96 WE WERE SO HAPPY

As we both went inside, my mom hugged us both so tightly, and we both returned the hug with the same love and affection, and then my mom kissed our head, my mom also loves Suhani as she loves me, we both are equal for her,

"You both have to care of everything there, and stay with your teachers and other school staff, you are going into a different city and you have to take care of everything right, and do not go anywhere without your teacher's permission,

My mom was giving us nonstop guidance, as we both are girls and the first time we are going on a trip this far, like into a different country, so she was right at her place, so we were just listening to her carefully, after finishing her lecture she said, 

"Jhummi, I packed a little bag for you, this is full of time pass snacks, in case if you feel hungry, you can have them", my mom said handing me a bag,

"But mom, there is no need of this, we will get everything to eat on time, they will not starve us", I said trying to make her understand that we do not need this, but no one can win over my mom, so I just take the bag and opened the chain to see,

And my reaction was too good because my mom brought everything which I like, there were my favorite chips, chocolates, and chips, and some of them were Suhani's favorite, which I showed o Suhani and she jumped in happiness, and then she kissed my mom's cheeks,

"Thank you so much aunt, you are the best", said Suhani, and then my mom kissed her back, "Someone is getting kisses huh", said Neel while coming down from the stairs, and when his gaze fell on Suhani, that was something you should not miss, 

"And someone is getting distracted huh", I said interrupting their intense eye contact, and Neel quickly shift his gaze towards me and came to hug me, and I hugged him back and hit his head for ignoring me, 

"Ouch, he said trying to act, but then he received one more hit from me, 

"Neel, you are done with all your packings right, I mean you did not forget anything right", I asked him and he nodded instantly, 

"Of course I did, I mean I packed all the things, and in case if I forgot anything, I will use your things", Neel said so casually, but Suhani and I laughed so hard, and Neel quickly understand why we both laughed and he really felt embarrassed, 

"AWW, I teased him, and we laughed again, 

"Hey you naughty girls, stop teasing my poor son", my mom stands fro Neel, and we both laughed more, "I said do not", my mom said again and we both shut our mouth, trying hard to control our laugh, 

"It is okay my poor baby", my mom said to Nell and she scratched his head and laughed a little and in the next moment we all were laughing, 

"Neel, quickly have your breakfast, or else you will be late", my mom said to Neel and he nodded, 

"I just woke up", he said and Suhani and I both reacted the same way, 

"What", we both said and he just passed a sheepish smile, "actually, because of overexcitement, I could not sleep properly, and then I fell asleep in the morning", he said and sat on the table and mom served him the breakfast, 

"Jhummi, Suhani, join him, I made your favorite breakfast", my mom said, although we both already had our breakfast, still pasta of my mom's hand is my favorite, but this is really not fair, 

But when I saw Suhani, she already sat down beside Neel, and mom was serving her, I stared her but she ignored my gaze and started eating shamelessly, 

And then why the hell I was standing here alone and staring them, this is my own house, I will also eat huh, 

"Mom, I also want to eat", I yelled and Neel and Suhani laughed on me, 

"of course you can also eat, come, join them", my mom said smilingly, 

And I quickly sat down the opposite side of Suhani, and my mom served me, and the aroma of the food fills my nostrils, 

"It smells yummy mom", I said, "it tastes also yummy girl", said Suhani, and I quickly started eating, and started moaning, 

"Hmm, you are right, it is so yummy", I said making my mom smile, 

"Mom, you can also join us please", I said to my mom but she shook her head, "please mom", I said in a pleaded tone, and she sat down, and I served her, and that made me happy, 

"Love you my princess", my mom said and started eating, "Princess", really, 

I wonder when I was a princess for her, once again I got stuck in my past, and my mind started showing me the flashback, 

When I was crying and begging, why god, why she did not care that time, not even once, and why all sudden I become her princess, how, 

"Jhummi this is not the right time for all this your stupid thoughts", my mind scolded me, but my heart filled with sudden pain, 

"I have to check something in my room, I will be just back mom", I said and excused myself and quickly went into my room, 

I took a deep breath, and let my tears roll down to my cheek, 

I know I should not behave like this, but I can not control my tears, and my mind, 

Every time when I cried due to the pain or abuse caused by my dad, my mom never cared, not a single emotion on her face, she used to ignore me and went into her room and closed the door, 

And I will be standing outside of her door crying like crazy, but who cares huh, 

I heard some footsteps and I quickly wiped my face, and when I turned my head, Neel was standing behind my back, staring me with a lot of emotions, 

"Hey, what are you doing here", I said trying to talk very casually, but he knows me more than me, he quickly pulled me into a hug, and I started crying again, and he let me cry, he knows that I am still not getting over from this topic, nor I will able ever, 

"Okay, shh, enough now, please Jhummi", he said then and I was sobbing, 

"Jhummi, please, I know it is really hard for you, and her over sweetness really scares you or bothers you, but when she is trying to change and giving her one hundred percent, then why you are still stuck to our past, just let it go", Neel told me, cupping my face, 

"Neel, can you turn time then, can you give me the moments back, when I cried like crazy, when I was abused, when I was in the pain, when I yearned for happiness, that time I only had you and then Suhani, no one else Neel, do you think it is easy for me to accept her love now", I said slowly, she can not hear this, right, I will feel bad if because of me she gets hurt,

Neel become quiet for some time, and he knows that I am right at my place and if there would be anyone else at my place, does not he or she would feel the same, it is not easy to leave the past behind as nothing happened, the person who hurt you the most, after hurting all those years, coming back to you and showering love on you, and what you should do, you supposed to love them back and forget everything they did to you right, but I am not that strong, I can not behave like this, 

"Jhummi, I know you are right at your place, and I am just saying that just give her a chance, and she is changing now, so just trust the timing, and everything will be fine, and now we are going late, go and wash your face, then we will go down okay", he said kissing my head, and I nodded, and went into the washroom, 

I washed my face and quickly wiped, I applied some Kajol in my eyes, so that it can hide my cried eyes, and come out quickly, 

"That is like my good girl, now give me a hug", he said and I quickly hugged him, "I am sorry to behave like this all sudden, let us go," I said and we both headed down, 

I saw mom and Suhani were laughing and talking as they saw in our direction, I passed a smile, mom smiled back but Suhani was staring right into my eyes.