Chapter 32 - The abyss of his dream

Felice’s palace became busy. The prime minister, who had no experience dealing with matters relating to war, hurried to call all parliament members and coordinate everything.

The Emperor’s entourage arrived by the time dawn came from afar. He arrived first in the carriage, of course, and the other knights came a little late on foot. The most crucial issue right now, of course, was none other than the Emperor himself.

“I’ll go.”

Evelyn stepped into a role that was difficult for anyone to take.

“No, that’s not it.” shouted Miriam, and she grabbed Evelyn’s hand.

“I have to go.”

Fabian was sleeping in the most spacious room of the royal palace. This meant that someone had to watch him wake up and treat him with an antidote from the Vatican.

“No one here knows the Emperor better than I do.”

The question was how to give the Emperor the Vatican medicine. Not everyone wished to be in such a poor condition. Still, if they offered the medication, the Emperor would definitely get mad and refuse it.

“It’s better for me to go, because……… I can read his feelings, so he won’t get angry.”

It would be hard to convince Fabian because it’s a sensitive matter. And it was like a disaster for those who had never experienced it. But that didn’t really sway Evelyn to step in. At least she could help solve Fabian’s problem and sent them all back to the Empire safely.

“Don’t worry about me, I’m really fine.”

Evelyn insisted that it was the only way to do it. So Miriam looked at her husband as if she had asked for help to prevent her, but it didn’t work because Arthur already knew that Evelyn was right.

“It’s okay. The Emperor not as scary as people think .”

Even so, he wasn’t a warm person either. Evelyn smiled a little sadly.

“But it would be best if I go.”

Evelyn’s determination was strong, and Arthur had to accept his daughter’s decision.

Fabian had a long, deep sleep. Not only was it made paralyzed, but Twin Fairy’s spores also had a sleep-inducing effect. However, for Fabian, who had lived by splitting his time, it was one of the best rests he ever had since he became Emperor.

[‘Empress’]

[‘Yes.’]

Fabian’s deep sleep made his dream, and he seemed to see someone’s presence in his unconsciousness. They said the dream was a mirror of the mind. Fabian didn’t know the truth of these words, but he vaguely knew that this was a dream he had wished for.

[‘Did you call me?’]

Evelyn’s blond hair was fluttering in front of his eyes. Her face, which slowly turned back, was still lovely, and her blue eyes stared shyly at Fabian.

[‘Yes.’]

Fabian looked at Evelyn in his dream for a long time. Nothing was different from her. From her peaceful eyes, her calm voice, until the soft gestures of her white fingertips. But he couldn’t move because he was afraid that if he reached out, his dream would disappear.

[‘I remembered it…..’]

[‘Why did I choose you as Empress… Why did I push my stubbornness so much?’]

It was the first stubborn attitude that Fabian showed after he became Emperor. And It was because of Evelyn.

[‘I, no, …… I saw you by chance after I became the Emperor.’]

It was a story that he had never told before.

[‘Blonde hair shining in the sun, glass eyes like jewels, and above all, a soft and flawless innocent smile. It hit me at one point, and I kept looking at her all the time. The smile was so beautiful that I felt like someone else who had a body temperature for the first time.’]

Fabian had never seen such a smile. It was the first time he knew a person could have laughed so beautifully.

To have Evelyn, he had a wedding without any thought, even though he had used all kinds of ways. Fabian put a wedding ring on her hand with a nonchalant face pretended not to care, and held the first night.

[‘But I forgot….’]

[‘Since I made her the noblest woman in the world, I have forgotten that there was a smile.’]

Fabian knew nothing but that way. And the title of Empress suddenly replaced her name.

[‘I never forget your name.’]

[‘But I forgot to call you by your name.’]

After all, that was a ridiculous excuse. It was also the melancholy word that Fabian despised the most. But he wanted to keep talking about it in the abyss of his dream.

That’s why the woman he loved said she felt uncomfortable and couldn’t breathe when she was beside him. Only when Fabian was intoxicated with demon poison did he realize that the emotions he felt were pain, not annoyance or anger.

[‘ I thought it was all right, though …… because we’ve pledged our whole life in marriage, and that we can understand each other without saying … ‘]

But as it turned out, it was just Fabian’s own thought. There was no doubt in Evelyn’s face, which had come to him and asked for a divorce.

[‘I didn’t know it was supposed to be.’]

Fabian….., he could only tell his true feelings in a dream.

[‘I’ve never received anything like that, so I didn’t know.’]

That ‘divorce’ word…It hurt him, too.

[‘So you left me.’]

It was calm. As calm as it was, it hurt.

It hurt when Evelyn said it so calmly. There were a lot more things he wanted to say. But at the same time, he couldn’t possibly say it. Fabian was helpless in the dream created by the demon.

Evelyn, who was in a dream, looked at Fabian in silence. Fabian hesitated for a moment, then lifted his hand and reached out to touch Evelyn’s cheek.

It was a light touch as if it could reach her.

“…….lyn.”