513 Reading the memories

Xiao YuRin's question made YuYan snapped in an instant. She remembered the main reason why she sneaked into her big brother's bedroom late at night. YuYan suddenly sits up straight, remembering the time before she came to the black garden.They just settled down in the Moon Garden, but her conversation with Zhou Ruegen gave her a feeling that something is missing. 'Right… I had the feeling of living with someone before, but I can't remember… I shouldn't have explored at Mo Rica's soul to read her memories.. It only made me more confused.' YuYan claimed in her mind. Although YuYan recovered her childhood memories, all of it was not organized. Different scenes keep on flashing in her mind, but sometimes she sees it as another person. At the same time, she will experience the same feeling of each scene like it just happened. It even goes worse after gaining Mo Rica's memories, making her confuse to understand whether it was her memory or not. Because of her confusion, YuYan feel depressed until she had a dream about Xiao FengYun being surrounded by dark flame. Her heart was in pain with the feeling that something bad happened to her big brother. Since Xiao MingRou was not willing to tell her Xiao FengYun's whereabouts, YuYan was determined to find him. However, Mo YuMin's advised not to find her big brother made her heart feel complicated. Right after YuYan sneaked into Xiao FengYun's bedroom, she was expecting that her big brother was already asleep. To her disappointment, Xiao FengYun is nowhere to be seen. Her heart was full of sorrow, especially remembering the last time she saw her big brother. YuYan never saw Xiao FengYun's expressions as he embraces her that whole time, but his voice was very lonely until he releases his dark flame and she fainted. Feeling worried about Xiao FengYun's whereabouts, the photo on the bedside table catches her eyes.It was her photo with Xiao FengYun in Mo YuMin's Villa after she woke up from a coma. That photo made YuYan regained her memories about Xiao FengYun, but it was depressing because those are only about her interactions with her older brother, while the rest, which includes other people's faces, was vague. She started crying, until Xiao YuRin suddenly appeared, giving her a warm embrace while she continued crying. Therefore, even though YuYan did not find Xiao FengYun, her efforts did not go in vain. Now that the misunderstanding between her and Xiao YuRin has been cleared, it is time to find out Xiao FengYun's whereabouts, but YuYan is uncertain that her brother would give her the answer. Therefore, YuYan thought for a second. No one was willing to tell her where she can find Xiao FengYun, not even their father which made her wonder. Would Xiao YuRin do the same? If that would be the case, what can she do? There is something or some ways she might use to get the answer, but she fears that it might hurt her brother. Just like what she did to Mo Rica, reading the memories by exploring the soul using her blended ice and flame. However, it only means that she will need to freeze her brother and go through the same suffering. Would she do that? No, of course! Not even if it's the last option she has, YuYan will never dare to do it to her siblings.Over her dead body! She would rather suffer to find the answers than harming her family. Besides, reading someone's memory causes her mind turn like a cyclone swirling, messing her unorganized memories. There are also other memories that seemed preventing her to see. Worse, it made her more confused from knowing which one belonged to her and which one is not. Maybe she just doesn't know how to arrange it? To her surprise, using that ability gives her a feeling that she already used it before, like it was all normal her.Unfortunately, YuYan has no memory how was she able doing it. Not even having any idea how or when she learned or had this ability. It also includes how it was possible for her to use both soul ice and dark flame at the same time? Blended together and use it as a torture to read souls, memories and using the soul chain to make someone as her slave. She can only guess all of this has something to do with her missing soul fragment. "You… You mean... You didn't hear what I said when I was crying?" YuYan asked after taking a deep breath. She can only put aside her questions for now. At the same time YuYan subconsciously glanced at the bedside table and saw her photo with Xiao FengYun before looking back at Xiao YuRin's eyes looking straight at her, but she can't help avoiding his gaze. Although she dodged his questions, Xiao YuRin knew there was a lot of questions running in YuYan's mind. Therefore, he honestly answered "I didn't exactly hear what you said.." "I was passing by when I heard you crying.." Xiao YuRin added nonchalantly while he looked away. He knew that YuYan must feel embarrassed for being found crying hard in their big brother's bedroom. Xiao YuRin was telling the truth. He was walking in the corridor because he can't sleep. That was when he unexpectedly heard someone crying after passing through Xiao FengYun's bedroom. He has strong senses, not just because of having a pure demon blood. This was thanks to YuYan who feed him her blood when he was still young and saved his life. There were a lot of things that changed Xiao YuRin's body and it made him able to practice martial arts and improved his senses even though he has a weak body and always fell ill. With the help of martial arts, Xiao YuRin hides his breath and sneaked into Xiao FengYun's bedroom. There he saw YuYan sitting on the floor, murmuring while crying hard. "I… I was.. I was looking for big brother Yun.." YuYan finally answered, but her voice sounded soft and faint. It was clear that there was sadness and longing as she speaks.