152 IT HURTS

"I am fine", I said, and again waited for him to speak something sensible, 

"You did not call me since morning, and nor did any message", he said after a small pause, 

Wow, fabulous, after ignoring me for a whole day, and also after hanging up on me like that, he is saying to me that I did not message him or call him, Is he really innocent or just pretending to be a fool, 

"Oh, I did not, maybe I forget to do", I said, as I was getting angrier, 

"Really, how could you forget me like that", he said as I could feel a little weirdness in his words, 

"Just like you did Ayan", I said, 

"What, I was waiting for your call", he said, 

"Oh, I was doing the same", I said and I heard him taking deep breaths, 

"It was you who hang up on me, and then did your phone switched off, huh", I again said as I was getting furious now, 

"I did not do it intentionally, it is just my battery died", he said, 

"Oh really, and you did not have charger right, and your poor phone was without charge for whole day right", I said as I saw how stupid excuses he was making, did he thinks that I am stupid and I can not understand anything, 

"No, it is not like that Jhummi, you are overreacting, I was just busy and tired, and It is me who called you now, you did not do that okay", he said, 

He is behaving weird, what is wrong with him, he never speaks like that, I do not know why, but I just felt so bad, 

"Okay Ayan, it was my mistake, I am sorry", I said and hang up, I know I should not have done that, but he is being strange, 

Now my mood was really upset, and a tear rolled down to my cheek, and I just wiped it and sat on the bed, 

Suhani was scrolling her phone, but as she was me, she quickly put her phone aside, 

"Hey, what happened", she asked me with a very serious tone, 

"Nothing", I said as I again wiped a new tear, 

"Jhummi, come on baby, there is no need to hide anything from me, please tell me what happened", she asked again, she is so stubborn just like me, she will not leave my sight until I will not tell her, 

"Suhani, I am so scared, Ayan is behaving so weird, he is somehow changed, I do not know why but I am feeling that something is not right", I said as I started crying, 

I know I am behaving so stupid, but I just can not help, I was always like this, Just an emotional fool, 

I always get scared to attach anyone, because every time I get attached to anyone, a small change in their behaviour hurts a lot, 

It was the biggest reason I never had a boyfriend, I was always scared to get hurt in the end, and I know I just came too far with Ayan, and now his strange behaviour is hurting a lot, 

Still, it was hurting a lot, I just do not want to be weak again, it was so hard me to come this far, and now I just do not want to feel the pain of a broken heart, 

"Jhummi, maybe he is just tired or something, or it could be possible that there would be Neel, so he could not talk properly", Suhani said as she was defending him, 

"Suhani, do you think I am a fool, it was so fucking clear, and you know what he was saying, that he did not call or message because he was waiting for mine, you tell me Suhani, does that make any sense, he knows very well what he did last night, and he knows that I was waiting for his call and message, but he chose to ignore me for a whole fucking day", I said and more tears rolled down to my cheek, 

"Jhummi, calm down, we can talk, I will call him, and let us meet", she said and wiped my face, 

"No, I just do not want to meet him now, and you know he even said that I am overreacting, now let him realize what he is doing, I also hang upon him and said that it was all my mistake", I said and Suhani was staring at me, 

"Oh, Jhummi, why did you do that, you both are not kids, why you guys are just dragging this small matter, let us talk and sort out it, it is not that big", said Suhani, 

I know whatever she is saying is right, but still, I am not gonna talk to him until he realizes his mistake and comes back to me, 

"Suhani, let us not talk about it anymore, if he did not come back to me and realize his stupid mistake, I am not gonna talk to him, it hurts so much when your favourite person behaves like this", I said and went towards the washroom, 

"Jhummi, but listen to me", Suhani said but I did not turn my head, and then I closed the door of the washroom with a loud sound of bang, 

I wash my face, again and again, I just do not want to cry over such a small thing, And if he belongs to me, he will come back to me, and I saw there was something in eyes for me, I just can not be wrong, 

I one last time washed my face, and wiped it and came outside, 

Suhani was still sitting there in the same position, I know what she was thinking, she is my best friend after all, 

"Suhani, dare if you call him and tell him anything, I swear I will not talk to you too"|, I said, and she started staring at me like I killed someone, 

"Jhummi, listen to me, It is completely childish, just talk to him directly and make it clear, it is so simple than your stupid idea or whatever it is", she said but I completely ignored what she said, 

"Suhani, I will tell Neel not to call you for two whole days and no message too, and after two days I will tell him to pretend as nothing happened, is that okay", I asked her with a raised brow, and here she was staring at me like she will eat me alive, 

"What, stop staring at me like that, feeling bad, right, feeling same", I said and turned my face, 

"Suhani, I am sorry, I did not mean that, but trust me I am feeling so hurt, he never behaved like that before, and now I do not have the option to back up, I have come so far with him, and now his this type of careless behaviour is scaring me to death", I said as I sat beside her, 

Suhani put her hand on my shoulder, and I know she truly cares about me, 

"Okay, whatever you want to do, I will not stop you, I just do not want to get you hurt, nothing else, and that is why I wanted to make things clear for you both, but it is okay if you do not want it, I am still with you and always be", she said and hugged me, 

"I know Suhani, I know you do not want me to get hurt, but it is already hurting, and I just do not know why but it is looking like it is just the beginning", I said, and Suhani put a finger on my mouth, 

"Shut up, stop thinking nonsense, you are just thinking so much, it is nothing like that, just relax, I know Ayan he likes you so much, trusts me", she said, 

"If you say so, that is why I am giving him time, I hope he will call me soon because I saw something more in his eyes for me", I said with a small smile, 

"Yes, that is like my girl, now cheer up and give me a big smile", she said and as I see her cute puppy face, I smile so brightly, 

"I know this smile is not reaching to your eyes, but I am happy that you smiled at least, You will see, everything will be fine soon", she said with a smile, 

"But you remember your promise, you will not call him, nor message him", I said with my warning eyes, and she nods, 

"I swear I will not tell him anything", she said and pulled me into a hug, 

"Let us eat ice cream", she whispered in my ear,