Although the little girl's words sounded irritated, YuYan can only sigh knowing that it was the truth. She looked around while thinking and mumbled again. "That explosion… Did mommy died because of me? Is that why they…"
YuYan can't finish her words. She can't help feeling scared to know the answer, whether the time the Soul Ice emerged from her body was the cause of her mother's death.
She wanted some answer, but this question made YuYan's heart start beating fast with the feeling of being squeezed, making her hard to breathe.
Tears began to form in her eyes, blurring her sight until falling on her cheeks. YuYan can't stop it anymore. She started sobbing silently, covering her mouth as she continued mumbling. "Did they.. Are they.. Afraid of me? Or... Are they... blaming me of what happen?"
YuYan looked at the colorful memory orbs. She doesn't know why she felt troubled recovering her memories before lowering her head with a stabbing pain in her chest.
Is it because of the fear that her older brothers were probably treating her like a baby just to control her emotions? Is this the reason why her other siblings treated her differently? Or was it because of them seeing her as a deadly monster?
YuYan's face is full with grief. At the same time, feeling scared for her older brothers and sister to avoid her due to the power that can cause their death. Worse, blaming her for losing their mother.
Her mind was like a hurricane, swirling all her thoughts, not giving her a chance to think straight. YuYan wanted to scream, but her throat is dry.
With those questions and possibilities running in her mind, YuYan felt going crazy. But before it happens, the little girls soft but faint comforting voice instantly made her feel enlightened.
"Don't be sad… Actually, I don't know what exactly happened after mommy took me away, but I assure you. Mommy didn't die that day." Little YuYan explained while she glances at YuYan who raised her head to look at her.
Although she's just a memory living in spiritual form in YuYan's mind, the little girl understood the feeling of the older YuYan, making her feel the same.
Little YuYan sighed after seeing the older YuYan's crying face. She felt annoyed. She wanted to speak, but she understood that the older sister she's feeling lost.
Therefore, little YuYan can only speak in her mind to prevent hurting the older YuYan's feelings. 'Tsk! This pretty sister… Can you stop crying? You're too big to cry like a baby..'
Little YuYan looked at the colorful memory orbs, floating in darkness like a firefly, before she added nonchalantly. "Just keep on trying to remember.. And don't miss any day on your memory..."
Without looking at the older YuYan, Little YuYan added, speaking like an old lady giving a riddle. "It's more like fishing in a well of darkness.."
"Those gleaming memory orbs are the fish that will try hard swimming away from you, hiding when you want to catch it, struggling hard when you get them hooked, making the clear water turn blurry.." Little YuYan continued as if she there was something she wanted to say, but can indirectly explain.
Her word might not be as helpful as it sounds, but this was comforting enough for the older YuYan to slowly gather her thoughts. She took a deep breath to calm her aching heart and swirling mind.
YuYan finally wiped the tears on her face, but can't help raising her eyebrow, not believing that the little girl would speak like an elder, but her face shows confusion while looking at the little YuYan.
Although she felt relieved that her mother did not die because of the sudden emergence of the Soul Ice in her body, there was a feeling that there's something in the little girl's words.
As YuYan tried to remember what happened after that day, it is true that her mother didn't die because of the sudden emergence of the Soul Ice in her body. However, right after acquiring this uncontrollable power, YuYan's life began to change.
At first, the Soul Ice seemed as if it completely disappeared from her body after that day in the dining room. It was like it never happened at all, but it was not enough reason to make her feel happy.
Whenever YuYan suddenly become emotional, no matter what kind of feelings, happiness or sadness, whatever it is, there will be a sudden drop of atmosphere that instantly surround her and small ice crystals will begin to form and slowly spread everywhere.
YuYan's raging elements that keeps on opposing each other within her can only stop by Mo MeiLi when she uses her Dark Flame, warming her, balancing the temperature between fire and ice, but this uncontrollable power only made YuYan to feel frightened, which greatly affected her emotions.