732 Attention & Jealousy

"Because you were the one offering that straw, I held it without any hesitation! You continued to fool me with your hot and cold nature. Pulling me to give me some hope when you needed me and pushing me into an abyss when you didn't need me. But I still loved you like an idiot. And I still didn't leave you alone. But when I learned that you got an abortion in a fit of rage, I truly felt like an idiot at that time. You played with me and my feelings for so long that I don't even think I'll ever be able to have those feelings for anyone else. You must have had fun watching a fool like me who danced on your fingers. Just like you wanted!"

He pushed her on the bed and stepped away feeling a headache coming on. He rubbed the corners of his eyes as he stared at her. 

Qiu Meihui wasn't moving anymore. She just laid there lifeless as if she finally lost everything.

"Why did you agree to marry me then?" she questioned in a soft voice. "When you learned the truth, why didn't you step away from me? Why did you still persistently pursued me?"

He scoffed, "Do you think I wanted to? If it wasn't for the promise I gave your mother, I'd have long stopped following you." 

"That's it?" 

He shook his head, "Of course, not! How can I let you go so easily? You have blood on your hands! My child's blood! Do you really think I'd let it go?" He took a pause and smiled coldly at her as he went on, "Remember that slap? You gifted me that on my birthday." She looked at him strangely as he continued, "It wasn't my fault that your daughter alone found her way to my place just because she wanted to wish me on my birthday and you refused to bring her over. It also wasn't my fault that you were anxious when she went missing. Because I called you the moment, she appeared at my doorstep. But even though it wasn't my fault, you slapped me."

"Are you saying, I am an abusive mother?!" Qiu Meihui was enraged again.

"No, but you're no better either!" replied Xin Xiaoli calmly. "Do you even remember how many times you have fought with your own mother before her? How many times you have yelled at me? Or any other person around you? No matter how much you love her, she is young and sensitive. She sees everything and all of those things affect her mental health as well. Your aggressiveness and jealousy made pushed your daughter away. That's the reason she doesn't like spending time with you because she feels scared of you."

Qiu Meihui's whole body felt weak. She had a complicated feeling. She never even noticed her daughter's abnormality. She only thought Asteria was distant to her because she liked Xiao Li more. But she never realized that she was the reason why her daughter was this way. When did it happen? How did it happen? How did she not even realize it?

"Now, that you have your answers, I need mine! Why did you attack my sister? She didn't do anything to you?"

Qiu Meihui was dazed as she answered, "First it was that Ying whom my mother loved. Then this Xiu came out of nowhere. Without any relation, she not only became close to my parents, even my brother likes her. No... Everyone likes her. Why? Why does she get to have that attention? Without even doing anything, how can she obtain everyone's love? Who is she? Which hole did she crawl up from?! Why does everyone have to pay her attention?"

Xiao Li raised his hand and she flinched but his hand didn't land. Clenching his fists, he looked exasperated. "It was always like this... All you wanted was attention! And when you didn't get it, you'd get jealous. It's not necessary that what others had you also need to have that! And who said, she didn't do anything for that love? She did the most important thing! She had been most sincere with everyone. And she didn't hesitate to offer her own love to receive theirs! What did you do to get it? You just know how to put others down but you don't understand that problem always lied with yourself!"

He turned to leave when she asked, "You're gonna divorce me?"

Xin Xiaoli chuckled at her, "No, absolutely not! Once you run away just because you didn't want to be my wife, now I am gonna make you live with this title for life. But don't have any other thoughts. It's only because now, I can legally get the custody of Asteria."

Qiu Meihui ran after him shouting, "No! No! You can't take my daughter from me! I won't let you do it!" Before she could run out of the room, the nurses came inside to hold her down and she was given a sedative.