Chapter 227

Under the scream, I was pulled out of the crowd with both hands.

I think I'm crazy. I'm going to be a mother. In the face of the demons of caring for my family, I really can't maintain the self-restraint that I've developed since I was a child. I don't want to struggle any more. As long as I have the strength, I really want to kill them all.

I don't know who is holding me, regardless of my fists and kicks, holding me on the car, a low roar, the car started, I was completely taken away.

Now I noticed that it was Gu zisong who dragged me away.

His face is not very good, several blood marks on his chin, and I don't know if I scratched him. His hair swayed in the wind with a strange shape. His brows were wrinkled. It was obvious that he was not well yet. He kept silent despite the pain. He put his hands on his knees and looked out of the car window. The cold wind from his face slapped his face. He opened his clothes and looked embarrassed, but also some poor.

But my anger is not less, but also after seeing his appearance did not break out.

The car is very quiet driving, walking for a long time, as if this life has been driving non-stop.

After a long time, the car stopped at the door of a quiet villa. I saw it and knew it. I had been to Gu zisong's private house, the place with incomparable decoration, which was mortgaged to the bank at the beginning. After the divorce, I gave all my property back to him. I don't know if it is still his house now.

I sat still, he got out of the car first, behind him was thick water adhesive white shirt, suffused with a slight stench.

I frown hard in my heart, and I don't continue to stand with him. I open the door and walk down. I look at ruo's big house. All my memories come to me in a moment, like a piece of wet paper, covering my breath and suffocating.

He walked very slowly. Now he came to the door. He quickly pressed the code and the door opened. Then he looked back at me and said, "come on in. I want to make trouble for a while, OK?"

Gentle tone, like pray, but also really pray.

"You are so pitiful, so I agreed."

My raised chin froze in mid air for a while and then I put it down. What's the matter? As Xiao Liu said, the child is mine and his. Is he really so poisonous that his child wants to be killed?

I'm in a bad mood. I know the truth, but I can't get through it. I hate and love him, but we are all victims of it.

When I entered the house, I found that I didn't know when to redecorate it. Instead of the vulgarity of the past, it was more elegant, the color was much lighter, and the taste There was a musty smell. It seemed that no one had lived there for a long time. The table was covered with dust.

He simply wiped it with a paper towel, stirred it from the kitchen for a while, served me a cup of warm lemonade, opened a bottle of iced beer of unknown time, took a sip, put it on the table with a bump, and then said, "I was wrong about this, but I really didn't know it would be like this. Indeed, as you know, my ability was limited. At that time, Gu Peng came back, Lu Susu was also making trouble, and my father was holding some of my things. In the face of domestic and foreign troubles, I had to give up some things. My father wants me to divorce you, otherwise my identity will be disclosed. Once a lawsuit starts, even if I won't lose everything, many things will be difficult to get back. It's not easy for me to sit in this position. I've planned for many years, and I don't want to fail, let alone... " After a pause, he frowned at me, with a low tone, sad but also powerless, "I don't want to lose you. A temporary divorce is a good thing. You wanted to divorce so much at that time, but I won't let it go. When did I change what I said? You can not trust me, but I have to do it. I will not let it go. This is a fact. Knowing that you will hate me, I will retrieve it at the right time. I didn't expect that... "

Fall into quiet of us, in the heart are in pain, that is our children, haven't seen the world's beautiful, so no.

I'm afraid I can't make it clear whether it's me or him.

After a moment's silence, he said, "I didn't think about the child. The whole thing is my fault. I'm too confident. I think that even if you go to another world, I still have a way to find you back. At least you're by my side, and I can also bind you with a marriage slip. But I ignore that emotion can be changed. I didn't expect that you would accept Xiao Song. "

A lot of sudden regret, we have no time to think about it.

"Now we are still husband and wife. Indeed, I have used your feelings despicably, so You want a divorce now, I'll agree. "

With that, he raised his head to drink all the beer, got up and went upstairs.

The living room is very quiet. I can hear my breath and heartbeat, but his words are still beating in my mind.

He can divorce because of guilt and remorse.

All this is his fault and mine.

If I knew exactly what we would not do from the beginning, we would not be entangled here even if we were entangled.If the child is gone, what's the use of blaming? The child won't be unable to live. Maybe my loutong really didn't get the right of the child?

I believe the wrong person in my last life. What about this life? It's my own carelessness.

People's ability is limited. I repeatedly blame him for not protecting me and my children. What about myself? Have I done well?

It's true that there is a big misunderstanding between us, but has it been solved? Put aside so many ugly facts, don't they all show us beauty?

Every time I think of him, the corners of my mouth will rise unconsciously. His kindness, his scoundrel, and the embarrassment after playing handsome every time, have become a sweet and greasy pet to me.

Love is a double-edged sword. On one side, it is quarrel and hurt. On the other side, it is beauty and dream.

Separated, sad. Once again, it's time to argue.

Now, is it necessary for us to go on?

It's a real problem.

My Lou Tong is really not a person who can afford to put it down.

Think of his good, I feel the suffering is worth it, but think of his bad, I hate in the end, want to kill him.

Entangled in the middle of the night, I did not make the last preparation, divorce, again, I am a little afraid.

That knife cut me on the same wound again. It was really hard.

I don't know when I like crying so much. The paper towel twisted most of the tea table.

At daybreak, he went downstairs with a blanket in his hand. I looked back at him and quickly wiped away the tears on his face. I turned my head awkwardly.

He said, "I cry when I feel sad, and I feel sad when I hold it. Think about it? I'll take you back if you don't have a rest

I think it's four o'clock in the morning. When I used to work, I got up and started to exercise to prepare breakfast. I don't know when to start. I'm trapped in the feelings and can't get out. It's sad to think about it.

Feelings ah, untouchable, moths to the fire of us, but never tired.

I said, "it's OK to send me back, but can you do it yourself?"

He smile, a pale face, still don't care about shrug, said to me, "nothing, used to a person, I asked Xiao Liu to drive."

He bent down, found the landline phone from the tissue, pressed a few buttons, and answered there. Xiao Liu's husky and lazy voice broke the peaceful and sad atmosphere. Suddenly, I realized that I had spent a night in hesitation.

Reluctant to give up, three words are like a magic spell hovering in my mind.

But we, in the end, are not suitable.

A long time ago, I thought about this problem countless times, we are not suitable, not suitable.

No matter identity or status, cognition or three concepts, we are all suspended in two worlds.

It took me half a life to give him what he needed, but apart from the love he needed and more career he needed, he has a bright future. I don't want to hinder him.

I think we'd better separate.

I just agreed to Xiao Song over there. I continued to bind Gu zisong because of my marriage. What have I become?

I immediately said, "Gu zisong, when do you have time, let's go through the divorce procedures?"

When he was stunned, the phone in his hand fell on the ground. After a while, he bent down to pick it up, put it back in the distance, turned around and gave me a lonely and helpless figure.

I couldn't bear to see more and didn't want to change my mind. I immediately said, "we're not suitable. After so long, we've been quarreling and making conflicts. If we hurt each other, we're all dying. It's better to let each other go, isn't it?"

It's hard to say these words. I'm not talking about them.

Pain, very pain, the knife abruptly separated the chest pain, took out my broken heart and crushed it on the ground again. I shook some black eyes, laughed desolately, pretended to be relaxed, and continued, "I have promised Xiao Song to be his girlfriend. I don't want to step on two boats. I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I was Jiang Lin before, I'm Jiang Lin later It's you. Now it's Xiao Song. Maybe it's someone else. Ha ha Let's separate. Just don't lie to me. Let's make an appointment to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau and handle it thoroughly... "

It's separated.

It's completely separated.

I couldn't speak any more. My strength was taken away in an instant. Shaking my arms, I stood up on the sofa and left without looking at him.

The wind outside is really strong. The bleak wind of autumn blows on me. I shiver all over. My heart has been empty for a long time, and I'm black and blue again. It's really hard to be dead.

I still remember the sadness before my death, which I can't forget in my whole life. But I didn't expect that the words of breaking up with Gu zisong had made me feel the pain again.

I've been waiting for a long time, but I didn't see Xiao Liu's car. Li Yi came to pick me up and sent me home.

After going back, I had a high fever for three days, but I still insisted on going to work, busy, and even won a hard order that I had never chewed down before.A week later, the weather became colder and the people who blew it had a headache. Li Yi insisted on dragging me out to go shopping. I was absent-minded, thinking about orders, work, business and Gu zisong.

Li Yi kept talking around me and asked me countless questions, which made me have a headache. When I got to a coffee shop, the coffee finally stopped his mouth and calmed down.

I also ended up in a moment of peace, holding coffee, leaning on the swing chair, watching people coming and going outside, thinking Gu zisong.

After I left, he didn't contact me. Every time Xiao Liu came to me, he sent me some fruit. He didn't mention Gu zisong. It seemed that he was deliberately trying to make me worried.

I don't want to talk about divorce.

If I don't agree to divorce, I will ask him if I don't want to.

That kind of naked hint made me have to take the initiative to ask Gu zisong about our divorce.

All the money has been dealt with. Now it's just a divorce certificate. I think it's easy.

When I dial the phone, with a quiet beep, waiting for anxiety, I can hear my heart beating because of excitement.

But the phone was cut off and automatically redial again. Gu zisong didn't answer.