Chapter 64 - After The Bliss

But will it be possible to forget about such an unusual, enchanting night?

Depressed, Andrzej looked at his crotch, where the high rise meant that his body had a different opinion about it. The betrayal of his body against the provisions of his mind was terrible. The more that it was not the first time that he thought of Dominik.

Nowicki had no choice but to move out. This boy was just too erotic for any sexually sane person to live with him and not feel a physical reaction. However, while for a woman it would be a cause for satisfaction and perhaps a pleasant thrill, any normal guy would feel uncomfortable with this discovery towards man.

Everything in Śliwiński seduced - his beautiful body, lovely face with those absurdly aquamarine eyes, shapely nose, shapely lips and even his long, silky hair. How he walked, how he moved, how he ate, slept, talked, smiled happily or sadly. He was all dripping with eroticism and he didn't do it on purpose. It was just like that, and it was impossible to avoid it. It wasn't his fault, so there was nothing he could do about it. Therefore, in order not to provoke further bizarre situations, Andrzej should definitely move away from him.

It'll break Dominik's heart, he thought painfully.

He couldn't do it to him, just abandon him now, when the boy confessed his love to him and he was at war with his ex-lover. Whatever Dominik feels now, or thinks he feels, leaving him now would be an act of cruelty. The confession made by the actor must have cost him a lot of courage, if Andrzej reacts to it by running away, he will take away his faith in his own strength. He can't abandon him just because the boy says he loves him.

'If he fell in love with you, I'd cheer for him.' Paulina said something like that at the zoo.

Dominik fell in love with him, that's good. After all, Andrzej knew perfectly well that no one could love him.

***

Outside the window it was raining, feeling like not going outside. Andrzej looked at the rain, wondering if he should still find some excuse for himself to get out of this house. It was past noon and it was becoming more and more obvious that Dominik would soon leave his room. After all, he wouldn't be in bed all day. Then they will have to look at each other's faces.

Nothing happened, Andrzej kept telling himself. Nothing at all. That was the deal between them. They will spend one night together and will not mention it afterwards. Just nothing happened ...

"Good morning!"

Andrzej jumped up, so surprised him Dominik's voice.

"Good morning," he replied, turning to him. The actor looked radiant, so beautiful that Nowicki was deprived of his voice.

"What a downpour" Śliwiński noticed coming up to the same window. He stood about thirty centimeters from Andrzej. In the opinion of the photographer, far too close. "And I wanted to go for a walk today."

You are not the only one, Nowicki sighed, trying to move away from him even a centimeter.

"Well, I slept great," Dominik yawned and stretched. "I don't remember the last time I slept so well. How hungry I am!"

Śliwiński went to the kitchen, leaving a subtle scent of shampoo and an atmosphere of something wonderful. Andrzej instinctively looked after the man and got the impression that his gait was less smooth than usual, as if it were difficult for him to take steps.

'I think I wasn't too harsh with him at night and didn't damage him there ...'

Nowicki blushed with shame. He couldn't even call a spade a spade. Pathetic.

Apart from the slightly uneven pace, Dominik seemed really content and relaxed. Andrzej had known him for two months, and he had him under observation almost all the time and had never actually seen him like this. The actor radiated more than once, but never so much. He always had some kind of conservatism and shyness, as if, despite the bond between them, he was completely afraid to disclose. What happened to him today was beautiful and made Nowicki feel two extreme desires at the same time - to hug him, caress him and do indecent things with him, or run away from this place to all the devils.

"I'm leaving!" He called, almost running towards the exit.

"In that weather?" Dominik leaned out of the kitchen.

"I'm out of cigarettes."

"But ... you don't smoke ..."

Andrzej was already outside. If he had stayed inside for even a second longer, it would have been very bad.

***

"Idiot, you are all soaked! Are you crazy going out without an umbrella in such rain? It has been raining since early dawn."

"Sorry."

Andrzej did not know how it happened that he ended in Paulina's restaurant. It's not that he came to tell her about his experiences and emotional problems, he just walked in the rain, took some train and suddenly found himself here.

He regretted it as soon as he looked his friend in the eye.

She'll figure it out!

He was sure it had already happened, he could almost see the fluorescent light above her head. Yet he didn't want to tell her anything.

Only then why did he come running here?

She led him to the back room, threw him a towel and a change of clothes, and left informing him that she would be back in a few minutes.

***

Dominik was making shrimp curry and singing.

He hasn't sung while cooking for a good few years. He did not remember exactly when he had given up the habit, but he had certainly been in a relationship with Mark by then. The memory of the former lover didn't hurt at all. For Dominik it was definitely past tense and there was no reason to dwell on the already spilled and already sour milk.

The actor was in a great mood today, and not only because he had great sex with a man he loves that night. The most wonderful thing was that when he was going down the stairs today, the same man was standing in his living room looking out of his window.

Dominik was so afraid that Andrzej would not be able to accept what had happened between them and would leave, that before he saw him, he had the impression that his heart would break with uncertainty. It is true that he made sure that his lover would receive as much pleasure as possible, but he could not be sure if it would be enough.

Andrzej was in his house, however, and Dominik couldn't feel happier at that moment.

He was just about to put vegetables in the pot when his phone rang.

"Hello, Śliwiński here" he answered almost immediately.

"Congratulations or apologies?"

"Paulina?" he was genuinely surprised.

"Andrzej just came to see me. So how, congratulate or apologize?"

"Con… congratulations," he stammered, quite confused. "Paulina, what have I done?" He sank to the floor and stretched his legs in resignation. "I ... For me it was ... but him?"

"You love him?"

"Yes."

"Did you tell him that?"

"Yes."

"So don't worry about a thing and just be yourself. Give him time to get used to it all and he'll be fine."

"But ... Paulina, do you think that he and I can ...?"

"Of course, silly" she assured him firmly. "Andrzej is handsome, but he has never been in a relationship where there is love. There is something about him that intimidates women. Maybe you have to be a man to overcome this wall of inaccessibility that surrounds him. Because of our society, he couldn't even think that way, so he accepted his situation. You are the first guy he has had more than simple camaraderie with, and one of the few people he has opened up to. I know he likes you a lot, but he has to find out for himself what level of feeling it is. It doesn't hurt if you help him a little bit."

Dominik couldn't help but tears appeared in his eyes. They were not tears of pain or sadness, but of uncertainty that woke up with him again.

"Paulina…"

"Yes?"

"I love him. I love him. I just… love him."

"Don't cry, silly." Her voice broke too. There were both laughter and tears in him. "Everything will be fine between you, you'll see. Amor omnia vincit."