Chapter 139 - 139- The Start Of A Secret

"Is that how you felt? When you met me and when I died?" Allias asked his lover. He was standing with the book open in his hands. His eyes turning round and tears unconsciously falling on the shabby pages. He slowly turned his head, staring at him. He was trying so hard to forget. He always wished to keep these feelings hidden inside him, somewhere in the back of his heart. He was telling himself all over again and again that things now would be different. That now Allias was back he didn't have to feel this way, there was no one to stop them, no one to shame him for not being good enough but reading this right now, these words written by a man hidden behind a mask made him remember those days. Not the events but the feelings his lover had made him feel, the pain and the joy. How could someone he had probably never met before describe his heart better than he ever could?

Allias removed the book from his hands, wanting to prevent the tears from ruining the pages. He closed it and placed it carefully on his nightstand before he hugged Theseus. The man was sitting there in silence, unable to utter a words as the King sheltered him in his embrace. 

"Do you understand now? The pain you have felt. The love you have felt for me, does not equal with anyone else's. You didn't steal me. I was always yours. From the very first moment I stepped on shit because of you" he told him with a chuckle. "So do not feel guilty. Just love me, stand next to me and be confident. No other could be by my side. I swear" he said and kissed his forehead. 

"Did you write this book?"

"Theseus, I was dead…how could I have written it? I didn't even know it existed until that kid Alexander gave it to me. I kind of like him. I told him he will be coming with us." 

"I won't be placed in one of those weird automobiles with all these dogs, cramped. I am almost two meters tall do you think that would be comfortable?" Theseus said and looked at him with a frown. No matter how confident he was his hate for that specific pack wouldn't easily go away. 

"It's fine! Do not worry." Allias said while laughing. He seemed to be feeling a lot better right now and the King's worried had been slowly eased by the annoyed expression on the general's face. "I was not sure if the wolves were going to be of use in our journey so I had a talk with Mark. He will probably deal with it."

…..

Mark was not sure who he could ask. He wanted to help his best friend and honestly being in that crappy junk of a car once more was not his ideal transportation especially after his style upgrade. How idiotic would look if they were dressed like billionaires and got out of a car that seemed to be dead? So unfortunately not feeling close with anyone in this hell hole and hating ninety percent of his inhabitants, like the buffoon he was, he had to go to the person he hated the most and actually at the same time…really liked. 

Standing outside his dorm room, where he had spent most of his time feeling at peace and safe made him question a lot of things. If he was doing right being there and even if he had the right after the cold way, he treated him to be asking for favors. None of this matter though now, Allias had given him a task and considering the fact that he has been the weak human friend for most of the stupid story he felt the need to prove his worth and do something. He couldn't just start killing anyone since he was well aware that they could turn him into dust so the best option was to be, the errand boy. 

"Are you going to come in or what?" He heard Mikael's voice behind the closed door and his eyes widened. 

"How did…"

"Your heartbeat is racing like crazy. Also I can smell you. Come inside." He said and the ginger haired boy opened the door. 

"Hey." He greeted Mikael shyly and stood at the door frame. Ready to run away if he felt like he had to. "I…Umm you see…I would like to ask you for a favor"

"I am very good Mark, thanks for asking. How about you?" Mikael said as he stared at him from his bed. He was sitting on the black sheets not really telling him to get in or get out. His room was completely the same. Filled with posters and a bit messy, in dark colors. 

"I was going to get to that!" Mark said as a blush spread all over his face, his small ears turning a bright red. 

"I am sure you would." Mikael said and stood up, approaching him. "So what is it that this heartbreaker needs?" 

"Your phone" He said trying to ignore the fact that he had called him a heartbreaker. It was not only him that it was in pain it was Mark too! This was so unfair. He had to make that decision though for the best of both of them, no matter how badly he wanted to kiss him right now, or as cliché as it sounded to get lost in his deep blue eyes. 

"That brings me back" He said with a smirk and took out his phone from his back pocket. "Who are you going to call?"

"My mum. I need to avoid being in this car of yours one more time"

"Hey! That's my baby. Sorry I am not loaded like you."

"Money has nothing to do with elegance" He mumbled as he typed his mother's phone number. He didn't bother moving away since he knew Mikael would hear everything anyways so he just stood there, with the wolf staring right at him and him trying to avoid his gaze as he heard the beeps of the phone ringing. "Hello? Mum? It's me Mark. Yeah, yeah I am alive…please don't scream in my ear. Yes, college is fine. My phone is still broken hadn't had the time to fix it. Please do not scream, let's be civil okay? No you don't have to give me dad on the phone. It's late. I just called because I need a favor. No I do not remember you only when I need money. Mum. This is a serious deal and my reputation is on the line. It's for the sake of elegance so can you please hear me out? Okay. Thank you. Can you please send two cars at…. Yes, tomorrow morning. I appreciate it. I will call more often. I love you. Goodnight" Mark said and turned on the phone with a bitter expression. His mum was worried sick and he hadn't even thought of calling her with everything that has been going on. He was really the worst.

"You know there is no reception in the elf world. Not even electricity so how will you call her?" Mikael asked. 

"I will just pop up here and steal you phone" Mark told him with a cheeky smile. 

"I don't know if I will be in the compound after this, I am thinking of leaving." Mikael told him. "I do not want this life."

"What about Luke then? Weren't you two supposed to be inseparable?" mark asked filled with curiosity. He was always so set on being with his best friend, becoming his right hand but now he announced that he was planning on leaving. 

"He knows it and he is fine with it. He is aware that this is not who I want to be. Being a Beta one day, means being forced to do things that I don't want. Ruling a pack is not that easy and it hides a lot of darkness to protect the people. I can't do that" 

"And where will you go?" 

"Don't know yet. Probably somewhere far away. Why? Will you miss me?" Mikael asked him with a devious smile. He took a step closer, and squeezed Mark between one of his bedroom walls and his body. He rested his palm right next to his head and towered over him as he waited for an answer. 

"What if I do miss you?" Mark asked, noticing how surprised he was by his answer. His cheekiness disappeared and he didn't seem to be in the mood to joke anymore as his eyes were deadly serious the next time he spoke. 

"You rejected me" 

"I know that."

"Then what? Are you here to get my hopes up and then ditch me again because you're scared? Do you know how hard I tried to get that kiss out of my head? How difficult it was for me to just not storm out of here and go back into that palace to meet you? I stopped myself so many times because that was what you wanted. For us not to be together, so why are you saying now that you will miss me?" 

"It was not what I wanted. It was what had to be said Mikael. I am a human. For you I literally have the lifespan of a fly. I didn't want to torture you with my death one day and I didn't want to be scared that your mate will be reborn and suddenly you will leave me. Are you telling me that all these doubts and worries are not logical?" 

"Then why say it? All you had to do was take the damn phone and then go to sleep. Why tell me that you will me? So it gets harder for me to move on?" 

"I am sorry. I shouldn't have said it. You are right."

"But still you did so if I kiss you right now you have no right to complain." Mikael whispered as his face kept getting closer and closer. Mark's heart was beating so loud he was afraid it would jump out of his chest. He really wanted that kiss, he needed it but was it the right thing to do? Going back and forth.

"Mikael come with me. I need to talk to you?" A voice was heard and their upcoming kiss never happened. The wolf looked outside his room filled with anger, hitting the wall slightly. Very fragile temper. Mark noticed. 

"What?" He asked roughly and got out. Mark peeking at the man who had just suddenly appeared. It was the same man who had sniffed him and asked him about his family. Markus was his name? He would recognize him everywhere with that scar of his and messy curls. He looked at Mark for an instant inside the room and let out a sigh before he focused on Mikael again.

"Come with me. I need to stop you before you do anything stupid." He said 

"No I am with someone right now and I…"

"Go. I will wait here." Mark said with a faint smile.

"You promise?" 

"Yeah, go"

Mark sadly, later on would regret that statement. He wouldn't know about it now, or for a while after but maybe if he hadn't let Mikael follow Markus things would have ended up different.