Chapter 4

“What… what do you mean?”

The Duke White’s voice trembled.

It’s been a while since his daughter wanted to go out of the room and take a walk in the garden. She came back with a droopy body being hugged by a knight around the evening…

Suicide? She is trying to kill herself…

“Ugh…”

“Duke.”

“Father..!”

The Duke groaned while holding the back of his neck as if it were pulling.

“It’s okay… I’m okay…”

The Duke looked at his daughter lying dead in bed.

His one and only daughter.

Selina, the daughter of her second wife after the death of her first wife, has been greedy since childhood.

She didn’t like her half brother, and he found out that her attitude toward the employees wasn’t good.

He knew that the other young children, even the princess, were angry.

But… Even though she is not good, she is still his daughter.

The Duke could not easily hate or give up Selina.

Selina fell off the stairs and couldn’t open her eyes for four days.

And the daughter, who opened her eyes was throated and couldn’t speak for a while, and she was calm and quiet, just as if she had changed.

‘Who are you?’

His heart broke when he heard that.

It wasn’t a quiet thing. She just couldn’t remember. He didn’t know but he was pleased that maybe his daughter’s personality has changed.

His poor daughter.

His poor daughter spent most of her time sleeping alone in the bed.

When she woke up, they had talked to each other, but the Duke couldn’t hide his regrets watching Selina who always responded shyly.

But today is suicide attempt.

“What would be the reason…Selina.”

A sigh-like sound leaked out of the Duke’s mouth.

***

“Are you hurt anywhere?”

“The butt.”

The old duke’s doctor was asking me the same thing several times. I was repeating the same answer again and again.

“Where do you feel uncomfortable?”

“The butt…”

Wouldn’t everyone think I’m an ass obsessed by this point?

The doctor frowned at my words that the only pain was in my butt, and finally stopped asking.

Seeing that his expression wasn’t good, I wondered if there was a serious problem with my ass.

“Then… Why did you try to jump?”

If my memory wasn’t wrong, I heard this yesterday.

Of course, it was the man with long hair who spoke to me yesterday, and the person who spoke to me today has no hair… After all, even the doctor can’t stop the hair loss.

I closed my eyes mourning his hair.

I wanted to ask him ‘Why did his hair jump?’ but I swallowed it through my throat and answered the doctor’s question instead because I know there are some questions that better not be asked.

“It’s all bothersome.”

***

The doctor came out of Selina’s room, and people who had been waiting in the hallway silently gathered at him.

Duke White, Duchess, Confucius. Even Lucas, the genius knight who saved Selina yesterday.

During this burdensome meeting, the doctor cleared his voice, coughing several times to avoid making mistakes.

“I don’t think she’s seriously injured or there is one. But….”

“But what?”

The impatient Duchess of White asked, stepping closer to him. Tears had already accumulated in her large sky blue eyes.

“She seems to have a serious illness.”

The doctor glanced at the door and recommended that they should move.

They are anxious to leave her alone in the room, but Selina’s room wasn’t very high, and they move to a stuttering place where Selina was sleeping yesterday, putting aside all the things she already had.

“Mind Disease?”

“When I asked her why she jumped yesterday, she said it was bothersome. After losing her memory, stress, fatigue, and lack of emotion seem to have arisen in a combination. It was literally empty.”

“Oh, no….”

The Duchess let out a brief sigh and then shed tears. Confucius looked at the doctor next to him, soothing his mother.

“Then, how should it be treated?”

The doctor shocked his head while his eyes closed.

The illness in mind is something that can not be treated with medicine.

Besides, the calm and dull expression seemed to have really lost all the emotions.

“There is no way right now. All we need to do is just watch her…. If you try to get her memories back right away, the symptoms will only get worse. It is better not to leave it alone. And when will she take such extreme action? ····· I don’t know.”

“Oh my God…”

The Duke leaned against his back.

He thought his heart was falling once again like yesterday, but he didn’t know when it will happen again in the future…

No, he can’t send his daughter that way.

The Duke looked at Lucas, who is listening to this story in the room with them.

Lucas Barnett.

The best knight that he Duke himself has invested generously after paying attention to his talent since childhood.

If it weren’t for him yesterday, his daughter would have been found under the bell tower…

“Sir Lucas.”

“Yes, Duke.”

“Please protect my daughter… Our Selina.”

Lucas nodded at the Duke’s voice as if he had been eaten by fear.

After the Duke assisted the Duchess back to their room, and took care of the doctor, only Lucas and Aaron were left in the office.

Aaron silently swept his face down. My younger sister’s face shuddered in front of my eyes, and he lowered his head.

“Please, take good care of my sister. I’d loved to be around but, I’m afraid it’s bothering my sister.”

Lucas looked at Aaron in sorrow.

Thanks to the support of the Duke, the poor baron was able to go to the Academy.

In addition, the Duke prepared his own room at the duke’s residence, and the duke’s couple treated him the same as Aaron, a Confucius of the same age, without discrimination.

Aaron is his brother and dear friend. That’s why Aaron knows how terrible he cares for his sister.

And the fact that the younger sister hates Aaron terribly.

“Of course. Don’t worry.”

Lucas has often been sarcastic to him, saying that he cares about his stupid and hateful younger sister.

So yesterday, he may have rejected her offer like that. Thinking of his friend as a person who torments his benefactors.

Even knowing that she is a patient who has lost all her memories.

“Huh…”

A feeling of guilt appeared in Lucas’ heart.

Obviously, she said he didn’t have to feel guilty, but he couldn’t help but bother her.

***

I chewed my eyes. I didn’t know what was going on, but A-something came into the empty room and didn’t go out.

“Get out of here.”

“I can’t go out. Miss.”

This is sincerely troubling. A-something was begging me with drooping eyes.

“Why?”

At my question, someone rolled his eyes again. It seemed that yesterday’s failure came back as a result of a tired hump.

I think I sent him here because Selina was closest to her before she lost her memory…

No, this is Selina, so I’m sorry.

What if he hits my head while I’m taking a nap…

To die from others is like a dog’s death, so it’s completely absurd.

“Nevermind. I think I know.”

A-something finally opened his face and stood in front of the door as if he was relieved.

Just by what I saw, he had already been standing there for an hour, but just by looking at it, I think I was tired and my legs hurt.

“Why don’t you sit down?”

“What?”

“Sit down. Sit anywhere. Your leg hurts.”

A looked at me with a puzzled expression, and then he immediately corrected his posture again.

“No. I don’t want to.”

I guess that A-something thinks that I was testing him.

Otherwise, he won’t be able to laugh proudly with the wrong answer like that.

However, he can’t submit the correct answer because my memory is lost. Like for exams, the answer will change depending on the original committee member.

If that’s the case, you have no choice but to become the test-taker.

“I’m not sick of you. I’m sick seeing you like that so sit down.”

Visual Tactile Art… Have you ever heard of pain?

That’s today’s answer.

He took a chair and sat down, looking satisfactorily.

Again, boredom time has passed. There was nothing in this world. There aren’t many exciting novels, not to mention the Internet, and if I want to listen to a piece of music, I have to put the musicians in a row.

Oh, I shouldn’t have failed.

Lucas, you wicked bastard.

That’s fine. There will be another chance.

While making a plan,’I have to die!!’ I didn’t have a heart to do it.

No, isn’t it? Making plans here and there to die…

Unlike being miserable, I feel a little melancholy.

Is it not? Selina? You’re not bothered. I’m doing this for you.

So I closed my eyes to wait for a chance to come. First of all, I have to sleep today.

If a few days pass and there is anything you feel, the reality is that it is not as smooth as you imagined.

In some way, there was no opportunity to come and there was no room to do so. The original male protagonist took attendance in my room every day.

I wondered if it was written in front of the door that the attendance check was a given point, so I asked A-something to go out and check it out.

A-something looked at me with a look as if I am a really strange person, but soon he looked at the visit with a smile of pretense, and then came in and told me it is a lady incharge of cleaning.

The 5th day after  living with a chair in my room, and it was the 5th day after Lucas took attendance.

I ended up being stuck in my room and I couldn’t stand being watched, so I went out.

“I want to get out.”

After I left the room after a long time, A-something and Lucas followed me.

What kind of game party are these people having? I thought the situation would be alleviated if I let the people relax, but there was no change until the 5th day.

Or they’re not still relieved after 5 days?

Even on the 5th day, Selina’s parents came to me helplessly and looked at me with teary eyes.

I wanted to open the window and shout ‘Come back, Selina”

No, Selina, come to think of it, you’ll live a little nicer in the first place. Why do you live like this and make me tired?

“Uh.”

My insensitive exclamation stopped the two people who were following me.

“Selina.”

The person who calls my name in a firm tone is Selina White’s brother, and he tried to believe in Selina until the end, but he was still betrayed by her.

It was Aaron White. The poor sub-man in this novel.