Chapter 78

Story 46. The Person I Love (2)

Chapter 78

It would have felt nicer if I spent my days reflecting and meditating. It would have been better if these days were given to me so my body could heal.

The Goddess’ warrior rarely visited me. When he did come to me, he spent the night with me tightly in his arms. He made sure I could not move at all, and this left me hot and bothered. I laid awake, unable to get any sleep.

Was I being loved? I felt the strong urge to touch him, but my hands were restrained by his, and I was helpless.

During the daytime, I often fell asleep only to be woken up with a flinch. When I began to feel hunger, a servant would come and leave me some food, which I would gulp down like an animal. Too much food sometimes made me go into a strange seizure.

Because I had no access to the drug, my body suffered from dreadful pain. Everything I did was against the will of the Goddess. I was never really asleep, but never genuinely awake either. Even when I ate, my body couldn’t digest the good, causing me a searing pain in my stomach.

Pus and exudate came out from every orifice in my body. When I urinated, there were three streams, and one of them was blood. If this was hell, would I be able to escape it alive?

However, even if I did… Would there be a life left for me worth living?

To forget the excruciating pain of my body, I tried to keep it aroused as often as possible. It wasn’t because I wanted pleasure; it was only to create a better circulation throughout my body, so my pain eased a little. This was the only way I felt like I could endure my imprisonment.

“Ahh… Aaa… Haa… Kkk… Hhhh… Aaaaaa!”

I stroked myself frantically and used my fingers to satisfy me, but after a weak ejaculation, I always ended up being in even more pain.

Then, one day… Someone visited me.

Nairim.

“Juya?”

It has been a very long time since someone came to see me other than the warrior. I assumed that he ordered everyone to avoid this room, but it seemed that Nairim found a way to sneak in.

“Juya… What happened to you…”

His pretty voice asked me. I was on the floor, and when I looked up, I saw him looking down at me worriedly. My eyes were a bit blurry, and I could see that his eyes were also red. His pupils were dilated, and he looked despondent.

It seemed that he immediately figured out what my body was craving. Nairim took a small jar from his pocket and said to me, “It was tough to get this. You know what? As soon as I got it, I thought of you, Juya.”

“G-go away.”

I limped towards the warrior’s silk bed, but Nairim quickly followed me and touched my hip. Nairim begged, “Juya… All I can think about is you… I really mean it, Juya… Please look at me… I love you so much. I just want to make you happy. I told you this before.”

I tried to look away. When I shook off Nairim’s arm, he didn’t try to grab me again. However, Nairim didn’t leave either. He took a step back and continued to murmur; I could hear him taking his clothes off.

“Ahh… Haa… Many brothers are willing to f*ck me… But… I only want you, Juya… I keep thinking about you. You are so pretty… And when I think about the time when you f*cked me… Oh… Haa…”

I continued to stare at the wall. I felt Nairim approaching me from behind, and it seemed that he wasn’t going to leave.

“I… I was reborn when you f*cked me, Juya… I felt more alive back then… Haa… Nothing… Nothing else can satisfy me now, Juya… At first, I thought it’s because I was out of the drug, but it wasn’t… Juya… So… I… Ahh… I went into the harem and got this for you.“

Nairim didn’t know any odalisques, so how did he get this drug? I was suspicious, so when I glanced at him, I was shocked to see Nairim’s body. His lips and penis were shiny, obviously because he rubbed the jelly on them, but what stunned me was the cuts all over his body.

“…!”

His arms, thighs, nipples, chest, waist, stomach, and groin… There were small but distinct cuts everywhere. It was clear that they were self-inflicted.

“Haa… You are finally looking at me. What do you think? Do I look pretty?”

“Nairim.”

“Are you worried about me, Juya? Ahh… I’m okay… As long as I can have you…”

He came to me, and when he pushed me down on the bed, I couldn’t resist. Nairim had an idiotic smile on his face, and he looked so fragile that I was afraid I might break him if I was too rough. When he kissed me, I tasted the familiar drug on my tongue. A shocking pleasure spread throughout my body, and I was helpless against it.

“Ahh… Haaa… Aaa… Aaa….”

All the pain and suffering I endured so far… They were for nothing because of this one kiss.

I was too weak… And like a coward, I decided to think positively. I decided that the suffering I went through during the last few days was for this moment.

This moment of pure, intense pleasure…

It was too easy. I laid on the bed and let myself go. My penis, which seemed like it was broken, was now working correctly. I felt the incredible warmth around me.

“Haa… Hhhh… Aaaa…”

“Aaaa… Ahaaa… Aeee… Juya… Touch me… Please…!”

Nairim rubbed himself against my body as he ejaculated. It seemed that he was trying to stop himself from orgasming because I saw him covering the tip of his member with his thumb tightly.

He changed his position and leaned towards me. He began to thrust vigorously, and he became so breathless that I was afraid he might hurt himself and even die from exertion.

“Aha… Haa… Haaa… Haannn… I-I love you… From the first… first moment I saw you… I… I fell in love… with you…! Juya!”

“Ha… Haa… Me… too…’

I felt my body responding like I was reborn. I wished this moment would last forever. If I could really have a new life, I would have Nairim as my lover. I would live with him and love him. We both lusted after men. We could satisfy each other. Only if we could be with each other forever… Only if no one could separate us… We were a perfect match.

A perfect fit… Both back and front… Perfect…

When Iztal Nairim was satisfied with me inside of him, he came down from the top of my body. He flipped me, so I laid on my stomach and saw that I was wet.

“Juya… You like this too, right? Ahh… Here… You have tightened up since the last time, haven’t you…? Too tight… It has been too long, right? I will f*ck you now… For you… Just wait a second… Be patient… I will loosen it up for you… and I will cum inside of you… Like before… Aa…”

I felt the familiar thickness entering my body. Our skins slapped against each other, and I loved it.

“Ahh… Aa….Yes…”

“Haa… You like it, Juya? I love it too…”

It was just like the first time. I felt like a virgin again, and the happiness filled my heart. Nairim said he wanted to make me happy, and he was keeping his promise to me.

I closed my eyes and waited for what was to come. I felt excited at the upcoming pleasure… The ecstasy… I felt it coming…

“Ahh…”

I wanted this to last forever… I wanted all of him… I wanted to eat him up.

But…

This was not real. It wasn’t meant to be.

“… huh?”