Chapter 108 - Oh Baby Baby

Jasmine

I was laying in his arms and felt the warmth of his skin surrounding me. It felt serene. It felt like coming home, although we were in a room I had never been before.

There were large paintings hanging on the walls, with golden frames and white pillars. Grand gold and crystal chandeliers on the sealings. It looked explicit, and much different from Benjamin's modern penthouse in Boston. 

I traced my fingers up and down his chest. His eyes were closed shut, like he was really trying hard to keep them closed and his mouth was made into a hard line, with clenched jaws.

When I kissed his cheek he stroke his hand through his hair. That made me realize that he was frustrated.

His stubble beard was neatly trimmed, he looked so fine.

I kissed the hollow beneath his ear and I heard him sigh. "Jasmine let's sleep." He proposed. "Let's not." I said as I kissed the skin above his bellybutton. I felt him balding his fists and saw that his arm muscles really showed.

I wanted him even more.

"You have been working out more." I breathed against the skin of his six pack. Benjamin pulled me back up with one hand and his almost golden eyes shot me a warning look. "Let's sleep." He said stern.

I leaned in and kissed his lips. He held them stiffly and did not respond to my touch. "Jasmine…" He commanded me.

"I love you." I breathed in his ear. His breathing spiked and that was exactly the reaction I wanted right now. Benjamin took my face in his hands and he looked lost. His eyes were filled with grieve and sorrow.

"Why are you sad?" I asked him.

He tilted his head to the side. "Jasmine it has been 46 days since I have seen you, heard you, touched you." He said in a pained voice.

"Why now?" He asked me.

"I don't know." I admitted. "I just really missed you." I added sheepishly.  Benjamin let go of me. "That is barely enough. I am sorry." He shrugged.

"I love you." I told him. "I know that is enough." I said looking into his hazel eyes. "No it is not." He shrugged. "You said you loved me and then decided you were done with me, so tell me…" He began to say. "What is it that you want from me today?" He said cold as ice.

"I am giving you all you wanted; a chance to study, making woman's rights better in your country of birth, I am still hunting down Saeed and all the while I let you live a free life." He gulped. "Free of me at least." He sand gesturing with his hands.

"And now here you are." He pointed to me. "Butt naked in my bed, wanting to seduce me." He said and then brought his knees to his chest and placed his head to his knees.

"You are acting strange and a little unlike you, like a horny teenager?!" He accused me. "A what?" I said in plain shock. "A horny teenager." He said again without shame.

"And for what?"

"To later accuse me of sleeping around with other woman? While all the while I only loved you?" He shrugged. "Or that you make me feel like some kind of rapist with you marital duty talk." He said looking disgusted by the thought.

"Well no thank you. I am just fine by myself." He said and I saw that he had glister's of tears in his eyes.

"You are not fine." I sighed.

"Well.. of course I am not. I married you because you were the only woman I truly wanted to be with from the get go. And then I find myself with a woman who does not return the feeling and keeps pushing me away." He spoke hoarsly.

"Now let's sleep, I don't feel like arguing with my wife tonight."

"See… you do see me as your wife." I pointed out.

He smacked his face with his hand. "God damn it." He roared.

"Now Sleep!" He commanded. I climbed on top of him and kissed him, breaking through his wall. He opened his mouth and let me in. Tears started to salt our kisses. "I love you." I breathed in his mouth.

Benjamin's hand flew all over my body, harsh and soft he traced my curves. Then he started to look down and he looked like he was in trance.

He touched my belly with both of his hands. "Please don't talk about the fact that a gained a little weight." I muttered. "I am not that fat." I shot at him.

"No you are not." He said shaking his head. "It feels swollen, but firm." His eyes grew big. I wanted to kiss him again to distract him. He was making me feel insecure about my body.

He was counting his fingers.

I raised an eyebrow. "When have you last had your period." He said pressing the temple of his fingers to my stomach.

"What's wrong?" I frowned.

"When was your last period Jasmine." He said not taking his eyes off my stomach.

"Pfff… " I blew out. "Uh… I don't really know… it had been a stressful time and… Then I came to Boston…"

"I don't know a week or two… before I was held hostage." I said grasping where this was headed to.

"Oh no…" I said. "Yep…" Ben said scratching his head.

He touched the skin of my breast, not it a lustful way, but merely examining it. "You have always had a blessed portion, but now they are… " He sighed. "Even more blessed." He fought back a smile. "This can't be…" I murmured. "Well… yes it certainly can." He said otherwise. He touched my belly and pressed a little bit under the curve that formed on my belly. He took my finger. "This is the line of your cervix. It feels a little hard. Do you feel that?" He asked as he put pressure on my finger.

He hovered over me and cupped my face.  He my squeezed my cheeks. "You are definitely having my baby.." He mused.