Jiang Miao accompanied me throughout the delivery. Although it was a c-section, the anesthesia was only placed on the waist and abdomen. The rest of the body was not anesthetized, including my mind.
When the doctor's scalpel cut into my stomach, my feeling was very clear, and my mind would fill up the scene of my stomach being cut open, saying that I wasn't afraid was false.
"Xiao Qing, you know when I was a child, I was very skinny. My mom said that one winter was very cold. She told me not to lick iron with my tongue. How could a child listen to adults? The more adults don't let me do something, the more I wanted to do it. It's not too much to say that curiosity killed a cat. I really licked the iron and was stuck."
I asked, "And then?"
"Of course, it's stuck to it. My mom poured hot water on my tongue and broke it. My tongue was almost broken. Can you imagine it? In the middle of winter, a child hung on the iron and didn't move. So many people looked at me and laughed."
Jiang Miao told me a lot of naughty things about him when he was young, and he said that he should teach his son well.
I could tell that he really didn't care who this child belonged to. He wanted to be my child's father.
When the child came out of my stomach, he was more excited than I was, holding my hand and shouting, "Out, out."
"I heard crying." On the contrary, I was calm, except for being a little weak.
The doctor said that the child was still young and would be kept in the incubator for a month. I had no problem with it. Jiang miao called first. He asked the doctor if he could take the incubator home and put it away, making the doctors and nurses laugh and cry.
I rushed to make things right so that no one would think my father was retarded.
"Jiang Miao, can you please not embarrass me? The baby is premature, the hospital is in good condition, there are doctors and nurses who can take care of it. Why do you bring it home?" I said as I endured the pain in my stomach.
Jiang Miao was still in his pajamas, and when he heard my tone, he hurriedly coaxed me, "Okay, okay, you're right, you're right. Let's just leave it here. I'm going to call my mom and ask her to come over and have a grandchild."
I smiled and lay in bed relaxed for a while. I finally had a family. I was no longer alone. I had my own flesh and blood.
But when I saw that Jiang Miao was busy and the jiang family treated me and my son like family, I felt very guilty.
What can I do, be with Jiang Miao and give him another child in the future? I feel so tired. Two children, different fathers, different fates, all the meat that fell from me, can I not feel the same pain?
What should I do if jiang miao changes her mind and doesn't love this child anymore?
To live a long life, these are all questions that must be considered.
After giving birth, I was very tired. I really didn't have the energy to think about it anymore, so I just let myself sleep.
I slept soundly and peacefully. For so many days, I had been on tenterhooks, always afraid that people would take my child away. Now that I unload the cargo easily and have someone around to take care of us, I didn't ask for anything. That's good.
But who would have thought that when I opened my eyes so contentedly, the first person I saw was Fu Jing.
A look of panic and alarm flashed in my eyes. "Why did you come in? Where's Jiang Miao?"
"You don't have to be nervous. I just came to say a few words." He held my shoulder so hard that I couldn't even struggle.
"Does that mean I don't have to be nervous?" I squinted and asked.
Fu Jing's eyes turned cold. "Are you guilty?"
"Why should I feel guilty?" I turned my face away. I was a little guilty when he poked me in the middle of something. "Just say what you want to say. I want to see Jiang Miao."
"Grandpa asked me to come over and get some of the children's things."
I frowned. "What do you want? I've already said that the child is not yours. Why are you still doing this? Fu Jing, I've been with you for so long. What's wrong with you? Can't you just let me and my child live?"
There was not only anger in my voice, but also a little pleading, begging him to pity me and not to take away my child again.
"Chen Qing, listen to me. The daughter of the Fu family can be exiled, but the son of the Fu family can't. At least not when grandpa is alive."
I sneered. "My child is mine, not yours, Fu Jing. Have you forgotten about your mother? They took you away from your mother. Have you seen your mother once since you entered the Fu family? You didn't. When you were rich and powerful, did you ever think about where the mother who gave birth to you and raised you was?"
He did not say a word and his eyebrows were locked.
"I worked so hard to conceive the baby in august. He's still lying in the incubator. What are you going to take away from him? You're going to take away his mother, aren't you? You want her to call Hai Tang mother in the future? Let him be like you and never be with his own mother?" He was so emotional that the knife wound on his stomach hurt when he tried to breathe in. When I yelled out what I was thinking, my stomach hurt even more.
"He's still young."
A sneer rose from the corner of my mouth. "Is that why you came to steal my child? Fu Jing, Fu Jing, I have wrongly believed you, wrongly looked at you, I hate you, I will hate you for the rest of my life! If you take my child with you today, I will be at odds with you tomorrow. As long as I don't die one day, I will treat you as an enemy of my family. We'll see!"
His hand reached out to my face. "Chen Qing, why are you doing this?"
I avoided his touch. In my eyes, he had no right to touch me. I hated him. I hated him to the bone.
"Get out of here. You're done. Get out of here. I don't want to see you anymore." I tried to suppress the heaving of my chest and calm myself down quickly.
It was agreed that the army would stand in the way of the enemy. Why am I so uneasy now? How am I qualified to be a mother to my son, and how can I protect him?
Fu Jing paused, put down his hand in mid-air and left my ward. As soon as he left, Jiang Miao had a chance to come in.
"Are you okay?" He held my shoulder and looked left and right.
I shook my head. "It's okay. What about you? Did they give you a hard time?"
"No." He clenched his fists in anger. "I'm sorry, Xiao Qing. I didn't protect you. He brought someone in, insisted on coming in, and threatened me with my mother."
"I don't blame you." I smiled."" I want to see the child. Can you push me to see the child? Fu Jing said he wanted to take something from the child. I want to know if he took it. If he didn't, we still have a chance to hide from the haunted fu family.
Jiang Miao became even more agitated. "What do they want? Take something from my son, want to take my son away? There's no door!"