After getting out of the car, through the window, I saw my grandmother squatting at the door, plucking melon seeds to eat. She should have seen me, but the hand that ate melon seeds only slightly stopped, without any action. She idly threw the melon seed shell in her hand and looked at me.
I've been angry since I was 13 years old. I don't know. I've been angry since I left him. I don't understand.
I don't want to get out of the car. I shiver at the thought of grandma's whip on me.
I clung to the door handle of the car and didn't dare move.
DuGe turned to look at me with a worried look on his face and said with a weak breath, "it's good to leave. You still have a bright future. You don't have to interfere with the Qin family. It's good for you."
From the time I knew that uncle took me as a tool to the time when he drove me out, I cried and felt sad, but I didn't feel helpless like I wanted to. I thought at least he would tie a rope to hold me. I never knew I would be at a loss when I lost my uncle.
I cried and asked dugo, "dugo, uncle really doesn't like me, does he? Is that Liu ran back, I occupied her position, uncle really can't deal with me, will send me back? Doog, isn't that right? "
DuGe looked at me in amazement, but he didn't answer me. He didn't know how to answer me. How many people can say such a thing clearly. Uncle has his own life and has his own life. The woman he loves is Liu ran, but it's not me or me, but I don't know that he just threw me out as garbage.
I can't accept it, and I can't accept it.
"Girl, maybe it's good to come back." Dugo said weakly.
No, I'm not, I scream, "no Ah... "
This cry is very sad, I can't hear it myself, but I really can't stop. This kind of sadness can kill me. I roar, I scream at the top of my voice, and the whole car is helpless. But how can I cry until dark? I have to face this fact.
I begged dugo, "dugo, send me away, I don't want to come here, I don't want uncle's money, I don't want any benefits of uncle, just think I didn't exist, OK. Why do you have to send me back when I'm still on the side of the road? Don't you know that my return is purgatory? Am I not free when I grow up? Why doesn't he like me? Why doesn't he just throw me away and arrange my life, drive, let me go, I don't want to come back, I don't want to... "
DuGe frowned at me. He was helpless. He had orders. He couldn't go against uncle's will.
I cry all over weak, but my desire to survive is particularly strong.
I looked up at dugo, who was still sitting still, letting me continue to cry.
Grandma sat on the small stool outside, leisurely as if watching a very good opera, waiting for this little slave, I immediately got out of the car and ran to her arms, waiting for her humiliation, I seemed to see her beating in front of me with a whip, the pain suddenly jumped up.
I screamed and rushed out of the car. Regardless of dugo's cry behind me, I groped for a dark alley and ran like crazy.
I don't know where I'm going. I have no money and no future. But I know I can't go back. I don't want to go to grandma's or uncle's. I'm an adult. I have the right to control myself. No one can control my life.
Finally, I fell down on the mud at the entrance of the alley, and the helpless cry covered the whole street.
Since I came to my uncle, I have been planning my future life. I have been preparing for a long time, but the news of leaving is like a quilt covering all my nerves. It is covered with thorns. In an instant, I feel convulsed, but I can't break free.
DuGe didn't come after me any more. Later, I fumbled for the direction near the bus stop and kept walking.
Later, standing in front of Xiao ran, shocked looking at me.
I rubbed my eyes. After all, it was an illusion.
Is a stranger, just wearing the same clothes, should be the teacher around here, he asked me, "little girl, are you OK, you cry very sad, is something wrong?"
I was stunned and shook my head. "No, I just I'm fine, thank you
He nodded, thought about it, took out two red bills from the leather armor and gave them to me, and said, "take them and use them. I'll take a taxi home. I'll go home to take care of the children. I don't have time to see you off, but I'm not sure if you go by yourself, or I'll call the police for you?"
I shook my head desperately, but the two red bills were life-saving money for me. I subconsciously touched my clothes. This windbreaker is very expensive, but there is a blank in my pocket.
I have no choice but to shake my head and breathe out, "no, thank you. I have money. I'm just in a bad mood. Walk here. Brother, go home early. I'll go home, too!"
Turning around, I ran into an alley again. I don't know why there are so many alleys here. I couldn't get out after walking many alleys. It was dark and dark inside. The humidity was heavy. I stepped on the muddy road and wet my shoes.I think, if I go on like this, maybe I can go to the place where I live at first, which should be my home, right?
Since I was born, I was still in the street. There was only a note with the date of my birth on my body. No one knew who my parents were and where I came from.
I grew up in a welfare home peacefully. Those 13 years have been my happiest time. At least, at that time, I was cared for by others.
Later, all the people I met had demands on me. My father thought I was too thin to have a son. My grandmother thought I was not attractive enough to arouse my father's interest. Uncle thought I was a tool, qinnai thought I was a thief, and Zhang Ke thought I was a worm that could be crushed to death at will.
I always want to live a personal life, so that all people know that I am a person, but I found that all people think I am not a person.
Suddenly, in front of a dark, I fainted on the side of the road, fell down that moment, I thought, so sleep no longer wake up, should not be abandoned, right?
I remember that Qin Nai said that I remember to eat or not to fight. I am always full of hope for life. Even if I am dragged to the boundary of death, I still think I can survive and become the luckiest person. But in fact, I haven't had a smooth life since I grew up.
I didn't expect that life was full of malice to me.
Open your eyes, Shi Jian that pair of obscene eyes smile at me, the man beside him is Qin Nai.
I jumped from the fire pit to the ice cave. It's a double sky of ice and fire. Neither side is good for me.
I sat up and looked at the two people in front of me.
One is to take advantage of my asshole, the other is to sleep my bad guy, these two people will arrest me, what good result can I have.
I stare at Qin Nai's eyes, he did not dodge, said to me, "is Shi Zong met you on the road, finally called me."
I don't appreciate them at all. I don't know if they really saved me or if they followed me all the time.
Qinnai's people have been watching me all the time. He must know that I have an accident, so I don't believe what he said just now.
Instead of calling me to fight wits and bravery with them, I'd better go straight to the point and save a lot of energy. I have a happy life or death. I said, "uncle, I won't believe what you say. You can tell me what you want me to do. On the contrary, I'm in your hands. You can live or die, at least give me a happy life."
Qin Nai didn't answer. He just frowned and looked into my eyes for a long time. He took a breath and said to me, "it's Mr. Shi who was drinking in a nearby bar. When he came out, he saw you."
I still don't believe him.
He shook his head helplessly and asked Shi Jian, "how long do you want to live here? If you come, you won't say a word. I'll treat Mr. Shi well."
Shi Jian's eyes are just like poison needles. He looks at me fiercely, and I'm not willing to show weakness. I used to worry about him because I'm dealing with my uncle, but now I have nothing. As the saying goes, barefoot is not afraid of wearing shoes. I'm not afraid of anything. If I want to threaten me, I'll look down on me. I have never been soft since I was a child, and I have never been really afraid of anyone. I won't be caught as a target for my hard won freedom. He won't have any bad behavior to me.
Without waiting for him to speak, I said, "I'm leaving."
I got up and wanted to put on my shoes. Shi Jian squatted down and stretched out, holding my dirty shoes to me. He was modest with a smile, just like a courteous pug. He just had to stick out his tongue and shake his head and tail to me.
I hate the frown, "stone, you put down my shoes."
He laughs and squats down. He is still smiling and says to me, "girl, brother, I'll help you. It's not easy for you to come out. We all know about you. Since you have nothing to do with Qin Xiao, you are a free man. You don't have a place to go now. I've heard that you don't want to go home and have no money. Now it's not easy to go anywhere, Why don't you just follow my brother? I can still give you some benefits. Do you think so? I promise that you will be happier with me than with Qin Xiao. "
I bah, when I am something, even if I am really just a tool for breathing, I will not be manipulated by people like him.
I severely stretched out a foot, kick in his face, his solid body, ouch, after a sound like fall.
I jumped out of bed barefoot and yelled, "I won't touch my things you touched again, and you won't touch me. I'd rather go out for dinner than have anything to do with you, or I'll vomit when I eat. In the past, you could threaten me, but now I have nothing. I'm not afraid of you threatening me, and I won't be threatened in the future. You're a disgusting pig. Don't try to attack me. "
Without waiting for him to get up, I put out a foot to kick it. This time, I thought it was too hard. He heard the cry of killing a pig and spread it on the ground. He was angry and struggled to get up and catch me. I immediately turned and ran away. I took a look at Qin Nai standing at the door, snorted and pushed him hard, "you're an asshole, too."
I ran out barefoot and stepped on the bright tiles. I kept running outside. I rushed to the doctor and nurse who stopped me and went straight to the gate.I don't know when two people jumped out of the car waiting outside. One of them drove me on one side of the shoulder, yanked me hard and pushed me into the car like a dead pig.
I haven't had time to call. I've been covered by someone, and I've no breath.
I never knew that Bai you was wanted by so many people. After my uncle left, I became the target of many people's scramble. I just escaped from qinnai, turned around and was captured, and the person who captured me surprised me even more.