Chapter 161

Lu Zihan felt a little cold. After all, she only wore a thin short sleeve dress. She didn't go to take care of the red wine handed over by murchi

She doesn't want to drink with him here, watch the stars, discuss the future and dreams.

"Go back?" She wanted to go back quickly and bury herself in the quilt so that she could feel at ease.

Gu murchi silently put down his glass, then got up and took off his only shirt!

Then casually draped in Lu Zihan's body, low head does not turn his eyes at her.

Lu Zihan only felt that his limbs were stiff. He was so close to him. Hongguoguo's chest and perfect abdominal muscles made Lu Zihan feel that the originally cold air heated up, but it was hot.

Wearing his clothes, she felt that he was surrounded by a faint mint aroma and the intoxicating smell of red wine.

"Just a moment! Just a moment, and then go back! " Gu murchi spoke very seriously and firmly.

Lu Zihan doesn't know how to react at all. In order to get away from his body and his breath, she just feels that her legs are soft

Then she really sat down, bent her knees up, held them in her arms, and lowered her head slightly.

When the thin bangs are gently blown up by the night wind, you can see her drooping eyes and staring at her toes.

She was going to sit here in such a resistant posture, and then she said seriously, "just five minutes!"

Gu Mo Chi gently smile, eyes flashed a trace of hard to find bitter, but still quickly cover up, like a flow of good sat in Lu Zihan's side.

They are silent. Lu Zihan stubbornly looks at his toes. Gu Mochi pretends to be relaxed and looks at the scattered stars in the sky

"I'm not with anyran."

In the silent air, Gu murchi's voice suddenly sounded, deep and dumb, like the melody of an elegant cello.

Lu Zihan gave a little meal. She almost forgot what she blurted out at lunch today. Is he answering now?

Lu Zihan didn't respond, and Gu just looked at the sky and said, "if I say... I have nothing with an Yiran. What you saw at the beginning was just a misunderstanding. Do you believe it? "

With that, he looked at Lu Zihan's head. The night was really dark. Even if there was a light, he couldn't see her face clearly.

Lu Zihan has been biting her lower lip, and then holding herself more tightly. She feels cold... So her body is shaking slightly.

In today's confused sleep, she experienced the original scene again.

He and an with ran embrace together of intimate, still have oneself foolishly knocked over lunch box to run away in a mess of figure.

At the beginning, she knew that as long as he said it was a misunderstanding, she would believe it without hesitation.

Now... Four years have passed.

Lu Zihan's heart was bitter. She didn't look up. She just said in a soft voice, "maybe four years ago."

Her voice was very thin and soft, but she spoke very seriously.

Because we are serious, we speak word by word slowly, which is a serious attitude.

"Alas..." Gu murchi sighed. He knew that his explanation was too late for many years.

However, he still hoped that she would believe him. Looking at Lu Zihan, he didn't feel dissatisfied because of her distrust.

Because he knew that Lu Zihan couldn't trust him easily. When he got her trust, he wasted a lot of time, and finally he put his own feelings into it?

Now, what does she believe in empty talk?

"Don't you look at me?" Although Gu can understand Lu Zihan's distrust, he is not dissatisfied, but he is still lost.

He looked at Lu Zihan holding himself in a circle, locking himself in his own world and refusing everything from the outside world

After waiting for a long time, Lu Zihan still looked at her toes and was very defensive.

Gu murchi's heart began to ache. He wanted to untie the knot, which had been stinging them for four years. He wanted to pull it out, even if the wound was bleeding again!

I don't know how, so I suddenly put out my hand and grabbed Lu Zihan's hand, then stuck it to my heart

"You don't look at me? Why? Look... Here... What's this? " Gu's voice trembled.

Even if he tried his best to control it, the emotions buried and repressed in the past four years were so strong and deep that if he touched them lightly, they would tumble like mountains and rivers.

Lu Zihan was startled and subconsciously wanted to withdraw her hand. Then she felt Gu Mochi's skin, which was as perfect as jade, but had a stiff protuberance.

She looked up in disbelief and saw that her hand was pressing on a centipede like scar.

"Ah Lu Zihan screamed, and he wanted to take back his hand more and more

But also at this time, she not only saw the jump on Gu's heart, which was almost as long as her finger's wound, but also a scar on his side abdomen

The ugliness of these scars left an indelible mark on his once wheat colored healthy skin.

"You... How could you..."

How did you get so hurt? Although she is not a professional, she also knows that this is not the wound of an operation.

These wounds were sewn up, like a ferocious big centipede crawling on his body.

Gu Mochi's skin is boiling hot. He reaches out his hand and fastens the back of Lu Zihan's head

Then he pressed her on his chest, hugged her hard, and said, "I almost died... Lu Zihan, I almost thought I would never see you in my life, you know?"

Lu Zihan was so confused that he could only let him press her on his chest. Her face even touched the ferocious wound.

Her heart beat, but she didn't understand what Gu meant?

Dead... Such words are really far away for her, especially when the word is associated with Gu murchi, how can she find it so difficult to understand? Why don't you understand?

"I'm useless."

Gu murchi's voice continued to come from her head. It seemed calm, but he could feel his Pengbai mood at the moment. "I can't protect you, Lu Zihan. I can't protect you, so I can only watch you leave!"

The voice of self mockery spilled over thin lips, showing sadness and helplessness, "four years, do you know how much I miss you? Do you know what I think when I lie on the operating table and feel my heart stop? I just want to see you again... "

"Gu... Murchi." Lu Zihan did not struggle.

Although she could only see his skin in front of his chest, she still widened her eyes, "I don't understand... Why I don't understand."

"You don't need to understand!" Gu murchi hugged her more tightly, almost choking her.

"You just need to know that I've been dead once. If Gu murchi has any involvement and scruples, I can't protect you..."

Gu Beichen's words are a little bit forbearing, "so I can only let you go; Now, there is no more involvement and scruples in Gu murchi, so... I will never let you go again, do you know? "

"What do you mean, what do you mean?" Lu Zihan's eyes turned red

She suddenly struggled, but only in exchange for Gu murchi's more solid imprisonment, she roared: "do you want to explain now? Is that your explanation? "

Lu Zihan's depressed pain burst out at the same time. She almost yelled, "what do you think of me? You just want to say, at the beginning, you had to worry about it? You almost lost your life, so you left me? So you... "

Abandoned sugar?

But she didn't say these words.

She was stunned, and a smile came to her mind. Although she was only three years old, she was forced to hide her emotions in advance.

How hard was it for her to be ridiculed because she had no father? But in the twinkling of an eye, she could smile so sweetly at herself

Tangtangming is very concerned about it, but she always represses her grievances and discontent in her heart. She is only three years old... But she is forced to understand the cruelty of the world.

She understood

Although Lu Zihan has never said that, Tangtang knows that she understands that she is a child abandoned by her father. How much shadow has this fact caused in her heart?

Is it a joke that she has been wandering in a foreign country for four years? Should Tangtang... Bear all this?

no no

This is not an explanation, a misunderstanding can erase the injury! This is not the reason why he abandoned them. What if he could not survive? What difficulties did he encounter? What setback?

Did he ever tell her? Did you ever want to let her know? And tried to explain?

He drove her away without saying anything. He abandoned her so ruthlessly just because he couldn't protect himself or was afraid that he couldn't protect her. Didn't he know that if someone hurt her, she didn't care. As long as he was around, she didn't care.

But what about the harm he did? What if he had a good reason?

He never thought that... She would rather die with him than bear the weight of his words at that time

The word "divorce" came out of his mouth, which was more painful than killing her.

She's his wife... The one who's going to spend her life with him.

Sharing weal and woe, it turns out that they are just a joke?

Lu Zihan is in a state of confusion. The sharp pain makes her lose her mind. They both walk into a strange circle. No matter how hard they struggle, they can't get rid of it!

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it... Gu murchi... Do you know? I would rather die at the beginning than go through the pain and suffering of these four years, so I don't believe... I can't believe a word of your words! "

Lu Zihan's tears had already crawled on his face, and then rubbed wet against Gu Mochi's chest. She kept shaking her head and crying... As if these four years had been a joke. Was her world so ridiculous?

People may be so ridiculous, she can bear the endless harm of others, because she does not care, so can be indifferent!

But she can't bear the hurt of the people she loves, because she cares too much... She can't bear it.

"Why don't you believe it? What do you want? Lu Zihan, what do you want? " Gu Mochi grabs Lu Zihan's arm and tries to wake her up and let her walk out of her strange way of thinking.

"You hate me, don't you? I know... My hurt to you makes your life worse than death, so you hate me and refuse to forgive me... If you think so, it's very easy for me to die! "