Chapter 47

Chapter 47

My breathlessness and lusty look must have been enough to convey my need. The warrior’s shadow came closer, and his lips touched mine. I thought my heart would stop from overwhelming happiness. He tasted like a dish called desire, and I hoped I tasted good to him too, like the jelly that was rubbed all over my body last night.

I wanted him to take me right now, but it didn’t happen. Instead, his hand reached out to touch my member, and as soon as I felt the touch, I was helpless. My body has been in pain all night, and I orgasmed immediately.

It was such an intense feeling that I couldn’t breathe. I almost bit the warrior’s lips while I spasmed uncontrollably.

“Mmm… Aaaaa… Kkk…”

S-should I apologize, or explain my side?

Well, I didn’t have to decide because I couldn’t speak anyway. I groaned, and my eyes rolled back in pleasure. Finally, the warrior untied me, and I waited expectantly for him to take me. Was he erect? I wasn’t sure, but I knew that at least I was ready. My opening was wet and loose.

However… For some reason, it didn’t feel right. My body swallowed the warrior’s member easily, but I felt empty…

The warrior moved against me rhythmically, but my body didn’t react to it. I felt like something was broken inside me. I remained there like a wooden doll as he pushed me with a grunt.

I couldn’t tell if I felt good or bad. I didn’t think. Well… Actually, to be honest, it felt unpleasant. Almost painful. It was like the warrior was having sex with a corpse.

He pushed my face down on the floor and moved even more aggressively. I tried to hold on, but tears began to roll down my eyes. I felt like a helpless little boy as I cried, “Ahh… It… It hurts… Hurts… Mm… It hurts too much… N-no… D-don’t… S-stop… Please…”

However, of course, he didn’t stop. In fact, he became even more forceful. I knew I couldn’t escape this. The last chance I had to run away from him was when I was 10. At the time, my saviour was 14 years old and he wanted me. I should have refused him, but I didn’t. In the end, I became his tool. I couldn’t escape him. I couldn’t resist him because this was what I wanted.

When he was done, he left. I laid me on the floor, exhausted and wet. I sighed in desperation.

***

I wasn’t stupid enough not to realize what the warrior wanted. He clearly wanted me to become afraid of this act, and perhaps of him as well. What I didn’t know for sure was if he was taking me because he wanted me or not.

Every night, I was shaved freshly and covered in transparent jelly. Since I didn’t fight back, the servants didn’t restrain me too harshly. They also didn’t gag me anymore.

They even answered me when I asked questions.

“What is this substance?”

“It is what the women in harems use to seduce men. They put it all over themselves to arouse men.”

“… And why are you putting this on me then?”

“The warrior has ordered it, and it is not our place to try to understand his wisdom. I am sure it is some kind of a test for you or to help strengthen you.”

“…”

It was a useless textbook answer. Did they know how much I suffered every night while panting and sweating? Did they laugh at me secretly?

It was the same every night. Hakim Karid refused to let me pleasure myself. Even on the nights when I wasn’t bound, he ordered me not to touch myself. These nights were even harder for me because I had to resist the temptation.

After a night of pain, the warrior would take me just once in the morning. I would climax whenever he touched my member, but when he penetrated me from behind afterward, it would be awkward, uncomfortable, and +painful for some reason. My opening was always wet and ready for him, but it just didn’t feel right. I even tried to crawl away from him once.

Hakim Karid asked, “Do you not like it? It looks like you do want it, though. If you tell me you don’t want this anymore, then I will stop.”

“… mmmh…”

As an Innocent One, I couldn’t lie to the Goddess’ warrior. Besides, after nights like this, my head felt clear; I didn’t think about lusting after another man throughout the day. Perhaps, the warrior was indeed wise for managing to control my lust.

Of course, I began to hate my weak body. Maybe someday, I would genuinely no longer want a man. I would be confident enough to say that I will never seduce another man. Maybe this torturous night would fix me.

The Goddess’ warrior promised me that when that day came, I would be allowed to stop serving him.

Would that day ever come?

However, for now… I was still too weak. When the night approached, I secretly became excited and expectant. If I tell him that I was all fixed, and if he stopped taking me… I would never be able to feel another man inside of me again. I was fearful of losing this pleasure, so I let myself have one more night… Just one more night… And this went on and on.

I knew how every night would end, with me in pain and disappointment, yet I wasn’t strong enough to stop myself.

I couldn’t walk away.

“Ahh… hhh… kkk…”

My hands weren’t bound, but my ankle was shackled to the wooden column right outside the warrior’s bedroom. If I wasn’t, I could go somewhere to relieve myself, but I was stuck here. If I went against his order and touched myself, there would be indisputable evidence, and I was too afraid to find out what kind of punishment he would give me. Thus, I kept my hands to myself.

However, tonight, something strange happened.

“Psss, Juya. Are you okay?”

I heard quiet footsteps outside. Was it an intruder? If it was, then I wouldn’t be able to do my duty as the warrior’s guard. I became concerned, but when I saw the shadow, it looked familiar.

It wasn’t Eriez, then who…?

“… Nairim?”

By the time he touched my ankle, I had recognized who it was. He was one of the Innocent Ones, and although I didn’t know him very well, I knew at least that he was one of Manar’s buddies. Another shadow appeared behind him, and it was an easy guess he was as well.

“Shadi…”

Nairim’s friend.

However, what I didn’t understand was where Iztal Nairim got a key to my shackle. He freed me, and I protested, “W-wait! The warrior… He is the one who bound me here. What if he wakes up…?”

“We will go out for a minute and return before he finds out. Don’t worry.”

Suddenly, Iztal Shadi came behind me and covered my mouth with his hand. The way he treated me wasn’t kind or friendly. Nairim also pushed down on my legs, thinking I might fight him.

After unshackling me, he got on top of me and stroked my thighs. He smirked unpleasantly and whispered, “Hmm! So it’s true. Hahaha… He is just like a girl.”

“…?!”