Chapter 260

Zoucheng raised his head and looked at the old ceiling with mottled marks. With a bitter smile, "my life has already ended. Zoucheng in front of you is just a walking corpse."

I don't know why, looking at the sad look on Zoucheng's face, Jing Wei's heart stabbed. She pitifully looked at this tired man full of vicissitudes in front of her, and felt that he really had to bear too much.

A surge of impulse in the heart, let Jingwei stand up, quietly went to Zoucheng in front of, gently picked up his face. With their own eyes straight into his, "no, your life is not over. If she knew that you were doing this to her, she would not be at ease. Zoucheng, cheer up and be yourself. "

Zoucheng could not avoid it. The pain and struggle in his heart were exposed in front of Jing Wei's gaze. In an instant, his final disguise was also broken in front of Jing Wei. From Zoucheng's eyes, tears came down slowly, and at last, he burst into tears.

Jing Wei took Zou Cheng in her arms, gently stroked his back, quietly accompanied her to cry. She knows that these years, Zoucheng has lasted too long, too long, should let him vent the pain in his heart. At the moment, Jing Wei didn't think too much in her heart. She just pitied the painful man in front of her.

After crying, Zoucheng and Jing Wei sat side by side at the bedside, hoarse voice, said, thank you. I'm sorry to let you see such a hopeless side of me.

Jing Wei gently smiles and shakes her head. "I don't think that men's crying is unpromising. On the contrary, I think you are brave and dare to show your vulnerability. Zoucheng, what I want to tell you is that we all care about you. I don't want to see you wallow in the shadow of the past and suffer forever. "

"Can you tell me about her?" Jing Wei looks at Zoucheng and asks softly. Now she wants to share his pain with him.

Zoucheng a little surprised to see Jingwei, so many years, this is the first time that someone said such a thing to himself. After the tragedy, in order not to make him sad, everyone avoided mentioning her in front of Zoucheng. Over time, she became a taboo.

"Do you want to know?" Strange is that Zoucheng's heart is no longer painful and helpless, but a trace of desire to talk.

Jing Wei nodded, "well, I want to know. I guess she must be a very lovely and kind girl, so you can't forget her for such a long time. "

Thinking of that charming figure, Zou Cheng's face appeared a sweet smile, "yes, she is really cute and loves to smile. She often likes to wait at the opposite intersection when I am off work. When I came out of the hospital, I waved to me happily and laughed like the morning sun, so bright and warm. "

"I used to think that we would live happily until we got old like that, until she was diagnosed with brain cancer." At this point, Zoucheng's face appeared a look of pain, stopped.

Jing Wei looked at him with encouragement, "and then, go on, I want to listen." She knew that only let Zoucheng face the past calmly, can she walk out of the pain.

"After she knew that she had brain cancer, she was always strong, optimistic and actively cooperated with the treatment. Even if there is no chemotherapy to torture, but still face me with a smile after. Cancer is like this, when there are signs, it is often in the advanced stage. Even though she has been insisting, the cancer cells are still spreading. At that time, I watched her accept it quickly, but there was no way. At that time, I really hated being a doctor. "

Zou Cheng's voice became more and more hoarse. "I know her illness better than anyone else, but I can't find a way to save her. Maybe she can't bear it at last. One day, she grabbed my hand and cried for me to operate on her. I tried to explain to her, because the location of the tumor in her brain was too dangerous, and the risk of surgery was too great. But she still insisted that I do the operation for her, saying that even if there is a glimmer of hope, she does not want to give up

Jing Wei heard from a duo that Zoucheng was a famous brain doctor at that time. But it's really cruel for him to operate on his girlfriend. I really don't know how struggling he was at that time.

"But I'm too incompetent after all. When I opened her head, it collapsed. The cancer blisters had already spread to her head, so I had no chance to use the knife. So I watched her die on the operating table and under my knife. My body and hands are covered with her blood. " Recalling the terrible scene at that time, Zou Cheng kept rubbing his hands in pain, as if it was still stained with his girlfriend's blood.

Jingwei see Zoucheng mood again out of control, quickly hold his hand, stop him to continue to hurt himself. She cried out Zoucheng's name, trying to pull him out of that painful memory, "Zoucheng, Zoucheng, wake up, wake up, everything is over. You're safe now. Look at me. Look at me. "

Jing Wei tugs at Zoucheng's arm and makes him look at himself, trying to wake him up. Looking at Jing Wei's anxious eyes, Zoucheng slowly recovered calm.

"Zoucheng, it's OK. It's all over." Jing Wei holds Zou Cheng's hands tightly and gently comforts him. Listen to Zoucheng tell her girlfriend, Jing Wei's heart is still rough, for a long time can't be calm.

She didn't expect that Zoucheng, who was usually idle and didn't care about anything, had experienced such a painful relationship. At the thought of him alone in the face of such a terrible scene, Jing Wei's heart is full of sympathy and pity for him.

Under Jing Wei's gentle comfort, Zoucheng's mood gradually calmed down. He untied the cuff link and showed Jing Wei the wound on her wrist. "After that operation, I wanted to commit suicide, but I didn't succeed. At that time, I couldn't sleep every day. As soon as I close it, I can see her standing bloody in front of me, but I still want to see her, even in my dream, even if she still blames me. We once agreed to go down together, but in the end I was the only one left. Every day I ask myself, "why am I still living in this world?"