Chapter 1084: The person only she knows (1)

She had experienced all of this before. She is not eager to experience it again. 

She hesitates because she did not know whether she is making the right decision. There were times she wanted to come back to Pandemonium and maybe chose another way.

But each time, fear crept in her heart. 

And this fear, this pain…...that is what made her stay.

It is stupid. But she could not endure that again. She could not endure another betrayal.

Not from him. 

As she closed her eyes, there were many memories that flashes in her mind. 

She took the coffee on the table and drink half of the coffee in the cup. 

Feeling relaxed and calm she walk outside the tent. 

A few feet from the tent is a tree with just enough height and width that it could be considered a normal tree. 

Compared to the trees in the forest nearby that reaches thirty to forty feet high and shades that could cover you even from rain and sunlight, this tree is quite small 

Leaning on the trunk of the tree is her bow. She gestures with her hand and the bow flew toward her palm

She grabs it and put it over her back. She looks at the sun in the sky. 

'Two more days' she thought to herself. Sofia has always been waiting for Azief here.

This time, she is going to do this. Because is f she did not do this, he would stay with her, till the end.

Sina told her that she was Azief first love. It was when they were teenagers Sina told her. She kind of chuckles trying to think how Azief was like back then. 

That is the Azief only Sofia knows. Sina probably could not have imagined that Azief in high school is unlike his current image right now.

The differences between the two is like Heaven and Earth

At that time, she remembers him as they were in the same class for a few years.

But she always thought of him as a funny guy. But a few years later, when she once saw him, there is this darkness about him.

Maybe…because she too had a darkness about her that she could see it in Azief. 

At that time, she was also not in that good of a situation. She did not get the scholarship. She was in the archery department when she was in school.

Her school is a sport school. 

Though they also accept normal students to pass the SPM, during the years when she was there, the sport athletes and the normal student interact normally.

Of course, after a few years later, she heard that there is this discrimination between sport people and the normal student but it did not matter anyway considering the event of the Fall

Her interaction with Azief during that time is scarce. Sofia was dating Hasrul at that time, a young rich man and her the poor abused kid. 

Hasrul family is a family of local politician. She on the other hand a poor girl with talent in archery

Even though, they love each other, when it is all over, she finds out that it is just young love. She could look back on it with fond memory

They were some painful times in that relationship. 

But they were also some good times.

She did not want to forget it. But with Azief…...it was different. The boy she knew and the man she met that come into that mall a decade ago, is a different person.

But in some point, it is still the same. She sighed.

Sofia is a friendly person. She smiles a lot. She talks with people and she is sweet. That is how she cope with all the bad things in her life.

Behind her smile, there is a sadness only certain people could see. 

She hides her darkness so well that it is very hard to see it. With smiles and laughter, she wipes away the tears but on the inside, it is hurting

In that moment, she wears a mask that only she knows how to craft.

But Azief…. he shut down those emotions, prefer to handle it by himself. If there is a mask that he wears, it is those cold eyes, those expressionless face.

It is not some kind of man machoness that he handles all of it alone, it is because he simply too accustomed being alone.

The cold man the world knows, Death Monarch the strongest man in the world. But the Azief that she knew is nothing like that.

She knows how sweet he is when they were alone together. She knew that he could laugh. That he could smile and play jokes.

She could feel and see his kindness. 

When the mask is torn off, there is the man he loves. A light in his eyes that is gentle and warm, the face that lights up when he is happy, these things that no person other than her could see.

It is just that the world could not see it. 

Because, that is not what is expected of him. Because reality is harsh and kindness to some people is a weakness.

She knew him. 

She knew him in a way no other people knew him. 

And she wanted to embrace every part of him. But…there is always a part of him that he would never share with her.

And her, wanting him to share that, it made her feel selfish. 

It made her feel…. bad. 

And that is not good for her heart. And wanting him to love him the way she loves him make her felt evil. That everything she did is wrong.

And because of that she knew that this is love. Because the pain is nothing she had ever experienced.

And the reason why the pain is so intense is because the good days lingers. Because every time she is with him, she could not help but happy.

It did not matter what they were doing or where she was….as long as he is there, she felt happy. 

She closes her eyes again and she thought of all the kisses they shared together, the touches and all the words they say to each other

Each time they kiss, she felt like everything is right in the world and every time he smiles, that rare smile, coming from such a private man, she felt some kind of satisfaction, knowing that the smile is for her and because of her.

'Huu' she sighed. 

Her hair sways a bit as the wind blows pass her.

Her hair is now golden. 

It is not blonde as that it is not her hair original color but golden. though when it is not supplied with energy, it does really look like a blonde hair

She is tall and beautiful with curly golden hair. A decade had passes and she look nothing like she was in the past. 

The stronger she is, the beautiful she became. The same could be said for Azief. But she is white pale on her face.

It shows that she has been injured a bit. It is clear though that she is now slowly recovering from her injuries.

This had something to do with the monster that tries to come to the island. Some of these monsters are Disk Formation equivalent.

Since she is here, there is no harm for her to kill all of these monster from going closer to the center of the island where the hill that have the portal is situated.

She uses her eyes to try to see if there is any monster this morning. 

After the Multiversal Convergence energy fills the world, it is better to use your eyes than your Divine Sense to look at things

Divine Sense could give more detailed description and seeing things comprehensively compare to using eyesight.

But at least eyesight is not suppressed by the energy of the world. If she uses her Divine Sense, what she would see is only ten kilometers around her.

The denser the energy around a certain area, the harder it is for a Disk Formation leveler to use their Divine Sense to judge some things

She slowly floats upwards and look down with her eyes. 

She is surveilling the entire area

She is ready to rain down a tide of arrows if she saw any monsters but after a few minutes of looking and seeing nothing is wrong she landed back on the ground. 

She then looks toward the area of the hill with a complicated expression.

'I'm sorry that I used you. If I didn't do it this way, then he would never let me go. And because of that, I fear that I would make a mistake' 

The one that she used is Katarina. That is the reason she would use.

And she knows this is simply her just running away

she sighed and then return back to her tent, throwing her bow to the corner of the tent and laid down on the makeshift bed that she had made using the power of the Elements.

She lay down on her bed and lay down the back of her hand on top of forehead and close her eyes. the moment she closes her eyes, her mind began to wander

When she heard from Sina that she was Azief first love, it did not make her happy. Instead, it made her worry.