Chapter 370

Zhang Ke snorted and threw himself into my arms. My breath was suddenly squeezed out, and my eyes were gradually dark. Then I was held up. I wanted to see who was in front of me, but I could only hear some distant sounds. Then the man picked me up from the ground, and I fell into a warm embrace. Smelling the comfortable aroma, I finally felt at ease I went to sleep.

The morning sun is still dazzling, everywhere, the heavy rain last night has passed, with a fresh taste, and there is a trace of food aroma in the air. I thought I was dreaming, but when I turned up and looked at the familiar figures in front of me, I knew that they were all real.

Shawnee, always at the time when I need help most, before and now.

I looked at his busy back in the kitchen, gently exhaled, whispered his name, but he did not hear, because my voice was too low to be heard, hoarse as if someone had stuffed a wad of cotton in his throat.

I reluctantly got out of bed and stood in front of the kitchen door looking at him. He turned around and laughed at me, turned off the gas, came up to me and asked, "are you better?"

I nodded to him and asked, "did you bring me back?"

He said, "the meal is ready. Come and eat it."

I continued, "did you save me? Was that you yesterday? What's the matter with Zhang Ke now? How did he solve it later? "

SHAWNY took rice porridge and put it on the table. Then he put a few dishes on it. He pulled out his chair and put away the dishes and chopsticks before he said to me, "he's in the hospital. He has a concussion and can't die. Don't worry. You won't see him from today. I'll fire him."

I was stunned and looked at him blankly.

He also said, "Zhang Ke is the man of third brother Zhang. After Zhang San left, he was always unconvinced with me, so he fought against me everywhere. This time, I think it's also to revenge me for reducing his salary for half a month last time. It's because I haven't been hard hearted to deal with him. This kind of thing won't happen in the future."

I nodded to him and reached the table. I looked down at the delicious food I had not seen for a long time. Thinking about what Zhang Ke said at that time, I suddenly asked him, "Xiao Nai, are you engaged? When was the engagement? Why don't I know? "

He took the chopsticks and bowls, and his face was not very good. He sneered and said, "the marriage under the transaction does not count. Engagement just doesn't mean anything, and there is no ceremony. It's just a word. I can say no at any time. There's no way to hurry up at home, but I'll deal with it during this time. You, don't care. I didn't have any idea and commitment to her. It's all a one-sided decision at home. "

Is he explaining to me?

But I don't need it. I'm glad to see that he has a marriage that everyone likes. As long as he doesn't follow me, he will be very happy!

I said, "SHAWNY, you're a good match for his fiancee. That's good. I've wanted to say my best wishes to you for a long time. But I haven't had a chance. I know I shouldn't disturb you. This time, it was an accident. Thank you. Well, you'd better go first. I'm afraid I'll be misunderstood by others. I thank you for saving me

His chopsticks hand suddenly stiff in the air, I saw his face collapse down the confidence and joy, was originally a very warm breakfast, hero save beauty, solution is generally not bad, but my beauty has been incomplete, and not worthy of his hero, so I think he and I do not continue to ambiguous before is the best result for him .

He was stunned for a long time, put down his chopsticks, took a breath, suddenly sneered, looked up and asked me, "do you think we are not suitable? I always thought that I was amorous, didn't I? In fact, you didn't have any heart for me, did you? Ha ha... "

He seems to be talking to himself, but actually he is saying to me, I know what he said is wrong, in fact, I am not worthy of him, I don't want to destroy such a beautiful him, I said to him, "SHAWNY, I, I don't like you, I don't like you all the time." I know that I'm very good at lying. No one can break it, and he is no exception.

He didn't say a word. He just got up, lingered in front of me for a while, and then said to me, "OK, I see."

I didn't look up all the time. I just listened to him take the car key on the table and left without looking back. When I heard the door slamming, my heart was agitated. With the severe pain, tears fell down my face and dripping into the rice porridge in front of me.

I have been crying silently, crying for a long time, and finally eat all the rice porridge and the dishes he cooked in front of me, lie on the table and continue to cry, I know that these lies hurt him, even more hurt me.

Behind the sad mood, I continued to indulge in the solemn. I went directly to his company and took off his clothes without asking the reason. He was stunned, hugged me, and asked me anxiously, "what's the matter, what's the matter? What's wrong with your face? "

I shake my head at him, pile up my pancreas, smile and say, "I'm fine. I just want you."

He laughed, hugged me and said, "you can't do it now. Is that still there? Are you better? Do you miss me? I can't help it. Shall we do it in a few daysI hide in his arms, listening to his gentle words, but how to listen to all raised very abrupt, not like shawner's Secret warmth, people say that it's not sweet to force, but I also want to pretend to be very sweet, since I choose this road, there is no way to turn back.

I long for love and care, solemn can give me, as long as I magnanimous acceptance, finally leave I will not be sad, can get money, why not? Why should I go to expect the unrealistic love of Xiao Nai?!

I lie in Shawnee's arms, listening to his steady heartbeat, his concern questions on my body like a layer of warm shell, I carefully care about them.

I looked up and asked him, "solemnity, do you love me, do you really love me?"

He said to me with a smile, "yes, I love you. I really love you." He gently left a trace on my face, followed by the expression of kiss me, I kiss protect him, warm response, inner emptiness want to use the body to fill, I know that this will always backfire, but I am deeply in it, can't stop.

I took off his clothes crazily, and kept doing to him what he had done to me before, kissing again and again, with a bit of my fight against this secular life, sour calculation, a bit of pain.

We kept warm in his office, and didn't eat lunch. In the evening, he still held me and didn't want me to leave. I always wonder if he is as afraid of loneliness as I am. No matter where he is deep and what his heart is, what he and I have in common is that we can have someone who can accompany us all the time. In this way, we are just like two wretches warming each other. Only by feeling each other's existence as much as possible can we make our inner emptiness complete for a moment.

Even if he doesn't want me to leave, I still need to go back to work.

As always dancing, undressing, dressing, chatting, pretending that I am very happy, I am eager for this vanity, tireless I am constantly jumping in the middle of such a noisy dance floor, waiting for the reward to increase with each passing day, but my recent income has plummeted.

I heard that there is a new person coming next door. She dances very hard. The most important thing is that she will keep the guests, and play and let them go. Naturally, there are more guests. Before, all my old customers went to her, and she was there all night. It's not like I left early.

It's like I lost an animal that was valued by people. Although I still want to be taken care of, the days of taking care of by the stars and the moon no longer exist. Now I'm just an old man.

Although I haven't had my 19th birthday yet, I feel that I'm old. Compared with the little girl next door, I'm just an old woman. I've seen through the world and lost interest in everything.

That night, I left early. A new agent stopped me. He gave me this month's salary, and then said to me, "your income is too poor recently. If you go on like this, you will be disqualified and the independent room will be let out. In the future, you can only wait for scheduling. Do you want that?"

I shook my head at him. "No."

"Since I don't want to, I'd like to think of a way. I'll be here every night for at least a few days. Look, I'm leaving now?"

I looked up at the time. It's 11 p.m. now. I'll be here at 5 p.m. today. In fact, it's not too short, but I'm much worse than the girl next door. Especially, I don't have much interest and strength recently. I just sit here, rarely dance and chat, and I don't have any smiling faces. I know the problem lies in myself.

He also said, "the foreman is not here recently. I'll take care of you directly. But your income is really not enough. How can I take care of you? It's not like there was no glory in the past. At least you should know that after the glory, you should continue to maintain it instead of giving up. Do you know? I know you need money at home. The foreman has told me the situation of everyone here before he left. I will try my best to make a bowl of water even, but you should also give me a long face. "