Chapter 2.1

Hannah’s body fluttered when Masha said she was throwing them away.

“What…, what?” I became a shameless person who abandons her children.

No, I mean, is that right?

I’m running away to save my life, but I’m going to be a cold-hearted adult who leaves them?

‘Ma, Masha, ····.’

‘Are you really leaving?’ Ian asked.

Even Ian’s face, who was only expressionless, had a shade.

“See, the new teacher said she wouldn’t like us either!”

Jeremy said, kicking the door madly. Suddenly I feel like I became a sinner. ‘I went out of the temple like this…’ I felt like someone who had really grown up was coming to revenge for the abandoned. In particular, Jeremy said that he remembered the days of a nursery school while sleeping one day and find himself a knife. (I’m sorry I don’t really understand the last part) 

“……Uh····· um······.”

It was a difficult situation.

Eventually, Hannah caught Masha’s eyes dripping with tears. The children’s shoulders were drooping.

‘These children….’ The villains Hannah thought were not like this. The small and hurt little kid was never the villains she thought.

“Teacher…”

No matter how poor the children look at it, no matter how hurt they look! I had to leave without looking back.

‘But, ···.’

Suddenly, a voice floated in my head. “Older sister(Nuna)!”

10 years ago.

Come to think of it, it was a very strange day.

‘Nuna! Nuna! Let’s go to the supermarket together!”

Usually, it was rare to refuse my brother’s request to go to the supermarket together, but that day I feel really tired. I can’t go to the nearby supermarket where you can only cross the street. I’m tired of my brother’s crying and screaming so I sent him cold-heartedly to go home.

And that day, my younger brother left.

To a place where you will never return.

It becomes something that can’t be washed away.

For a while, it was a sad past when it was so hard to be separated from the children who were about the same height as her younger siblings.

“Sister, can’t you come with me?’

That one word still remains a dagger in my heart.

And so Hannah was particularly weak to the children with the same age as her younger brother.

“Like this, are you leaving us behind…?”

When Masha spoke with his tearful eyes once again, she quickly opened her mouth.

“······No.”

It was because of the appearance of the children overlapped with her younger brother.

So it is. At that moment, I couldn’t leave the children cold-heartily.

“Teacher isn’t going anywhere. I was trying to move the room because it was uncomfortable. Don’t worry. Huh? Masha, don’t cry…”

Hannah felt her heart shrunk when the children cried. Suddenly, Masha ran to her arms and held her. “Teacher, if you abandon us, we won’t… No…”

“Yes, teacher is not going anywhere.”

Hannah had no choice but to pat Masha’s head and smile awkwardly to Jeremy and Ian. I know these kids aren’t my younger brothers, or maybe it’s just a fantasy of being in the type of the novel, but I can’t turn blind to the crying child. Even thinking that they were poor children, I began to feel more and more concerned.

I don’t know if it’s weak or stupid, but at least now I couldn’t get rid of the kids in a cruel way.

‘I am digging my own grave.’

Fortunately, she was thinking positively and saying, “Let’s raise the children to be nice.”