Chapter 27 - Match 27

"What do you want to talk to me about?" Alex asked Luke. 

No one could overlook the concerning look he had on his face. His motion of taking Alex's hands in his shocked the younger but he didn't try to remove them from his grip. He liked the warmth they provided. After a while he felt a caring touch and that made his heart flutter. 

Luke stayed silent for a while almost like he wanted to build up the tension. In reality though he was trying to best way to reveal to him that they were mates without shocking him or scaring him. Yes, it was clear that Alex liked Luke but being mate was more than just a simple crush. It was an eternal bond. An oath of love that surpassed the laws of mortality and that could scare someone so you as Alex, especially the thought of being with the same person your entire life if you never had any relationship experience must cause a lot of anxiety.

"Are you going to keep quiet forever?" Alex teased him and gave him a hint of a smile. He didn't know all the troubling thoughts that lived in Luke's mind like little parasites but still he wanted to erased that troubled expression from his handsome face. 

"No. I'm sorry" Luke mumbled feeling quite embarrassed. "I want to begin with telling you how sorry I am. So much has happened the last few days and you have dealt with everything more maturely than I could ever do. Even though you're only nineteen. I said so many harsh things to you, I led you on, I insulted you and made your life even more troublesome and for that I am really sorry. I know asking for forgiveness could be a bit too much but I hope you won't hate me." He said and came to a pause waiting for Alex to reply. He was hoping that the boy would be positive about his apology. He wasn't good with expressing stuff, putting too many words into it or showing his emotions but his apology was sincere and to him that was the important thing, he just wished that Alex could see it too. 

"You really did hurt me. You know not even a day in my life was I able to be honest with my feelings or with who I was while I lived with my parents. In my life I had romanticized the few peaceful moments we had just so I wouldn't be in so much pain. Only when I left home I could finally come to terms with what was happening and when I talked to you and told you that I liked you was the first time I had ever told a boy that I liked him, I was openly accepting who I was but you really made me feel bad about it. I was so hurt, the torture seemed like nothing." He said with a bitter smile. "I will accept your apology though, not because it doesn't still hurt or because I am not disappointed in you but because I need to move on and by being spiteful I won't find peace and right now that's all I want."

Anyone would think that a boy in his nineteen years would only think about partying and living a life full of excitement and adventures. Youth did not come twice after all. Alex was so tired though. After everything, just in a few days he felt like he had aged at least ten years and all he wholeheartedly wished for was some peace and quiet. He just wanted to step on the freshly cut grass of the soccer field and start kicking the soccer ball until his muscles hurt. Then he wanted to take a warm shower and lie on a soft bed with cold sheets and sleep for hours without worrying that a spider would crawl into his ear from sleeping on the ground. He just wanted to feel that his life would be normal again. 

"Thank you." Luke said. He couldn't describe how he felt about what Alex had said. It was obvious that the forgiveness he had gained was not because of love, it would be obscured if he even thought of that. Like and love were two very different things but he couldn't help but crave for more. The heart was never merciful though, it always tortured its owner with craving more and more, torturing Luke. He knew he should rush things. He knew it but yet he wanted to grab Alex and pin him down right there. Was Alex a virgin? He wondered and his cheeks got tinted a slight pink. 

"Was that what you wanted to tell me?" Alex asked him, since he was seeing he stopped talking. 

"No, no there is more." Luke said trying to get his thoughts in order. "While you were away and I found out my father took you I was so worried. I am not good at expressing myself but…but…Mikael pushed me to the edge somehow. Telling me all the awful things that could happen to you I was so scared that I could never see you again and that it would be my fault. Anger, worry, fear. All of these feelings were just overflowing, taking over me and then it happened. Deep inside I knew it that's why I wasn't so surprised but I don't know how you will take it. Alex, while I was feeling all of these things the mate bond snapped and I realized that you and I are mates and this mark on your shoulder is our bonding mark."

Alex's emerald eyes widened and his pupils dilated. His mouth was hanging open and he took his hands away from Luke's making the young wolf feel a sudden hit of loneliness as the warmth left him. He opened and closed his mouth a few times. He was thinking and thinking trying to make just one sentence but he couldn't. Was he happy about this? He liked Luke, yes but being mates? From what he had understood something like that was a forever thing. An eternity. A soul binding once in a lifetime occurrence and someone had just announced to him that he was a part of something so huge. Wasn't he supposed to feel it too somehow? Is it because he wasn't a werewolf? What should he say to Luke now? He felt like he was being asked by a stranger to marry them. This was not frozen and he definitely didn't want to be Anna. He always considered her stupid.

"I don't want to be Anna" he mumbled and Luke looked at him with a confused frown. Once he realized what he had uttered his whole face turned a bright red. "oh my God!" he cried and rubbed his face with his hands. "What I mean is, we haven't even gone on a date I don't know how to process all of this, I mean I still haven't really realized that you turn into a wolf yet."

"Yes. I understand. I was pretty sure you were going to say that but I want you to know that I don't want to pressure you. Take as much time as you want but I really hope you would want to stay here. Mark can stay here too if you want." Inviting the threatening friend was a big drag for Luke but he would try and do everything so Alex would stay. Even if it meant having him around. 

"You want me to live here?" Alex asked. That was definitely something he didn't expect to hear but to be brutally honest he didn't expect any of this.

"Yeah. I want you to think about it. Talk it over with Mark. We could get to know each other. Get to know of our feelings."

"Yes but I am studying too you know. What will happen with college?"

"My father can deal with that. There is nothing you actually need to worry about. Just take your time and think everything through. I will need to leave now I need to speak with Mikael and my father. You can rest here and we will come to pick you up and lead you to your room"

It must've looked weird to Alex that he suddenly confessed all of this things and he got up ready to leave him alone just like that. It was his way of letting him organize his thoughts. Showing him that he would not pressure him or burden him with his own feelings. He knew that Alex would love him eventually, a mate bond was never wrong all he needed to do was get his mind around everything. He wasn't used to this life, to this world so Luke needed to give him time and try to make him his. 

He stood up and dusted off some invisible dust from his jeans. He smiled at the boy who looked so confused and tried not to tease him about his fish like expression. Confused as he was in Luke's eyes he was adorable. 

"I'll be going now. Get some rest." He said but as he headed towards the door Alex's voice called him.

"Luke, do you have a mate mark too? Like mine?" Alex asked him and e stopped. He didn't turn to face him. He was scared that his expression would give him away.

"Yeah, I will show you later" he said.

He lied. Again.

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Sooo how do we feel about Luke? I wanna know xD.