Chapter 53

Chapter 53

It turned out that, instead of me helping the warrior bathe, he ended up washing me. The large tub was filled with warm water. The warrior stepped in to sit, and I sat on the edge with only my legs inside the water. He washed me with the water gently, and I remained quiet in wonder.

I was naked except for the leather string that was still wrapped around my member. It felt uncomfortable but bearable. It was much better than being attacked by my brothers. I came here to ask for the warrior’s protection, and it seemed I got what I wished for.

However, it was for a price. In return, the warrior probably wanted a complete monopoly on my body. He had the right and the access to my body, whether I wanted it or not.

I realized that my situation was very similar to that of the Virtuous Priestess. At least when she used to be still in the harem. I was in love with Prince Camille, but I had to let Hakim Karid have my body to survive. I feared going back to my own selamlique because I knew I would become a target again.

To give up control over one’s body but getting a life of luxury in return… The prince told me that being rewarded was not enough to erase the shame of being used. It didn’t make it okay.

I looked down and saw my tears falling onto the water. Quietly, I asked the warrior, “… What am I to you, my warrior?”

“What else other than an Innocent One?”

He answered nonchalantly, and to hide my face, I lowered my face even more and asked, “But doing this… What has it got to do with the duties of the Innocent Ones? I was assigned an official duty of your night shift guard, but I can’t even perform this responsibility anymore. You ordered me to keep my body clean and wait for you in your bedroom, but I couldn’t even do this.”

“…”

“But even then, you have not punished me. Instead, you treat me like a woman you love. You have shown me only kindness and generosity. I want to ask you then, what am I to you, my warrior?”

I had many other questions that I couldn’t ask. Why did he order the servants to shave my body? Why did he put this odd device on my manhood? Why did he at first allow me to become erect only to change his mind and disallow me later? And why did he only allow me pleasure when he deemed fit?

When I did well, he patted me, and when I cried, he hugged me and made me feel safe.

Was it love? Or was I just a toy to him?

If I was Hawaki and I was in this situation, I felt like I wouldn’t feel so empty and desperate. At least, as the Virtuous Priestess, I would have been left with evidence of being with the Goddess’ warrior.

Becoming pregnant with the next goddess.

Even if the warrior’s love lessened or disappeared, the priestess would be able to lead a blessed life. A life of respect and honor.

As for me… I couldn’t have anything.

I had nothing.

“Turn around and lean forward, Iztal Juya.”

The warrior didn’t offer me an answer. I was just a tool, a disposable toy that could be thrown away. I stood up and turned around. I leaned forward and supported my body by holding the edge of the bathtub with both of my hands.

Warmth touched the inside of my thighs and between my butt cheeks. When I felt his strong hands, I moaned as usual.

“Ahh… Haaa…”

I wasn’t acting. It was a real reaction from my body. Then… I felt something entering me.

It wasn’t hard like a finger or his member. The shape and texture of it were very different. It was… some kind of a tube that was inserted inside of me, and through it, I felt liquid run into me.

“Aahhhhh…? Haaa…?”

It stung inside of me, and at the same time, I felt an odd numbness spreading. My eyes became blurry, and I had to grit my teeth to stop myself from fainting. I was inside a tub, and if I collapsed, I could drown.

I fought the warrior’s hands and jumped out of the tub. I panted and collapsed on the floor. If I stayed inside the tub even a moment longer, things could have been much worse. My body felt cold as it shivered. I hugged myself and felt the strange fluid living my body.

This was bad.

“Is it hard to tolerate it? I thought you would like it.”

“… Pardon?”

The warrior seemed unconcerned as he poured some water around me to wash the fluid away. I didn’t feel as bad now, but I still was very dizzy. I didn’t even want to know what he put inside of me.

“Didn’t you tell me that this substance makes you feel incredible lust and heat, you and many of your brothers?”

“W-what do you mean…?”

I began to feel nauseous as I recognized the familiar scent. It was the same sweet smell from Prince Camille’s quarters, but added to it was a robust alcoholic component. He offered me his finger, and when I smelled it closer, I knew with certainty what it was.

“Camille said that this relaxes the body and makes the host honest. It also prevents a person from being impulsive, and I trust that he knows what he is talking about. He is very well versed in chemistry, after all. That was why I found it odd that you and your brothers experienced erection and pleasure from this substance.”

“Ahh…. Haa…”

I was a mess, but somehow, I was able to hang on to my consciousness. My tongue felt numb and stiff, and I desperately wanted to answer him, but I couldn’t.

I needed to tell the warrior. I had to explain, but all I could do was blink my eyes. I heard him continue, “Hmm… I can tell that your reaction isn’t exactly pleasure and lust. I know you can hear me perfectly well, Iztal Juya. This isn’t something that weakens or confuses your mind. If what you told me before wasn’t a lie, then I do find it odd that your brothers, the Innocent Ones, lost control and acted crazy just from this fragrance.”

He lowered himself and looked at my eyes as he added, “And you are a strong and honorable Innocent One, so I think you learned today that if you tried hard enough, you could withstand your lust. You can choose not to be taken by a man. Well, as long as you don’t become covered in the special jelly that the harem women use.”

“My Warrior… I…”

“So how do you feel now? Do you want to be satisfied again because of this fragrance? If you do, then I will oblige you.”

“I…”

It wasn’t just the bodily pleasure that I wanted. I… I knew that I could say this out loud now.

“I want to be loved by you, my warrior.”