Chapter 161 - 161- Not A Killer

"Stop doing that you're making me even more anxious." Mark said as he watched Allias pace back and forth, worry written all over his handsome face. 

With every sound, every little movement around them his head would snap and he would try to find the source. He needed to know where Theseus was, if Ares was okay. They had been gone for too long and his anxiety was starting to kick in. He would wait until the morning if he had to. Stand there, without even blinking just to make sure that the white haired man would return. 

"They are taking too long" Allias mumbled and kicked a small stone that stood lonely on the road. It bounced getting further away from him. He followed it once more and kicked it again, wanting to vent somewhere his frustration. 

"This whole operation was a bad idea. We used to have especially trained people to do this. We were not fitted for such tasks. Yes, our combat skills are very good but these kind of things need more than just a simple skillset…." Ea began rumbling about all the things they approached wrong, the mistakes they made along the way until Allias was sick of hearing it. 

"Ea, do you know why we had to do this on our own?" Allias stopped walking and asked him. "I will tell you. Because all of the people that used to do these kinds of jobs for me are dead!" he exclaimed. "You might have not noticed it because you were part of the Disee tribe all along which actually survived the war but, hear me out here it's very important, all the people I knew that could do something like this and trusted have turned to ashes." He told him and Ea coughed, feeling pressured. He didn't mean to insult him but as it seemed he had managed to do exactly that. 

"I'm sorry my King…I…"

"It doesn't matter. We are stuck now. We shouldn't have worked with the wolves; we fell right into Achlys' trap. If we had managed to get Amelia's help everything would be much easier. We planned poorly and trusted them. Shit, now when we return there will be even more shit for me to clean up" Allias said and messed up his hair, feeling utterly desperate. The hunters, the demons, the royals that had remained at the palace, restoring the elf kingdom. He had to deal with all of that and on top of that they had committed a murder that soon would blow up, for sure. With his kind of luck, he was aware that everything is possible. 

"You don't have to blame the wolves. We all did poorly" Mark said and Allias stared at him dumbfounded. 

"Really? Who killed Amelia's sister? I am pretty sure it was Mikael. He didn't want to stay away so we could talk to her, no he had to visit too. We all stepped in a trap and you, were almost forced to sentence someone else to death because of them!" he told him angrily. 

"Why are you so stuck on that? Haven't you all killed someone at some point? Why are you pretending to be a saint when I chose to do this for someone I care about?" 

"You don't get it!" Allias shouted his arms in the air. He tried to calm down. Exhaling deeply as he stared at his furious best friend. Mark was angry, he had all the right to be in a way. He never explained anything to him, why he was so upset about what he had tried to do. 

"No, I don't! So why don't you explain it to me, huh?"

"I don't want you to become like us! You can't! You are a human; lives should matter more to you! You are not forced to go through any of this, you shouldn't be a murderer because I know you wouldn't be able to take it. The burden of someone dying because of you. I wish, I wish I never had to kill anyone. There is always a choice yes, but sometimes both roads are dead ends. Mark you shouldn't turn into any of us. Not for Mikael, not for me, not for anyone. I don't want to see you being tortured about a decision you made, it's not just a mistake. Killing someone will never be and the scar in your heart, your human life will be too short for it to heal." Allias tried his best to explain. Mark was silent the whole time he spoke and sighed. He rubbed his face, hard, showing his frustration, so much his cheeks turned red. 

"He did it for me Allias. I couldn't just…" Allias' eyes widened at his words and rushed towards him. He grabbed him from his shoulders and stared at him, deadly serious with his emerald eyes. Hoping that his friend will understand the severity of his words. 

"Listen to yourself. You are turning into me. He did nothing for you. He did it for his consciousness. So he wouldn't feel guilty later on. Yes, he likes you. I know that but he chose to take the easy road. He could have searched for you and save you, make sure you were alright and Clarissa would still be alive. He didn't do it for you, he just wanted to hit two birds with one stone, save you for sure by killing Clarissa and not feel guilty about you getting hurt if he decided to search for you instead and failed. The wolves Mark are a species that always fights for dominance, they try to control you telling that it's for your own good while all they do is turn you into their puppet. This is why they only get along with their kind. You and Mikael could never fight for dominance in a relationship no matter how sweet he is. Do you understand that? Tell me!" 

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So tell me what do you think of Allias' words about Mikael and the wolves in general? Do you think he is right?

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