Chapter 123

"Cancer, brain cancer, early stage."

Coax!

At this moment, I thought a lot.

I want to leave my grandmother long ago, the best person in the world for me. Her appearance is still in my mind. Even for two lifetimes, I can't forget anything. Grandma always said, people, life, old age, illness and death are common things. Don't be sad because she left. She will look at me somewhere, bless me and bless me.

During the period of rebirth, I always thought that it was grandma who blessed me that gave me a chance to live again, so I took every step very carefully. I longed for success, I lived hard, I longed for success, I wanted revenge, but I found that I was a waste, and I couldn't do such a little thing well. Once again, I had to face such an outcome.

I can't accept it, let alone accept it.

I still have a lot of things to do, the life I want hasn't come true, Jiang Lin hasn't been tortured, the person whose life is worse than death should be him rather than me, I haven't found out where Shang yunyun is hiding, my company has just ended the handover, I haven't officially started to develop my revenge, and I haven't found the person I love.

I always say that I'm afraid of marriage, but I'm still eager for love. Who doesn't want to find a person who is good to me? Two people rely on each other to support each other. Even without marriage, it's not in vain for me to live in this world.

But is it time to announce the end of my life?

I No, I have talents I like. Yes, I have. I haven't been able to admit that I deceive myself. I tell everyone that I have nothing to do with that person, but I can't deceive myself in my heart.

Gu zisong, we are divorced. I know he doesn't belong to me. He didn't belong to me before, now and in the future. But in the last period of my life, I still want to tell him that I can't let him go.

I wiped my face. The tears on my face were a little cold. I tried to restrain myself, but I couldn't calm down.

The hand that grabs the phone trembles unceasingly, tears fall on the phone, the hand is very slippery, Xiao Song wants to help me, I block his hand, stubborn oneself want to call.

Press the string of familiar numbers, the word "husband" jumps out. The sound of Dudu seems to have passed ten thousand years, but it only rings twice. The familiar voice comes, "Tong Tong, I'm a little busy, right..."

I said, "Gu zisong, I like you, but I dare not admit it. But I still want to say that I like you. Our marriage and divorce is not confiscation of goods. At least let me understand a truth. For the people I like, at least let the other party know. Otherwise, once I leave, I think I can't be myself in another world. I want to tell you that I like you, really I like you, I like you, I Gu zisong, this time is my wayward, I am always extreme, you don't know, I had a bad life in my last life, I was poisoned by Jiang Lin, and I and his children were still in my stomach, but he had a good relationship with Shang yunyun for several years, and finally took all my life, I lost my life, lost my child's life, I was not willing to die like that. Sometimes I'm not sure whether I'm real now or in the past. I don't want to be cheated by men any more. So I'm very careful when I go every step. I... "

I choked, took a hard breath, and continued, "I like you. I don't want to hide it. I'm afraid I don't have time to tell you that there are some things I have to do to be worthy of myself. I know you don't belong to me. You have been with Lu Susu for so many years. You protect her and love him. You are a good man. I won't destroy the relationship between you. I just want to, I I may be very humble to the feelings, but I still want to tell you that I like you. I don't know how long I'll live, i... "

The doctor was surprised, interrupted me and asked me, "who told you you won't live long? Your brain cancer is benign. It's good to have it removed. It was discovered very early. It's only as big as sesame. Now the minimally invasive surgery will be over soon. You can go climbing the mountain the next day after the surgery in the morning, you know? "

I was shocked, tears came down again, I exclaimed, "what? What did you say? "

The doctor said, "I haven't finished my words. What are you excited about? Usually, we will inform your family of major diseases first. This is a small problem. It's usually caused by staying up late. You Don't cry. It's a small problem. There's no problem at all. "

I opened my mouth wide in surprise and looked at the phone. Time was still running. I didn't know if Gu zisong had heard me. I immediately turned off the phone and looked at Qin Chen. I turned to Xiao Song, heartbroken and heartbroken. I asked myself in frustration, "I just said it, I must be crazy." I shook my head hard, tears shaking out, and I said, "I don't believe it."

The doctor pushed his thick glasses, looked down at the information, and then asked me, "are you Lou Tong?"

Maybe they have the same name? I said, "my name is Lou Tong, a tall building. Tong is the pupil beside the word mu. My grandmother said that the name comes from..."

The doctor nodded, "yes, it's you, your case." He handed me a list, then turned around and said to the interns wearing masks behind him, "usually, patients are emotional, so don't leave half a sentence like me in the future. You must finish it quickly. Today is also a lesson for me. When you go back, you can write your own summary to me. Moreover, this case is very common, and young people often have it nowadays Some people get better after a good rest because they are in good health, and some of them are serious! "I take a deep breath, my head is going to explode, and my face is getting hot.

What did I do just like an idiot?

The doctor coaxed away, leaving the three of us in the ward.

I think it's better for me to pretend to be crazy now.

But I won't. I put on the quilt and screamed, "go away. I'm going to sleep."

Through the quilt, there was no sound at all. I thought they were gone. Who would have thought, I secretly looked over and saw Qin Chen's face was flat and his brow was wrinkled. I didn't know what he was thinking. He looked down at the phone and didn't say a word.

Xiao Song is still smiling, but the smile is not quite right.

I looked at them, lifted the quilt, breathed and wiped my face. My tears were still wet. I took a hard breath and said, "I was crazy just now. Don't take it seriously. I was scared. I thought I really couldn't live."

Xiao Song leaned on the back of his chair, put his head on his arm, raised his chin and asked me, "what do you mean by rebirth? When did you say you had children? Who else knows that Jiang Lin and Shang yunyun did all this? "

I'm a little confused. Did I say that just now? I don't remember.

I hemmed and hawed for a while, my mind changed, I lied and said, "I've been trapped by nightmares. They're all dreams. Sometimes I can't tell whether it's true or false. You don't have to care too much, really."

Anyway, I've already said it. If I ask what I can do, I won't admit it. Now that I'm a dead duck, I'll insist that these things are my dreams, and they can't help me.

I smile, shrug my shoulders and pretend to be relaxed. "It's a real nightmare. Now I know that many things are my own dreams. When I had a fever, these were the only things in my dreams."

Xiao Song lifted his eyelids lazily, looked at me and snorted. He obviously didn't believe it.

I look at Qin Chen again and it seems that he doesn't believe it.

I'm too lazy to explain. Let them go. What I'm nervous about now is how I can explain to Gu zisong. I'm just like a fool. I told him that I like him. I must be crazy. I'm crazy.

I asked Qin Chen, "brother Chen, is it still time to send me to the psychiatric department?"

Qin Chen glanced at me, shook his head helplessly and asked me, "how many other things do you have that I don't know?"

I didn't answer. Turning around, I saw Xiao Song's smiling face. It seemed that his heart was burning. He would not stop until he understood.

I glared at him hard, continued to cover the quilt, worried about Gu zisong.

He had better not believe what I said. It's better for us to get along with each other in a simpler way.

Fortunately, he didn't come, there wasn't a phone call, and there was no wechat.

I had an operation the next day. Two days later, I was discharged. The doctor told me that I would come for a regular review. Before I left, the doctor still told his interns that I was not sure if I had a fever because of this small brain tumor.

This time, his intern stressed that he said, "elder martial brother, what you said last time was brain cancer. The exact medical term is brain tumor."

I'll take a breath, this stupid doctor. I'll complain to him later, asshole.

I didn't want to make it more embarrassing, so on the day of discharge, I left two hours ahead of schedule.

At home, Li Long was discharged from the hospital one after another. Sunspot's legs were not sharp enough. He sat on the sofa with a computer in his arms, looked down at the video, saw me coming in, and stood up to greet him with a smile.

I nodded, scratched and said, "I'll go to bed first, and I'll talk about everything when I wake up."

I glanced at the newspaper, the entertainment news headlines, the eldest son of Gu family is getting engaged, is that Lu Susu? I think!

I immediately turned my head, closed the door, lay in bed, and slept with my clothes.

This sleep, I dream a lot, very messy, high school past, the last life of stupid things, this life is absurd, no matter how long the dream, the dream only around one person, Gu zisong.

Finally, I saw his wedding. The woman holding hands was a tall woman with a white wedding dress. She was in good shape, and her happy eyes became a line of laughter. I stood in the crowd and looked like a thief, but I didn't dare to see the moment when he lifted the wedding dress and left directly.

Turning around, I woke up from my dream. I had a good sleep. At least I didn't have a fever, but I felt terrible all over.

The conversation between Li Yi and sunspot came from outside, and the voice was very light. Li Yi said with emotion, "what's the matter? President Lou has just divorced and got engaged. President Gu looks good. Isn't that cheating?"

Sunspot sighed weakly and said, "there are many things in it, you don't understand!"

Right? There are many things in it. I divorced Gu zisong and he got engaged. Although I know our marriage is fake, I still find it hard to accept.

I got up, found my slippers, stepped on them and wanted to get up. Li Yi said, "hiss, how can this ring be the same as the one on Mr. Lou's hand? This Gu can't be so unreliable, can't he? "