177 7-16 Happiness desire Misera and determination

After we finished eating, everyone was free to take a food break, some to take a bath, some to go for a walk outside.

As for me, I'm in the middle of washing the dishes alongside Wendy.

Normally I would have left it up to Wendy, but today I decided to help, thinking it would be our job to clean up.

'It was a great success,'

'Yeah. I think everyone else had more fun with it than Mizella did...

It was sudden, so it's understandable. But he ate a lot of it, saying it was delicious.

Yeah. It's good to see you.

Misela ate each one of them with great care and relish, and both Wendy and I piled them on our plates, and she was dismayed that we couldn't eat them all.

At first she was reserved, but when White and the others were making so much noise, she seemed to relax.

Thanks to all of you.

Yeah, we were just doing what we normally do.

Maybe it was just the good meat that got White and the others excited, but I guess it turned out okay.

''But the chocolate was good...''

'Yes. The bitterness and sweetness were exquisite........ As I recall, it was an Imperial specialty?

Yeah. I don't think they've got much in circulation over here yet.

''...I see. So that's why it cost you five million nol.

'Hahaha...'

Nope. I was afraid to declare.........

I wasn't angry, but he seemed dumbfounded........ No, but there's still a lot of choquos in the skull, and it should have been a good buy. Yup. I don't regret it.

Curran.

And when I heard something fall from behind me and turned around, I found Mizella standing dumbfounded and the remaining wooden bowl at her feet.

'Oh, you brought it to me. Thanks.

It's the only way to eat good food.

''Huh........as usual....... It's the money your master earned, I don't mind, but........

Um...is it the same...as always...?

Yes. Master has an eye for good food.

Oh, well. I mean, Wendy, you could've eaten a bowl of chips, you know?

'Wow wow!　Please don't tell anyone!

Haha, he wanted to show some solidity in front of Mizella, but I think it's only a matter of time, right?

''Huh......... It sounds like Wendy-sama is having a hard time too.......

Yes but not really. I'm used to it. You'll have a hard time getting used to it when you're here too, won't you?

''Well ... yes ... I see. Oh, let me help you.

'Yes, sir. Now, please put the plates I wiped off back on the shelf. If there's anything you don't understand, you can ask me or your master.

........Can't you make the decision to still be here in Mizella?

Well, it's not something that can be decided so easily, so it can't be helped.

I'm not sure if Wendy is aware of this or not, but she continues to talk about it without getting too deep, so I'll leave her alone.

As it is, the division of work is completed: I wash up, Wendy wipes up, and Mizella puts the plates back on the shelf.

''Um, would you mind if I piled these plates up?''

Yes. I'll need you to stack that one on the right side of the second row, please.

The questions naturally focus on Wendy, both in terms of line up and gender, but looking at it this way, parent and child.....are too far apart to be called sisters.

Misela follows Wendy's instructions and does a solid job of helping out.

I thought the work efficiency would increase and the work would be completed in the blink of an eye, but.......

Palin.

When you look in that direction, Mizera crouches down as if in a panic.

''Gee, I'm sorry. I'll pick it up right away........''

Don't touch it, it's dangerous!

I take Mizera's arm as she tries to reach out and prevent her from touching it with her bare hands.

I know I'd be upset, but I was careful not to cut my fingers with the broken plate........

''I'm sorry.........''

Mizera?

I felt an unusual atmosphere and looked at Mizella, who muttered sorry many times on the spot, and looked at her to see how she was doing, but she was incredibly pale.

The arm she held was trembling, and even her lips were trembling.

It's okay. I'm fine........are you hurt?

'I'm sorry............................... I don't want to be in the basement......... I'll clean up soon.........

No matter how you look at it, it's an unusual situation.

''Master, I'll take Mizella to her room. May I ask you to stay here?

Sheesh. Before I can even think about it, Wendy makes her move.

"Yeah. "Yeah, okay, take care of that. I'll be there as soon as I get settled.

Yes. Mizera, can you stand up?

'I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...'

Mizzella's back was shaking as she left, supported by Wendy.

I watched her leave with a heartbroken look on my face.

As I wipe up the dishes I've finished washing and put them back on the shelf, I think about Mizzella's condition earlier.

It's normal to think that it's a trauma from the past.

I can't help but think that my raising my voice loudly and taking his hand may have triggered that........

I've done a bad thing........

I've done something unnecessary when today could have ended up being a good day.

As I was thinking about this, Wendy came back with a single divine look on her face.

'Master. Misela has calmed down........ I'll take care of things here, please go and see her.

Are you sure you want me to go?

'Yes. He said he wanted to apologize to his master....

Okay.

I leave the room to swap places with Wendy.

I haven't finished getting ready for Mizella's room at the moment, so I head to my room and knock on the door.

'I'm coming in.'

Yes.

Mizzella's voice was small and still seemed to lack energy.

It was natural, but it was a lie when I thought of the fact that she seemed to be enjoying herself earlier.

You okay?

Yeah. Thank you for your concern.

Oh, yeah. You don't have a broken finger?

And that's okay, too, because your husband took my hand.

'Well I'm sorry?　You can't just shout out loud all of a sudden.

'Nope. Don't let your husband bow down. It's because of your master that you didn't get hurt.......

'It would be nice to hear you say that, but...'

After a few moments of silence, it was Mizella who opened her mouth.

''Well ... before, you know. I was helping her in the same way, and I broke a plate, and when I tried to be polite, she got angry at me for being slow... I rushed to avoid getting angry... I ended up breaking the plate again, and then I got locked in the basement after I broke it again. Ta-.....

....

I listen to Mizella's story without interrupting her.

I need to know what happened. No, I have to know.

But I don't want to force Mizzella to listen.

So I decided to listen quietly until I could talk.

'It's pitch black ... a basement with no light, not even daylight. They didn't let me out of there for a long time, and a little bit of rice.......black bread ends and cold, tasteless soup........ It was far more humble than today's food....

That's........how hard it is.......

People must be exposed to the light of day or their bodies will be destroyed.

Darkness is a thing that erodes one's mind.

Anxiety, fear, exhaustion, exhaustion, exhaustion, etc., the decent nerves are destroyed more and more.

Misela speaks nonchalantly about the past, but her expression is much paler, and it must be hard to remember it while talking like this....

''About the time my mind was exhausted and my heart was breaking, the former Lord said. 'Since it's useless, you should at least use your lifelong vow (Only One).... Still, I didn't use it. The slightest bit of remaining hatred wouldn't allow it. After that, all I had to eat once a day ... was black bread with trampled marks on it, a piece of vegetable, and a glass of water.

I clench my fists and feel my nails digging into my flesh.

I bite my lips and grow in hatred for the former Lord, who I don't know who he is.

'So I was happy today. It was good. It was fun..... I didn't realize how wonderful a meal could be. I didn't realize how warm the food was........and yet.......I'm sorry.

You don't have to apologize for anything it wasn't Mizella's fault.

No I can't do anything about it. I know you're not the same person you used to be. I can tell just by looking at you and Wendy and all the others who are enjoying themselves. But you know ... even if you are nice to me, I can't do anything to repay you.

It's not true.

Even today, I was grateful for your help, even though I broke a few plates.

I was most grateful that you tried to be helpful and that you said you had fun today.

'I have no skills or anything. Half-elves are so poorly developed they haven't been allowed to learn anything. They can't be useful as adventurers like Aina-san and the others, or work as guards like Shiro-san, or do household chores like Wendy-sama...

'So,' continues Mizella, 'I can't stay here.

'I can't stay here.... I can't do anything, I can't do anything in return for your kindness.... Rather, the mere fact that I have a half-elf in my arms is a problem for you. I don't want to be a nuisance to Wendy-sama and everyone else who has helped me.......and I don't want to be a nuisance to you either.......

Oh.........what the hell.

You're such a good kid....

I want to punch myself for saying that I would kick you out if you harmed me and that I wouldn't stop you if you left.

No, I'll punch him.

I hit myself in the cheek with my right fist.

I hit my right fist on my cheek without restraint, and it seemed to cut the inside of my mouth as hard as I could.

Otherwise, however, there would be no sense of remorse.

It's the same as it was in the past.

We decided...

Decided on... what?

Mizera. I'm sorry, but that promise I made earlier about sending Mizera off without saying a word, without that.

What...?

I decided to make you happy. So I can't just send you away without a fight.

This boy should be happy.

No, she should be happy.

Most of all, she has to be happy for me.

You didn't hear me.　I'm........

I listened. We decided on that.

'You're going to... neglect my feelings...?

Yeah.

Yeah. From here on out, it's completely selfish on my part.

It's selfishness, ignoring Mizzella's feelings and going through my own selfishness.

''Then I'll just run off on my own...''

Do what you want. I'll do as I please. So get ready for it, okay?

After saying that much, I leave the room.

When I left the room, White, who came back from a walk with Wendy and a worried look on his face, was waiting for me.

''Master........!　Blood...!

It's okay. It's just a reminder for me. So, so ... let's get on with it, but Wendy, keep an eye on Mizera.

Yes, yes ... well, what's the matter with you?

Hm. Lord, your face is tight. ...What are you going to do?

Yeah.

I take a breath and look at White and the others with a serious face.

''Can I have you go along with my selfishness from now on?''

"Yes." "Mm.

They don't ask about the content.

But they quickly nod their heads to me.

I hug them both tightly, as if I'm trying to be sweet to them.

I'm happy now.

I'm happy to have met them when I came to this world.

"Hey, your selfishness. Why don't we mix it up?

That's right. It's not good to be on the same team.

"My lord, we will help you in any way we can.

Aina and Solte after a bath.

Renge, who had been on a food break, shows up and hugs the girls too.

I've found someone special, I've found someone I care about, and I love this world.

That's why I can't forgive him.

I can't forgive the fact that such a sweet girl in a world that I love is wearing a sad face more than anything else.

I want her to smile. I want her to feel happy every day, that life is fun.

That's why I've decided.

Let's get started.

My selfish, childishly motivated, self-centered, selfish desire to force happiness on others.