Chapter 5

And yet. Even though I love you this much, you dont understand my feelings at all.

No! How am I supposed to know??? How am I supposed to know?? How?? Who can even read your emotion when you never even twitch? Or even move any of your mimetic muscles?! If theres a human who can read it then show me yourself now!!

Yeah You are truly terrible. Arent you terrible?.. Even though I love you this much.

Isnt that supposed to be my line? Im the one whos being pushed down though? Im going to go on a journey from here on! Then suddenly you pushed me down and told me how much you love me, arent you the terrible one here??

. Alaine-san.

I slowly called out to Alaine-san, my voice was calm and composed. There was no fear. I already knew fear well enough through my nightmares. Having a beautiful woman whom I knew talking to me wouldnt bring fear in me.

..Even if she pushed me down! Yeah!

What is it?

. Alaine-san, I understand your feelings but still, I need to go on this journey. I just cant give it up for this. I need to go on this journey so I can find out the true meaning of myself.

Yes. I need to find it out. Why did I get transported into this world? Why did my sense of taste die? Why am I plagued by nightmares every single night? Why did I have to lose my son?

And

Why cant I talk about myself to another person?

I hate this. I dont want to keep on living a life filled with agony like this. I dont want to carry my anguish alone without anyone else to understand it.

You want to find yourself.

Yes. As Ive told you before, I have lost my memory.

I dont know why but I cant tell anyone else that I came from another world. I cant tell anyone else about my life before I got transported here either. Thats why I lied and made up an excuse that I have lost my memory.

Where is my birthplace? What was I doing before I lost my memory? I cant stand not knowing. I cant stand not knowing about myself. Im very grateful to you, Alaine-san. Thanks to Alaine-san, Im able to go this far. Im able to keep on living. But still, I need to know.

I appealed to her passionately. I looked up at her with upturned eyes, my eyes glistened in unshed tears.

I see..

Alaine-san slowly raised and got off the sofa.

Oh? Could it be, my words got through? Does she understand me now?

Then I will go on that journey together with you.

.Huh?

I became completely frozen upon hearing Alaine-sans sentence.

T/N: A very logical and sound conclusion I dare say. Good luck FL! Im rooting for you!