345 He misses everything about her

With Li FuJin's unbearable gaze, Zhiyuan can only sigh, but he glances at Xiao XiRan who keeps on staring at Marlene before he speaks. "I used to be her pet, since the day she was born."He can't help but to smile with gentleness on his eyes while remembering how playful and sweet YuYan was to him, pulling his fur when she was still a baby.Zhiyuan can't help but chuckle while recalling the times YuYan keeps on cutely biting his neck or shoulder when she is on his arms to walk at the black garden's forest.At the same time, when YuYan was still two-years-old, Xiao XiRan and YuYan keeps on sleeping beside Zhiyuan when he is on his tiger appearance, feeling the warmth of his body.Whenever YuYan will cry after her big brothers fought each other to get her for themselves, only Zhiyuan can make her stop and laugh, he misses everything about her."But after she went here when she was six-year-old, I never saw her again." Zhiyuan started to explain, his teary eyes shows sorrow, his voice sounded in pain.His heart felt like being pierced by a thousand needles, his flesh were being ripped apart, while his soul felt like being burned by a terrible flame.Zhiyuan took a deep breath while trying to suppress the grief on his heart, with an anguish voice. "I only heard that she was bitten by a boy who has mixed blood and out for thirst." Marlene: "..." You mean Ruegen?Li FuJin: "..."A heart that is being squeezed making Zhiyuan felt unable to breathe, he keeps on blaming himself for not being with YuYan that night."Her family tried to hunt that boy, he was never found." Zhiyuan's voice sounded like being hit by a thousand slashes. "As for what happened to her after that night, I have no idea."Zhiyuan forced himself to continue, despite the pain that he feels in his heart. His eyes burn, a tear fell from it as he recalls how happy they were before. YuYan her carefree self, just enjoying life to the fullest, but now, that is like a dream that never happened in the first place. His voice soft, whispering with regret."I don't know where she was, her family doesn't tell me anything, so I left to find her, but I failed." he says, shaking his head. "I... Failed..." Zhiyuan added gripping his shirt on his chest, venting his frustration. If YuYan wants him to kill himself because of his mistake, Zhiyuan will do so with no complain. That is his penace for being incompetent, a beast that was not able to help her on the times of great need.His eyes dazed recalling on how he was still lucky to find her again. He was given a second chance, "Then I accidentally met her again in D country." Zhiyuan said with a bitter smile on his lips. Zhiyuan can never forget how hard it was for him to believe when he saw YuYan in a coma. Even though that is the case, he had vowed to be useful to her again even if he needs to sell his soul just for her to wake up again.  Despite not seeing her for so long, Zhiyuan recognizes YuYan because of Mo YuMin. He remembers that he took her on his arms, cried for a couple of days, he did not leave her side.Zhiyuan promised when they were at the sanctuary. He will never leave her side again, be there when she needs him, do everything he can to unlock her seal.After he failed to protect his master, Zhiyuan wanted to kill himself, but her felt back to life when he met YuYan and swore that it will never happen to her.The same time that Zhiyuan is trying to explain, he keeps on glancing at Xiao XiRan who were just silently listening, but he can see sadness and pain on Xiao XiRan's eyes.