As I expected, Er De went to see Tan Jie with joy. When he came back, he cried like a tearful man.
"Chen Boss, you know that, don't you? You already know what Brother Jay asked me to do, don't you?" Er De looked at me with red eyes.
I nodded. "You're so happy. How can I be willing to splash cold water on you? I told you from the side, but you..."
Er De wiped away her tears. "I was the only one who ran to see him like a fool. I thought there would be any surprises. I was just being sentimental."
I reached out and hugged her. I couldn't understand all of her unrequited love, but I could understand some of it. The feeling was really like a cat's paw. It hurt and itched, and now I only feel pain.
"Put it down. Why waste your time on someone who doesn't love you?" I said this to her and to myself.
Fu Jing doesn't love me that much.
Er De burst into tears. "Chen Boss, I can't do it. I can't do it. It's been so many years. I like him a little. His name has been carved into my bones. I'm used to liking him. Do you know how scary it is to get used to it?"
I know, how can I not know, but what can I do if I don't put it down? Torture yourself?
"Cry out. Spit out whatever you want to say. Spit out more and love him less." I coaxed her, looking at her snot on the clothes, and I sighed.
"He's really good, really good. I like him, I like everything about him. I don't care if he has those past, but how can he say that about himself? My heart aches when I hear it..." She sniffed, closed her eyes and burst into tears.
Er De is especially like me when I was a child. When I was a child, I cried with my mouth open and my eyes closed.
She said that when Tan Jie said that about herself, I could probably guess what Tan Jie said to hurt her.
When Er De stopped crying, half of my clothes were already wet. I took a shirt to change and wiped her face.
"Chen Boss, what should I do? I'm still very sad." She sobbed and couldn't stop.
"It's okay to be sad, but you can't be so sad all the time. From today on, go back and rest. Do whatever makes you happy. Play whatever you want. Stop thinking about him."
Er De shook his head. "I don't want to play. I'm in a trance now. All I can think about is what Brother Jay said. He belittles me, looks down on me, belittles my past. I'm so close to him, and his negative feelings reach me. I'm sorry for him. I know he doesn't like me, and I don't expect much from him. I just..."
"If you love someone too much, you will get hurt too."
"I don't care." She looked at me with pure eyes.
Don't you even care about getting hurt? I care. Being hurt by someone I love is like a knife in my heart. It hurts so much.
I had to go back and promise her that I would take care of Tan Jie's psychological problems before she could rest assured. The next day, she came to the company and asked me to introduce Tan Jie to a lot of psychiatrists.
"Er De, you don't have to do this. In fact, I advised him to see a doctor, but he rejected me. Now that you're in a hurry, it will increase his feelings of rejection. Now that he has stopped working, he has plenty of time to adjust himself. If he's not in a hurry, can you first make sure that you are in a good mood?"
I tried my best to enlighten her for a while before she could go home.
In erde, I saw the purest kind of love. I was really touched and envious, because I did not. If my love could not be repaid, then I would not give endlessly. I would retreat and choose to protect myself.
For two days in a row, I went home before Fu Jing came home. As soon as he came home, I washed up and slept. I had no desire to imagine the future with him. Wangdu didn't have any. He would talk to me too.
"Xiao Qing, are you feeling unwell?"
I shook my head. "I'm just tired. There are too many things going on at the company. I have to get up early tomorrow morning and go to bed first."
After I said that, I covered the quilt and slept on one side of the bed, leaving the other side for Fu Jing.
"The designer has already given me the sketch. You can take a look too." He said he wanted to give me and Tingsheng's home. He didn't know I didn't want it, and he didn't want it.
"See it tomorrow. I can't even open my eyes." I narrowed my eyes and pretended to be impatient.
He didn't say anything more, and I felt a little guilty.
When I got up to go to the bathroom at night, I took a look at the sketch he had put on the table. What a beautiful house, a garden, and a big garage. Although it wasn't as exaggerated as the castle, it satisfied my imagination.
Facing the river, I get up every morning and can see the river when I push the bed open. I have lived in the city for many years and haven't had time to enjoy it for a long time. I have to say that he is very attentive.
But what's the use? Our hearts don't stick together. It's useless to do this.
I crept onto the bed and saw his shoulders exposed. I habitually tucked the corner of the quilt in for fear that his shoulders would hurt from the wind.
Fu Jing, Fu Jing, we could have loved and supported each other for the rest of our lives. It's too late for you to think like this.
I still didn't look at the design in front of Fu Jing. He didn't know that I had seen it, and he didn't know that I had sold the company. After signing the contract and going through the formalities, I packed up and left.
Only Tan Jie knew where to go.
Without saying goodbye, I didn't even go to say goodbye to the angry voice. I was afraid that I would not be able to help but take him away the moment I saw him. It would be better if he followed me than Fu Jing. It would be the last thing I did for Fu Jing. I hope he can take good care of our Tingsheng.
"Are you really sad to be gone?"
Tan Jie pushed two suitcases alone. One of them was mine.
I nodded. "How can you not be sad? You're not a mother and you can't understand how I feel."
"Then I won't be able to experience your feelings for the rest of my life." He continued his cold humor, but I didn't even bother to give him a perfunctory smile.
I checked the tickets and got on the plane. I took my seat and the plane took off in a short while.
Tan Jie asked for a blanket and put it over my leg to let me sleep, but I wanted to wait until the plane flew high into the sky, and then I took one last look at the city, and when I really took one last look, the sadness of parting turned into a river.
The plane flew for more than four hours. Tan Jie and I arrived in Nancheng and got off the plane. Tan Jie took our luggage and took me to the airport bus. He also booked the hotel.
After staying, Tan Jie asked me to take a nap. We'll go to the scenic spot in the afternoon. I said we'll go tomorrow. He disagreed.
"I really want to rest." I'm a little angry.
"I don't want to give you time to rest. It's not that I don't know you're tired, but that I'm afraid you're always thinking about the past. Chen Qing, we don't have a way back now. We have to walk quickly to the front so that we can forget what's behind us."