Chapter 368 - 368

"We call ourselves soulmates but we don't seem to see eye to eye don't we?" Allias said and Theseus raised his head. He faced a bitter smile, his heart breaking at the sight. 

"Marry me then." The general stated and Allias' eyes widened.

"W-what are you talking about?"

"Marry me, now, right this instant. Be my soul link." He proposed. 

Allias took a step back, stunned by Theseus' words. He couldn't believe that what was his answer. It was unthinkable. They had been together for centuries and this topic had never come up so what was the reason why? Yes, Allias obviously wanted to marry him, he loved him like crazy but was this the right way to do things? Just because of desperation?

"What are you talking about?" The king asked him, his eyes filled with disappointment and confusion. 

"We should get married. We have been together…"

"What is the reason you want to get married Theseus?" The king asked him, interrupting him. 

"Because I love you." He told him and Allias' jaw dropped. 

This man, this elf right in front of him wasn't Theseus. He wasn't the man he had gone to war with, the person he had loved instantly. He had changed, he had changed so much that Allias sometimes couldn't help but wonder if he did something, if he was the reason the general he had loved so dearly had become so insecure. He used to be a warrior, mad and beautiful, framed by the intriguing colors of mystery but now why, why was he like a shriveled paper? A piece of art that had been ripped and thrown away. 

"You want to marry me because you feel insecure. Because you are still scared after everything that when this girl arrives here I will leave you, push you to the side. Why? Why? I love you. All my life, thousands of years I have only loved you, I have only looked at you, adored you like a god so why? Why don't you believe in me?" 

"It's not that I don't believe in you Allias." Theseus said and looked at him. A very sad smile was forming on his face and his chest rose as he breathed in heavily. "It's me, I don't believe in me." The general told him. 

"You need to start loving yourself." Allias said and stepped forward. He cupped Theseus' face, made him look at him right in the eyes as he spoke to him. "You need to see what I see in you. The intelligence, the kindness, the beauty, the warmth. You need to love yourself to be able to see how much I love you. I freaking I adore you, so much that it hurts me. You need to love yourself too, or else our relationship will be a tangled mess of shouting and misunderstanding. You deserve to be with me, if you're asking me you deserve this whole world and I wish I could give it to you." He told him and Theseus closed his eyes, resting his cheek on Allias' palm. 

"You died for me. The pain I felt back then. The years I spent siting on that throne looking at completely nothing. I am scared, petrified. I have turned into a coward and while back then I found your emotional decisions, your recklessness and you being spontaneous so attractive, charming now they scare me. They frighten because I have lived with the consequences and the nightmares and the pain. If I lose you this time I know, I know it very well I won't be getting you back." Theseus stated and the king felt his warm tears trail paths on his hand, following the blue veins on his skin. His lips were slightly parted, slowly turning into a thin line as he thought. 

Sometimes there was no time for thinking. He moved in and kissed Theseus, surprising him at first. The lilac eyes shot wide open but soon his arms were already wrapped around his waist. Strong, a firm grip that almost took his breath away but he loved it. The familiar sensation of his hair between his long fingers and the wetness of his lips, the salty aftertaste of the tears that had coated them. 

There was no way back once you had fallen in love, there was no selfishness. Simply fear, that anxious feeling that if you lost the person you loved the most in the world your whole world would crumble. Theseus had been through of that, his monsters still lingering around his healing heart trying to find a way and sneak in. 

The elf king stepped back, a small smile on his lips as his forehead rested on Theseus'

"I won't leave you alone, never again. I swear. I will always be by your side, even if get tired of me, even if you don't want me anymore I will stick to you like a disgusting leech so help me help you. See what I see. Your beautiful eyes, your, oh, so kissable lips…" he said with a giggle that made Theseus smile "… your kind heart. Love yourself again and have faith in me. Because I have faith in you. Okay?" he asked him. 

"I could never get tired of you. I must be mad if I even thought about it." Theseus said and Allias cocked an eyebrow. 

"Have you thought about it?" 

"Maybe. When I first met you. You were a prince and all. I had my fair share of royals after all." Theseus confessed and Allias gasped dramatically. 

"That's stereotypical to say the least." The king told him and Theseus laughed. 

"Allias, thank you. You have always been so kind with me, through all of my mistakes. I am sorry. We can get married though, if you want." He joked and felt the king's fist land on his abdomen. 

"Shut up." 

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