Chapter 228

Chu Zhixin never thought that he would end up like this again.

She had tubes of all sizes inserted in her body, and countless tubes of blood were drawn every day. At the same time, many unknown liquids were injected into her body.

The so-called power she used to cover up the space necklace made her come to this end. In this illegal private laboratory, she is the best research object.

Chu Zhixin doesn't know who betrayed her, nor when such a day will end. He can't survive or die. That's what he said.

She didn't understand that God gave her a chance to be reborn. Why did she end up like this.

Why didn't the last world come?

In the experiments again and again, Chu Zhixin felt that her life began to come to an end. When she thought she was finally free, the underground laboratory was investigated and dealt with, and all the laboratory personnel were taken away by the police. As the victims of the experiment, Chu Zhixin was saved, but her body was irreversibly injured.

It was only after she was saved that she knew that one of the funders of the laboratory was the Huo family. After the laboratory was destroyed, the three members of the Huo family were also arrested.

They want to study the secret that happened to her and think this is the only chance for the Huos to turn over.

Chu Zhixin stayed in that laboratory for too long. When she saw the light again, her father was in prison. Her mother couldn't stand the fall from the rich lady's life to hell. Soon after her father was in prison, she became a mistress for a fat old man. Finally, she was stripped of her clothes and beaten in the street by her original partner, which completely became a joke in the circle.

Her always excellent brother could not stand the guidance and ridicule of the people around him. Under the temptation of some social people, he completely went to the road of degeneration.

Chu Tianyin, whom she has always hated, has a better life than everyone. Although the Chu family fell, she has a considerable legacy left by her mother and Yan Chu escorted her behind. As long as she doesn't covet too much, her future will be smooth. Even if the end of the world doesn't come, she can't achieve the brilliant achievements of the previous life, but live a safe and prosperous life, Maybe that's what Chu Tianyin wants more.

Chu Zhixin doesn't understand that her parents are true love, and she and Huo Lin are also true love. Since they are true love, why do they end up like this.

She hopes God can give her another chance to come back, the next life, the next life

Chu Zhixin is a little confused. Will he come again in the next and last life?

******

"I want to be a good man."

Yan Chu looked at the man standing in front of him. He had a scratchy beard and thin cheeks. He curled up in a chair. His eyes were dull and did not seem to see the man in front of him.

"I really, really want to be a good man."

He raised his head and looked nihilistically at Yan Chu. His eyes were full of red blood and wanted to laugh at himself. However, the sad expression had been made for too long. The facial muscles didn't know what kind of expression to smile. The corners of his mouth wanted to pull, and finally he only made an expression that couldn't cry or laugh.

"There is no room for good people in this world. In my next life, let me be a thoroughly bad person."

He gave up smiling, looked at Yan Chu, said such a paragraph, and then disappeared out of thin air.

"Ding, the main task is to be a good person. Success rewards 2000 points, failure closes the small black house for 100 years, and branch tasks let all bad people get due punishment. Success rewards 1500 points and failure closes the small black house for 80 years."

Listening to the familiar system broadcast, Yan Chu couldn't help feeling a little touched in his heart.

Just when the vower disappeared, he clearly said he wanted to be a completely bad person, but in the end, his real wish was to be a good person.

What kind of complex emotion is this? Yan Chu could not understand it for the time being. He sank down and absorbed the memory of his original body. When he opened his eyes again, there appeared in his eyes a complex emotion similar to that of the man who had disappeared before.

Close his eyes again. When he opens his eyes, he has completely become the man.

*****

"Ah Chu, your car was lent to your cousin. It's not that mom doesn't care about our new car, but your cousin came to the door and told mom in person. Moreover, your cousin has been driving for many years. Don't worry about him damaging our car, and borrow it for a week or two. During this time, you can drive your father's old Santana to work."

When Yan Chu came back from a business trip, he put down his briefcase and was changing his slippers, he heard his mother say so.

"Lend your car to my cousin. Do my uncle and aunt know? Don't be kind to do bad things. They will complain at that time."

Yan Chu put on his slippers, went to the living room and took an apple from a fruit tray.

At this time, the area of the room where he is located is not large. The elevator room with more than 90 square meters has a practical area of less than 80 square meters. There are two bedrooms and one living room, as well as a small study for a family of three, which is absolutely enough.

The decoration of the home is relatively simple and elegant. It can be seen that the decoration is mainly economical and does not give too much consideration to beauty. It can be seen that the conditions of this family can not match poverty, but it is definitely not rich.

As for the new car they just talked about, it was an Audi A3 bought by the original parents for the original. The price was in the early 200000, which was far from the standard of a luxury car. However, it was better to hang the four rings of Audi and it was still a new car. It was enough to coax people who didn't understand. Therefore, the original cousin came to the door and begged his uncle and aunt to borrow the original new car.

This car was originally purchased at home considering that the original place of work was far away from home. Some time ago, the original business trip was not at home, so the car was temporarily idle.

"Why should your aunt complain?" Du Juan doesn't understand what her son means.

"Why did my cousin borrow a car? Doesn't he have a car at home? I just want you to ask your aunt and uncle." Yan Chu said, gnawing at the apple.

"That's impossible." Du Juan denied it without thinking: "your cousin just borrowed your car to drive with some of his friends. Isn't his car too old? He just wanted to borrow our new car. Don't worry. I told him to be careful and won't rub the car."

Du Juan herself also loves her new car. She doesn't have to go to the car shop to wash the car. The old lady takes a bath for the car every day, but she is all relatives. She refuses to borrow a car. It's too smart. She doesn't have a good relationship in the future.

"If that's all, why didn't my aunt speak for my cousin?" Yan Chu didn't believe it and said, "why don't you call my aunt and ask? It won't cost much to use a landline anyway."

Du Juan thought so, so she listened to her son and called her sister-in-law.

"Hello, sister-in-law, my home..."

There was a burst of greetings on the phone. Du Juan hung up the phone for a long time, and then stared at her son eating an apple.

"Look, your cousin is traveling by car. What else can he do? Even if you have to call me, I don't know what your aunt will think."

Du Juan thought that the way she had just inquired was very hidden. She should not let her sister-in-law notice her family's distrust of them, which was a little relieved.

Under the glare of the old lady, Yan Chu chewed the last apple, then threw the core into the dustbin, made a face at the old lady, teased the old lady, and forgot her unhappiness.

"Look at you. You are childish. I don't know when I can find a daughter-in-law for me." Du Juan said and talked about looking for an object.

Seeing this, Yan Chu quickly took an orange and fled back to his room under the pretext of work.

"Every time you talk about marriage, you pretend to be dead and count on you. I want to have grandchildren for the next life." Du Juan shouted at Yan Chu's room, threw the rag in her hand on the tea table and put one hand on her waist.

The more she thought about it, the more she felt that her chance of drinking daughter-in-law tea was slim. Du Juan decided to rely on herself. She simply sat down on the sofa, picked up the landline receiver and called some of her old sisters one by one, asking them to help organize reliable little girls and settle her son down as soon as possible.

Now that we have a house and a car, we lack a daughter-in-law.

*****

"Listen, I just borrowed her car for a few days, and the phone rang up. It's a little broken car of more than 200000, thanks to her."

At the other end, Du Juan's sister-in-law Xu Shufen hung up the phone. As soon as the corners of her mouth drooped, she owed her millions.

"Stop it, too. We really don't have more than 200000 cars."

Yan Jinsheng crossed his legs, wore a white washed yellow old man's shirt, drank strong tea and looked at the newspaper. Tea is the cheapest tea cake. It's the kind of thick pile of tens of dollars. The thrown tea is broken, but it's better than nothing. At least it's better than boiled water.

The conditions of their family are much worse than those of their younger brother Yan Yinsheng's family. Yan Yinsheng, that is, Yan Chu's father, once made a fortune. You can refer to the Santana of the Yan family.

Although the current Santana brand is insignificant, in the early ten or twenty years, it was loud. Whoever has a Santana is a symbol of wealth.

Yan Yinsheng made a lot of money in the video hall business in the late 1990s. Later, the video began to be eliminated by the market, and he didn't transform in time, which gradually declined. However, his wealth saved in the early years is still very rich. At least in addition to his own suite, he also bought a larger square wedding house for his son. Now both husband and wife don't work, Relying on the savings of the past and present, I saved some money and made do with my life.

Yan Jinsheng's family is different. He lives in a regular way. He used to be a worker and takes odd jobs everywhere after being laid off. Now he lives in a house handed down by the old people in his family and has no spare money to help his son.

Their car is a second-hand car that their son didn't know where he came from. It has been driving for four or five years. Because the owner doesn't care much, it's not far from scrapping.

When she first married the Yan family, Xu Shufen was still very tough. She thought she married the eldest son and gave birth to the Yan Family's eldest grandson. She also bossed Du Juan, the sister-in-law, and didn't look at it at all. Later, the Yan Yinsheng family developed. Xu Shufen wanted to take advantage of it and had to lower her temper and get along well with Du Juan, but she was never convinced.

I'm afraid Xu Shufen was the happiest one to say that the prosperous video Hall of the Yan family declined later.

People are strange. It's clear that Yan Yinsheng's family has a better life. She can take more advantages. If Yan Yinsheng's family fails, her family can't develop because of it, but Xu Shufen is happy. If one day, Yan Yinsheng's family can live more lonely than them, she will be happier.

However, at present, this wish is difficult to achieve. No matter how bad Yan Yinsheng's family is, the conditions are better than their family.

"Why was I blind and fell in love with a worthless man like you."

Xu Shufen saw that her man not only didn't help her speak, but also destroyed her prestige. She was so angry that she took the cup of strong tea in front of the old man, poured it into the sink, then put the cup heavily on the table, twisted her waist and left.

"How could I have been blind and fell in love with your daughter-in-law."

Yan Jinsheng whispered. He didn't know whether his mother-in-law had gone far. He didn't dare to say this too loudly.

******

"Drive carefully, you know?"

Du Juan watched her son take the key of the Santana on the porch cabinet and couldn't help telling her.

The car has been bought for fifteen or six years. In the early years, it was driven more, but later it was driven less. It hasn't driven more than 600000 kilometers. Therefore, it's not time to force it to be scrapped. In addition, the Yan Family cherish the car. Although its performance is not comparable to those new cars, it is absolutely qualified only in terms of quality.

It's just that no matter how well the maintenance is, it's also an old car. Du Juan is always worried about whether the car will have problems such as bad braking and oil leakage in the carriage. She thinks about it in her heart, or let her son take the bus to work these days.

Counting the days, Yan Tian can't travel that long by himself. I'm afraid he'll be back in a few days. It's OK to take the bus for a while.

"No, mom, our car was sent for inspection not long ago. There's no problem at all."

Yan Chu ate the big meat bag that the old lady got up early in the morning, took the briefcase, took the key, and hurried away, just like a tiger chasing after him.

"Don't forget what I just told you about having dinner with your aunt Lin's neighbor's third cousin in the evening."

Looking at her son running fast, Du Juan followed her out and told her son standing by the elevator.

"Mom, I work overtime at night. What kind of blind date? You give me a push. Ai Ai, it's too late. I'll take the stairs."

The building the Yan family lives in is the highest on the 28th floor. The Yan family lives on the sixth floor. Sometimes taking the stairs is faster than taking the elevator.

"Little rabbit, work overtime. I think you have the ability to work overtime for me all your life." Du Juan wanted to catch up, but she was still wearing family slippers. She grabbed the door frame and could only scold her son's back.

"Forget it, I'll talk to sister Lin again and change the date to Sunday."

Sunday is a public holiday. If the monk can't run away from the temple, she doesn't believe that the little boy can hide from dating all his life unless he can bring her a daughter-in-law back.

Du Juan snorted, closed the door, and was ready to talk to the old man at home and let him mention his son. Why is such a big man, but she just doesn't know how to understand.

******

Yan Chu, who went downstairs, found his own parking space. Two adjacent parking spaces were Yan's, but one was empty and an old-fashioned Santana parked on the other.

The Yan family bought the house and parking space early. At that time, many people thought it was not cost-effective to buy the parking space. After all, there were few people with cars. They could stop anywhere they wanted. The Yan family bought two parking spaces simply because Yan Yinsheng had soft ears and was fooled by the sales brother. In addition, at that time, the family had some money and bought two as soon as they bought them.

The original parking space of 8000 yuan has been fried to 15. If there are more than one, it can be regarded as the best investment made by the Yan Family in addition to real estate.

Such a family with a house, a car, a small deposit, a stable son's work and parents' pension insurance is not enough and more than enough. It can be regarded as a relatively happy family in the city. If it didn't happen later, the family would always be lucky. After the son married, they ushered in their third generation and had occasional quarrels with Meimei, That's also a little fun of the family.

The smile on Yan Chu's face disappeared at the moment when he got on the bus. The face was not handsome, but it could also be called beautiful, with a trace of cold, and ice dregs in his eyes.

He looked at the time on his watch. It was not time to start. In the process of waiting, he subconsciously took out his clothes pocket and wanted to take a cigarette. Until he touched the empty pocket, he realized that he was affected by his original memory. He himself, including his original body at this time, was not addicted to smoking.

But later, the original body was a big smoker who couldn't live without smoke.

Yan Chu pinched his throat and coughed a few times. He knew that it was a psychological smoking addiction, which was the change brought to him by his later memory. He could also feel that he was addicted to smoking, but he didn't have the unbearable feeling of smoking. His throat was itchy and always felt uncomfortable.

This feeling often happens after he comes to his original body. He is used to it and tries not to stop his mouth.

He opened his briefcase, took out a prepared candy from it and put it in his mouth. It was more comfortable.

With such a delay, the time was almost over. Yan Chu turned the key, opened fire, stepped on the accelerator, and drove to the company.

The original work place is relatively partial. It is a newly developed industrial zone. Many factories are still under construction. Therefore, after driving through the city center, there are fewer vehicles. When the car drives to a section of road still under construction, he sees a black figure lying on the ground.

Yan Chu's eyes were dim and his hands gripping the steering wheel were tight.

Take a deep breath, take a deep breath, for a long time, the emotion of excitement and ups and downs calmed down.

When the distance is closer, you can see more clearly. An old woman lying on the ground seems to have fallen or been hit by a previous vehicle. She covers her legs and continues to wail.

Yan Chu parked his car at the side of the road, got off and walked nervously towards the old woman.

"Aunt, what's the matter with you?"

Looking at the old man lying on the ground, Yan Chu thought of saving people for the first time.

"Ouch, it hurts me. Ouch, it hurts me." The old man's face was pale without a trace of blood. She couldn't come back to Yan Chu's problem. She just kept crying for pain. Seeing that she had been covering her left leg, I'm afraid she hurt her left leg.

"Aunt, let me take you to the hospital."

In the education he received from childhood, being willing to help others and respecting the old and loving the young are the two best virtues. Therefore, when he saw the old man injured, he thought of helping at the first time.

The old man was not fat, and he was not tall. It was estimated that he would weigh less than 100 kilograms. Yan Chu picked up easily. He took the old man to the rear seat and drove to the nearest hospital.

When he got to the hospital, he hurried to register the old man. Because the old man's consciousness was not clear now, Yan chuhai paid a deposit of 5000 yuan on behalf of her family.

Even when he asked for leave, he was checking the old man and asking for it by phone.

"The left leg is comminuted. The old man's bones are fragile. Now, I'm afraid I can't even do the operation. It's estimated that he will be disabled."

The elderly fracture is the most troublesome. They can almost only rely on rest and taking supplements to wait for the broken bone to heal slowly. This treatment method is very negative, but the elderly are old, and surgery also has to take risks. Generally, doctors will not recommend surgery for the elderly.

"Doctor, I'm not the old lady's family. I just saw her fall to the ground on the way to work and sent her to the hospital. Now I've finished the old lady's hospitalization procedures. In the afternoon, I have to go back to work. When she wakes up, let her inform her family to come. You can talk to her family in detail."

Yan Chu said to the doctor in some embarrassment.

"So?"

The doctor looked at Yan Chu suspiciously. Now such a kind-hearted person is very rare: "then leave your contact information. After all, you sent the old lady. At that time, we contacted her family, or let them give you the deposit you paid in advance."

Yan Chu didn't think much after listening to the doctor's words. He directly took out his business card and gave it to the doctor, "there's my contact number on it. Please, doctor."

Yan Chu repeatedly thanked and left the hospital, leaving the doctors and nurses in the ward with big eyes and small eyes.

"Now there are such good people in the world? The old lady doesn't seem to have fallen by herself. It's not the man who hit the young man. I don't know whether this business card is true or false."

A little nurse muttered that it was not her negativity, but the world and atmosphere that forced good people not to be good people.

"Who knows."

The hospital can see most of the world, the good and evil of human nature. As doctors, what kind of people they have not seen and what kind of things they have not heard of.

He hoped that the young man would tell the truth, but in that case, he had to pray for the young man that the old lady's family he sent was also a reasonable and good man, otherwise it would be a big trouble.

******

"Ah Chu, why did you ask for leave this morning?"

Before he went to Xiangjiang on business, the female colleagues in the office asked him to bring a lot of things. They were eager to see them one by one. As a result, they didn't wait until the afternoon.

"Do good things."

Yan Chu took out all the things in the trunk. Some of them were brought for everyone, and some were special products brought to Xiangjiang. He also gave points to his colleagues.

No one is surprised by Yan Chu's words. The whole office knows how good he is. If a colleague has something to do, ask him to help handle the documents and help the shift. He never refuses. Colleagues and friends need money in case of emergency. As long as he has it, he is sure to borrow it, not to mention other small things.

But he is not a bad man. The premise of helping others is that you are really in trouble. His colleagues are familiar with his temperament and like him very much.

"Ah Chu, my mother sent me a box of sweet potatoes from my hometown and pointed them out to you. I have to thank you for the old traditional Chinese medicine you introduced to my father last time. My father hung up his number and drank the medicine for a course of treatment according to the doctor's advice. The old cold legs alleviated a lot."

A colleague of Yan Chu took the hand handed gift handed down by him, pointing to the white foam box that he had placed on the edge of Yanchu's work place.

"They are all planted in their own fields. They are soft, waxy and sweet. They must be safer and taste better than those so-called green foods sold in supermarkets."

Friends get along in different ways. Yan Chu thanked them and didn't say anything. You take things back and I don't want to.

Just when he wanted to say a few more words, Yan Chu's mobile phone rang. He looked at the caller number. He didn't know it. Now there are so many harassing calls, Yan Chu hung up.

After that, the bell rang repeatedly several times. Yan Chu hesitated for a moment and then connected.

"Hello, who are you?"

Yan Chu put the rest of the accompanying gifts on the tea table for his colleagues to take by themselves, and then went outside to answer the phone.

"You broke my mother's leg, didn't you? Lose money. I tell you, it's not over. My mother is disabled. You know, the medical expenses, nutrition expenses, mental loss expenses, and the missed work expenses of our family asking for leave to take care of her can't be less."

There is a rough middle-aged male voice on the other end of the phone. The voice on the other end of the phone is very noisy. There are men and women. They seem to be talking to the calling man and help him supplement.

"You are the family of the aunt I sent to the hospital this morning. I didn't hit her. I saw her fall on the road at work this morning. I paid for the medical expenses for the hospital I sent her to."

He was wronged for no reason, and Yan Chu's tone was not good.

"You didn't hit me. Why did you send my mother to the hospital? It's stupid to think of too much money. I tell you, don't pretend. I have your business card here. I'll go to your company and see if your boss can help us."

The words on the other end of the phone were still rude and didn't listen to Yan Chu's explanation at all.

"Well, ask aunt. She always knows how she was hurt." Yan Chu said helplessly.

"Don't deny it. My mother said that you hit her and lose money. Lose money quickly, or I'll call the police and catch you." If a man doesn't give up, he will eat Yan Chu.

"OK, then call the police. I didn't hit the man anyway."

Yan Chu hung up the phone with a frozen expression.

"Ah Chu, what's the matter?"

The sound insulation in the office is not good. When he called just now, his colleagues in the office also heard about it and knew that Yan Chu seemed to be in trouble.

"Nothing."

When Yan Chu turned around, the expression on his face changed. He was helpless and a little irritable. It was much closer than the cold without any popularity before.

He gave a brief account of what happened during the day. Based on Yan Chu's past and present, his colleagues in the office must believe him. A group of people helped him fight against the old lady who avenged the enemy and her unreasonable son.

However, when listening to Yan Chu talking about the road section he passed during the day, except for a few speeding cars and no onlookers, he vaguely felt that Yan Chu might be in big trouble this time.

"I remember your car has a dash cam. It's okay if you have a dash cam."

One of his colleagues remembered that Yan Chu's new car was equipped with a tachograph. Even if the Lai Zi called the police, there was real evidence, and the other party was unreasonable. Maybe he could accuse him of false accusation and blackmail, so that such shameless people could learn a lesson.

"My new car was lent to my cousin by my mother. Today I drive my father's Santana. There is no tachograph on the old car."

Yan Chu thought and shook his head: "and I remember that section of Futian road is still under construction and has not installed a roadside camera probe. If the old lady bites to death and says I hit it, I really can't explain clearly."

After listening to his words, his colleagues comforted him one after another. If he hit, he hit. If he didn't hit, he didn't hit. Can he say that he didn't survive? Even if the other party called the police, the police will certainly return him innocent.

That said, but in real life, there are still countless people who are wronged for doing good. Why there are fewer and fewer good people in society now is not because the cost of doing good people is too high.

They could not accuse Yan Chu of being cautious. Before helping the old man, take his mobile phone and record a video. When the old man personally admitted that he was not just the perpetrator, but the enthusiastic person who saw her fall to help, they sent the old lady to the hospital.

He is a good man and he does good things. Is it ironic that the way he does good things should be questioned just because the bad guys are shameless.

Especially now Yan Chu is in a bad mood. They still don't add fuel to the fire. It's serious to comfort him more.

"Ah Chu, hurry home. Your cousin has a car accident."

The house leak happened to rain at night. Before the old lady's problem was solved, Yan Chu received a call from his home. Du Juan's voice was crying, and the surrounding voices were also noisy. Yan Chu vaguely heard his aunt's voice. His face changed. He just had time to say a few words to his colleagues, then asked the manager for leave and left in a hurry, Even the box of sweet potatoes specially brought by my colleagues didn't have time to take it.

Yan Tian, the original cousin, is a freelancer. His freelance job is to earn a little when he has a job. He spends most of his time gnawing old and doing nothing.

This self driving tour was organized by him. There were four people, two men and two women. They were two teams of lovers. Yan Tian and his girlfriend were already at the stage of talking about marriage. Such a trip was also equivalent to their last pre marital honeymoon.

The journey along the way was very smooth, but on the way back, there was an accident. The car broke the fence on the mountain road and rolled down the mountain. The car smashed badly. Needless to say, all four people on the car died, including their original cousin.

This can cause great trouble. Which of the four people in the car doesn't have parents at home, especially their generation is still an only child. There is only one child in the family. Although they gather together with Yan Tian, most of them are worthless. They chew old things at home, but in the eyes of their parents, they are heart and liver meat and baby eggs.

Now that the child has died in a car accident, all parents must find an outlet for their towering anger in addition to being sad.

Because they don't know the specific cause of the accident for the time being, those parents can only hate Yan Tian who was sitting in the cab at that time. Remembering that he organized the self driving tour, they hate the itchy teeth. One by one, they summoned all their relatives and friends at home and rushed to Yan Jinsheng's house to ask them to give an explanation.

And isn't Xu Shufen sad that she lost her only son?

Since she heard the news of her son's death in a car accident, she has cried and fainted at home several times. The families of the other three can still use their family as an outlet. Who can she find to vent her resentment and grievances?

Think about it. She really seems to have arrived. That's the Yan Yinsheng family.

If they don't buy a new car to show off, her son won't think of organizing a self driving tour. If Du Juan doesn't let go and lend her car to her son, there will be no subsequent car accident. All this is the fault of Yan Yinsheng's family.

It's even darker to think that her son hasn't had an accident after driving for so many years. Why did the accident happen this time? Was there a problem with the car lent to her son by the Yan family? Du Juan clearly knew the situation, but chose to hide it. They just wanted to kill her son.

People in grief have no reason to speak of. The more Xu Shufen thinks about it, the more she feels that her guess is right. When the families of the other three victims find their homes to make trouble, she simply takes them all to Yan Yinsheng's house.

The car was written in Yan Chu's name. According to the law, he is also responsible. The Yan Yinsheng family should give them an explanation on this matter.

Xu Shufen even thought that if her son died, how could Du Juan's son live? She wanted to make trouble and made it hard, which made everyone unhappy.

When Yan Chu came back, he saw such a chaotic scene. There were a group of people standing outside the house. The furnishings and furniture were smashed in half. His father sat in the corner of the sofa with his mother in his arms. His mother Du Juan's eyes were red and swollen and curled up in her husband's arms. It was obvious that she was frightened by these people who suddenly came to the door.

Until now, she didn't understand how she could borrow a car by herself.