Chapter 104 - 104- Theseus' Deepest Fears Pt3

"I will ask Theseus to be my soul link" Allias repeated almost as if he ignored everything his mother said. Yes, he was acting like a spoiled teenage boy. Like a brat an attitude definitely not a worthy description of a royal, a prince, a future king but he was willing to risk everything. He loved his people, he loved the idea of leading his kingdom to prosperity but he simply loved Theseus more and he couldn't do anything about that. From the first moment his heart had been like this, captured in an unsolved spell. "If you don't let me I will quit"

"No you won't" Suddenly Theseus revealed himself behind the closed door. His mother didn't seem the least surprised that he was there. Once more a darkness had surrounded him. The darkness Allias had fought so hard to dispel had returned and he couldn't help but fell chills down his spine. This wasn't good. "I won't be your soul link Allias." He told him in a cold tone. 

"I was wondering when you were going to show up" Atalanti told him and looked at Theseus with a look filled with disgust. "Is this what you want? For Allias to ruin his future and harm his people just because of you?" she asked him.

"No that's not it" Theseus said not even bothering to look at her. He was simply focused on Allias who had been looking at him in shock from the moment he had appeared. It wasn't that though that had stunned him, it was his obvious denial of such an important matter. And so fast at that. Did he really not want to be his soul link? Was he the only one who believed they would have been something more?

"What are you talking about? You said no?" Allias told him, forgetting that his mother was even in the room. He didn't care about the wedding; he didn't care about anything at that moment. Just the sound of Theseus' words and his bitter sentence was enough to ruin everything. The woman, not really intending to interrupt sat on the bed, from the side that faced the balcony. Realizing that both men had ignored her existence she decided to keep quiet and see how things would turn out. 

"Your mother is right. You need to have children. A stable political ground. This is not only you we are talking about; this is the elven tribes."

"So what? We are going to completely forget about us? Is that the solution? You are willing to leave again? Just so I could get married? Can you really forget me so easily?" 

Theseus kept quiet. His words were a heavy burden, filled with pain. He knew that no matter what he said disaster would end up crashing them. The queen was right there observing them and probably Allias had ignored her presence but he still felt it. Her watchful eyes, the way her hands played nervously with the sheets waiting for them to end their conversation.

"I can do that, I can do it if it means that you will get to be the best you" Theseus said and Allias' face expressed only pure anger. He was his best self when he was with him. He didn't need any more excuses; he didn't want the responsibilities if he couldn't be happy. "Where are you going?" He asked him once he noticed the brunet getting ready to leave. He ran towards the door and opened it loudly, facing the empty corridor. The light was coming in from everywhere but all Allias felt was that clouds were covering his heart. 

"I am leaving. And I don't want you…" He said pointing rudely at his mother "…or you to follow me. I had enough with your bullshit about responsibilities and your secrets and all the other crap you are trying to force in on me. I love you Theseus. It's that simple. I do not wish to get married. It's that simple. I will only rule well my people if I am content with myself. Simple. So get this information through your head the next time you decide to talk to me" Allias told them, his voice echoing loudly. 

Soon people began to gather, servants from all over the palace curious of the commotion to realize that no one was there. Allias had teleported away and it was only Theseus left with Atalanti. The woman stood up and approached the unknown elf, he grabbed him and pulled him inside, closing the door behind them.

"You and I need to talk." She told him. 

"What is there to talk about? I know you don't want me to be with your son." Theseus told her. He was aware she was the queen. He needed to be polite, respectful and even think twice about looking at her in the eyes. He was angry though, angry he had to sacrifice everything once again because of rules. Because of a royal status, because his blood was not pure. An heir? Was that really the reason? Maybe, Theseus knew he couldn't provide that but at the same time it didn't really matter. There were many young and strong children out there. They could adopt and make a family so his most concerning thought was that his mother, the queen simply did not want him. 

"You seemed pretty eager to give up on your side" She said.

"So what? Is this some kind of test?" Theseus asked her with a vicious grin and she raised her shoulders. 

"Maybe or maybe not. Honestly I don't know if you should be with my son. I've seen you leave him many times. I've watched him get depressed and alone every time you go away and how he changes when you are back. Is this just love? It is possible but is it an obsession? This is what I definitely don't want for my son, the future king. Especially when you, have no plans of staying here, as it seems. That's why I want you out of the picture." 

A failure. What that really what he was? Theseus wondered. All he ever wanted was to be good enough. For his father, for his brother, for his people. Someone to recognize him for who he was and not as his mistakes, not as his mother. Atalanti right now he was reminding him of that nightmare. What he had hoped was for the best. Get a name for yourself and then say him away with your head high was just another wrong choice. 

"I love him"

"Does it really matter though? You yourself said that you didn't want to ruin his future." Atalanti told him. Yes, he had said that but he honestly didn't mean it. He just didn't want Allias to hate him later on for all the opportunities he would miss. Just him, it was alright if the whole world hated him but he should see him differently. Like the person he aspired to be, that simply gave him hope. 

"I can be good for him. No matter what the people say. I am strong. I will protect him and be on his side. I just…"

"You just need someone to desperately acknowledge you" 

"I…"

"My son's love is not enough for you. You need the people to tell you are right to just believe it. How can you support anyone if you yourself don't love yourself?" 

"I am trying" 

"I do not really care about you. I care about my son so tell me. How is it going to be? Will you leave or will you stay for him?" Atalanti asked him and he felt like someone had wrapped their fingers around his neck that was chocking him. 

"What did you answer? What did you say?" Allias asked him like an excited child in the middle of his story. He was looking at him with his beautiful green eyes filled with anticipation. 

"I left of course" He told him and kissed his forehead as the elf king frowned. 

"You were really immature for sure."

"I know" Theseus said and chuckled. He caressed his cheek and told him "I think I am better now though" 

"I will be the judge of that but my love," he said and approached him, entwined their hands. "You are enough for me. You are worth every single part of my heart. You should know that and if you don't I will tell you again and again until your deepest fears will disappear. You are enough." 

"I…" Theseus mumbled and felt tears bowling in his lilac eyes when his bedroom door suddenly was busted open by Allias' best friend.

"Since no one seems it's fitting to let you know Ea is hunting down a man with his daggers all over the palace while screaming at him. Everyone is scared." He announced while panting. "Sorry to intrude though."

Theseus immediately turned away not wanting to be seen so vulnerable and emotional. He wiped his tears in a hurry and turned to look at the red head. 

"How did that guy look?"

"He had blue- black hair and red eyes. Pretty cute. A very snobbish look. Kind of like you" he said pointing at Theseus and Allias laughed. 

"So as it seems my brother has returned home. This will be interesting. Let's go"

"Wait what about the story?" Allias told him with a frown.

"The story will be still here later my brother probably not because Ea will kill him" Theseus said and all of them got out of the room in a hurry.