she opened her mouth and stroke her heart with her right hand.

She did not know how much time passed all she knew was, she was feeling the wet liquid on her cheeks which was going down to her lips, further down to her neck and cleavage.

Looking at her broken reflection, standing in the same posture, she saw herself crying for someone who was not even hers.

And the mere thought cracked her, broke her completely.

She wept hard while sitting down on the floor of the restroom, her arms embracing her in the warmth she needed at the moment.

Only one thought was in her mind "Let's move on."

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"Are you okay, Shana?" looking all concerned for her, Saaransh eyes were all over her.

He was surprised when he had received Shanaya's call and was shocked when he had heard her saying "We need to meet, now."

Drinking the coffee while sitting in the Saaransh's office, which was an hour away from hers, Shanaya nodded.

But, she could not speak a word.

"Shanaya, what's wrong?? Why your eyes all puffy as if, you have cried?" Saaransh was beside Shanaya in a moment, his hands palming hers, his eyes on her.

God, the state she was in, was unbearable for him.

"Did you mean every word you say to me, last night?" placing the mug back on the table, Shanaya looked straight in his eyes.

The question surprised Saaransh but, he answered knowing, it was the best in the current situation" Yes, I meant every word."

The thought that someone likes her sincerely made her happy a little as if, she had found a ray of light in the middle of the black hole.

Saaransh was the ray of light and, her 'life' was the 'black hole'.

"I am sorry I could not answer you at that moment." stopping Saaransh from speaking by squeezing his hand she continued" I do not want to lie to you about anything. I like you too, but, I do not love you and, I do not know if I would ever be able to."

"Shanaya, it's okay."

"Please listen to me Saaransh before ȧssuming anything." pleading him to listen to her, Shanaya waited for a minute.

She had so much to tell but had no idea how to start.

"I am not a person you would like to be in a relationship with, for, I am a broken person" trying her best to deliver what she wanted to, she continued even though she knew it was not going good " I might not be able to make you feel special or loved."

Stopping for a moment, she looked at him listening to her patiently, his attention solely on her.

And, she knew she was not going to make a mistake. For the first time, she was going to make the best choice of her life.

"I might not be able to give you many things you want but, I want to try it with, you."

Saaransh's heart was pounding.

He blinks several times, his face covered with the emotions of disbelief. He wanted to believe her every word and, he wanted to be selfish to grab the opportunity, but, he could not.

Squeezing her hands, he looked in her eyes and whispered" Shana, you need not hurry. Take your time to think about it. Do not try to be with me thinking I would be hurt by it."

"Saaransh, no!" interrupting him immediately, Shanaya leaned toward him unknowingly and, spoke softly, but, meaning every word" Neither I am feeling bad for you nor, I am saying it out of all love. I want to move on from someone and, yes, I am selfish to say it, but, I want to move on with you."

"I want to gain the experience of being in a relationship with you. I want to be happy with you. I want to be with someone who wants to be with me."

"Shana, you are not, thinking, correctly. I do not know what's going on with you, but, any more word from you and, I would be selfish enough to ignore every possibility of being away from you." palming her face in his hands, he spoke softly.

"Do not make me imagine things I won't be able to have, for, I know it's your pain that's speaking not you." looking in her eyes, Saaransh spoke the things he was thinking.

In truth, he was hurting himself by giving her another chance to rethink.

Listening to him, Shanaya knew what he was doing. But, she was not going to hurt him anymore. She had made a choice, all she needed was his answer "Do you want to be with me? Do you like me in real?"

"I like you like crazy, Shanaya. I want to be with you every moment of my life."

"Do you want to be with me even after knowing I am going to be in a relationship with you for forgetting someone?"

Shanaya was not going to lie to him about anything. But, she was also not going to use him or hurt him.

"Yes," Saaransh need not say another word.

He meant it.

"Then listen to me, carefully. I might not be able to be a perfect gf, but, I promise you, I would be loyal to you. I would never do things that would hurt you."

Hesitating a little, she withdraws her eyes from him, as if, the next thing was not something she would have liked to say" I might not be physically involved with you, but, I would be with you from my heart."

Closing the distance with a sudden move, Saaransh palmed her face and spoke with the softest voice ever" I do not want you to be with me for physical things, Shana. I want you for what you are, not for your body or my dėsɨrės."

"Date me, Shanaya Malhotra." and then, he smiled and saw Shanaya smiling.

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Love to all ❤