Chapter 65 - Mine

Jasmine

That Sierra girl seemed to be well acquainted with all the woman in the family. During breakfast she chatted away. Benjamin also joined the conversation. Now and then I saw Sierra touch Benjamin's hand on the table.

No one seemed to make a fuss about the two young people, touching each other so casually and openly in our family dining hall.

Each time they touched, I glanced at the sultan and he glanced back.

"How long will you be staying?" I directed myself towards Sierra over the noise of people talking. "A whole week." She cheered. I had a hard time swallowing my pudding. A whole week with her... There went our first few days off marriage...

"And you are from the States?" I asked her with feigned interest.

"Yes, Benjamin and I are very close." Sierra said as she looked at Benjamin adoringly. How close? I saw that Benjamin smiled at her. I did not like the way she looked at him, and in all honestly, I wasn't so thrilled about the way he responded to her either.

His eyes were clearly filled with love for her.

"She is like a child to the house of Saud." The second wife of the sultan said. "So you two see each other as family then?" I directed myself to Benjamin. He did not have time to respond.

"Oh… Much more than that." Sierra cooed. Did she not get sick of herself? "He means the world to me." She said laying her head against is arm. I felt like I wanted to come in between them. I did not want her to touch him. Not after the way the two of us had touched at night.

He kissed her forehead. He just kissed her forehead. My heart sank.

I felt humiliated. I mean, really? Just a few hours after our wedding night, he already sought attention of other woman. This… this was exactly why I did not want to feel for him in the first place. I hated the fact that each and every female drooled over him. Yes he was handsome, but the problem was that he God darn knew it.

I certainly wasn't going to be one of those woman who would fight other woman for her husbands attention. Last night I thought…

I thought… He was mine and I was his… I thought he was mine only. I felt frustrated, because even though I did not want to be one of those woman, I did not like what I saw right now either.

"Benjabear." I said in the most flirty manner I could manage.

His eyes shifted from Sierra's to mine. "let's spend some quality time together." I said as I wiggled my eyebrows once. I saw all kind of emotions playing across his face, but playfulness won. The corners of his lips turned up and he flashed me the most brilliant smile.

"Benjabear." One of his older male cousins roared in laughter. Benjamin placed his index finger on his lower lip and looked at me. I saw a hint of a smile. He shook his head slightly. "Come." He said as he stood up.

My stomach started to twist. Uh oh… what had I done now. He was planning something. He was planning revenge… That much was clear on his face.

"Ahh… We want to know why you are being called 'Benjabear' by your wife, dear cousin." Raina said clearly provoking Sierra.

Sierra rolled her eyes.

Benjamin licked his upper lip and still half smiled at me. He opened his mouth and than closed it again. His eyes danced. I turned to look at Raina. "Benjamin is so strong." I said stroking his arm, trying to be seductive or something. What did I know about seducing men for crying out loud.

"It's just… Benjamin holds me throughout the whole night." I said lingering on the world 'whole'. "He is my own personal cuddle bear." I said flushed. I looked up at him from under my lashes.

He offered me his hand. The woman on the table ululated as we retired to our chambers. Good for her, I thought. Everyone knew what we were going to do. And even though I did not know if I was willing to do it, I liked the idea of her thinking we will.

The moment a guard closed the door of the dining hall, Benjamin scooped me up and carried me like a cave man. "Come here you." He barked a laugh.

"Benjabear." He said as he patted my buttocks three times playfully. "Ahh Ben…" I started to laugh. "Please put me down." I snickered.

"Oh… No I won't." He said as he howled.

Everyone was staring at us as we passed. We made way too much noise.

Our guards opened the door to his chambers. "Put me down!" I laughed getting dizzy from hanging upside down a little.

"On one condition." He said as he slowely lowered me, but not yet, put me down. "Fine." I said lighthearted. "Surrender yourself to me." He said as he dropped me on the bed, hovering over me.

He placed one knee between my legs and parted my lips with his tongue. "What are you doing." I breathed between kisses.

He firmly kissed me on the hollow of my neck. "Ah.. Ben. What are you doing."

"Isn't this what you wanted?" He asked me in a teasing tone before he kissed the tip of my nose. What was it that I wanted?! I really didn't know. I did not want him to give all his attention to Sierra… that was for sure.

"Benjabear huh." He smiled at me and kissed my left collarbone. My fingers glided through his hair, pulling it a little.

He kissed me with so much urge. "Now say it." He said in authority. He knew I had been jealous, that much was clear. "Say what." I breathed against his lips.

"That I am yours." He said as he created space to look at me. My breathing spiked.

"Say it." He commanded me again. He cupped my face in his hand.

"Say it." He urged.

"You are mine." I declared.

I grabbed a pillow behind me and smashed Benjamin with it. He looked surprised at first and then he grinned. "Oh." He said as he raised one eyebrow in amusement. "Are we going to play that game now, are we?" He chuckled.

He grabbed both my hands in one hand and held them above my head as I was still laying on the bed. "Ben." I mouthed. He pinned me down and I inwardly started to panic. "Misses Al-Raji  El Saud." He said lecturing me playfully.

"To come back to our earlier conversation; are you going to surrender?" He said seductively. "How?" I mouthed. "Well you said you wanted to spend some quality time…." Benjamin said trailing of his sentence. He wiggled his eyebrows once, like I had done in the dining room.

I kept quiet. "I noticed you held back om me last night." Benjamin smiled crookedly. I was confused. "What do you mean?" I asked flustered. "Remember when your body shivered?" He asked me in a serious tone.

My eyes grew wide again… were we really going to discuss this? I nodded. "You see." He said as he used his free hand to trail down my stomach. "When we moved together last night." His fingers paused at my navel. I had a hard time breathing.

"What did you feel?" He asked me while he cocked his head intently listing for my answer. I pouted my lips. I did not like this conversation. It made me feel insecure.

I did not really know how to reply. "Is this really something you want to discuss?" I blurted out. "Yes." He replied. "Okay." I said. I looked up at the ceiling. "I liked it at first. It felt warm in your arms and…"

"And." Benjamin prompted. He softened his face.

"It's just that at one point, I felt like I lost control of myself." I admitted.

He smiled a little. "When your body trembled right?" He verified. I nodded. "And you did not like to lose control right, that was why you asked me to stop." He caressed my face.

I nodded again. "But it was too late." I was mortified admitting this. "Did you really want me to stop?" He licked his lip. "I was scared." I said as I looked him in the eye. He stroke my lower lip with his index finger.

"Did something bad happen, when you trembled?" He asked.

"No." I said against his finger.

"So… that is why I am saying you held back on me… since you did not fully enjoy the moment your body found its release." Could he just stop talking about this? I mean, this felt so uncomfortable. Was it normal that husband and wife discussed these kinds of things? I thought we would be fake husband and wife to begin with.

"So what?" I said a tat irritated. "Why would it matter to you if I would enjoy the moment or not?" I said. He frowned, but he did not say anything for a while. Maybe he was pondering his answer or something.

I saw him trying to fix his expression. "Because my little pea." He said as he leaned in. "I am your husband and it is my task to give you pleasure in life." He kissed me so deeply, I was lost in the moment.

Then he looked at me. "I need you to trust me, to surrender your body and mind when we touch." He released my hands.

"You want us to touch again now?" I squeaked.. He fought back a laugh and pressed his lips together tightly.