Tan Jie yelled at me through the door, my heart hurting like a knife.
Just because he helped me, Fu Jing could do that to him. If he did that because he loved me, I really couldn't feel his love.
I opened the door and hugged Tan Jie. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
"So, don't go back, Chen Qing. We're going to get better and better. Don't be with him anymore, okay?" This time, I could hear the hatred in his voice that had been suppressed for a long time.
I never knew that Tan Jie had always cared about these things. It turned out that he hated Fu Jing.
"Okay, I'll listen to you." I couldn't refuse him. He had paid such a price to protect me and tingsheng.
Tan Jie patted me on the back. "Go back to sleep. Don't think so much."
When his mood calmed down, my mood calmed down. The way he looked at me was much gentler, and his voice was much softer. I nodded in relief and went back to sleep.
It turned out that a little news from Fu Jing could stir up such a big wave in my heart.
If I was really impulsive, then I would really be sorry for Tan Jie, who was so devoted to my good. I really made a mistake.
After being disturbed by Tan Jie, I calmed down and soon fell asleep in bed.
The people in the bar were busy during the day, so I sat on the bar and wrote. The guy asked me what I wrote, and I said I wrote travel notes.
I plan to write down the process of getting pregnant and write down more interesting things. This is what I saw on the internet that someone did. I find it interesting and plan to play with it.
"The photos you took are really pretty." I said to Tan Jie.
He looked confidently at the computer screen. "You think I've worked with so many photographers for nothing. I've found a way out."
"Well, if I give you some color, you can open a dyeing workshop. Can you do the final stage? I want the photo to look more beautiful."
"It's on me."
Tan Jie took my computer, and the photos were transferred from the camera to the computer. He downloaded a photoshop on my computer and started working on it. He talked to me while he was fixing it. I felt amazing.
The whole morning passed quickly. At noon, we went back to eat together. My aunt would cook for us.
"Are you really not going to get that wound on your face? It's so ugly to leave a scar."
Tan Jie touched his scar in the rearview mirror. "It's not ugly. Men are called men when they have scars."
"Well, do as you please." I shook my head.
After lunch, he accompanied me to the prenatal examination in the afternoon. Because I was worried about the baby in my stomach, I came to the hospital more frequently. As soon as I got the results, I was in a hurry to ask the doctor. The doctor confirmed that I was fine, so I could rest assured.
"Is the child a boy or a girl?" Tan Jie asked.
I smiled. "Can you have some common sense? It's illegal for doctors to tell others about gender. There are still many people who think more of men than women in our country. If they say that it's a girl, they won't give birth to any more boys. If they only give birth to boys, the ratio of men to women will be even more skewed."
"If you don't tell them that they were born a girl and didn't love her, wouldn't that make a girl's life miserable?"
Tan Jie's question froze the smile on my face. He was right. Not telling anyone the gender was a balancing act, but who could be responsible for a girl's life?
For example, me and Chen Lai.
Chen lai was worse off than me. She was the eldest sister and suffered more than I did.
Now that I think of my father's desire to have a boy in the world, I feel a little nauseous.
"Xiao Qing, what's wrong with you?" Tan Jie patted me.
Oh, I said, "It's okay. I just thought of something from the past. You're right. The idea of prioritizing men over women doesn't change fundamentally. What can it change if we don't tell the gender? Back in our hometown, I heard my mother say that some people gave birth to children, and when they saw a girl, they threw them away, and some drowned them in their urine."
Tan Jie gave an incredulous look. "Isn't it disgusting?"
"Those people don't feel disgusted. Maybe they weren't born by a woman. Maybe they were raised by a woman." I said it lightly, but every time I think about it, I get really angry.
"It's not good that I'm a boy. Maybe it's the other way around." Tan Jie started and stopped talking.
I didn't ask about her personal affairs. If she wanted to talk about it, I would listen. If she didn't want to talk about it, I wouldn't gossip.
These days, no one has two scars in their heart.
As soon as I got out of the hospital, I went to get my car. Tan Jie suddenly ran to me and asked me to take out my umbrella. I was very depressed. "The weather forecast says it's raining. Isn't it not raining? Why are you so anxious to take an umbrella?"
He took out an umbrella from my bag. I felt like he was hiding something.
"Someone is following us." He said in a low voice.
"Are you too sensitive?" Didn't Yue Ling say everyone was sent away?
Tan Jie glanced at me. "You can't even count the number of paparazzi I've been in contact with. I can feel it in a second if anyone follows me."
"Then what should we do?"
Tan Jie took me back to the hospital and didn't leave in a hurry. After a while, he slipped out of the door of the inpatient department. As for the car, he didn't take it out.
Back at the bar, the rain suddenly came down. The weather here was like this. The sun was smiling brightly on a sunny day. When it rained, it didn't even say hello.
"Have some hot water." Yue Ling brought me a glass of water.
I said thank you, put the umbrella aside, and held the water to warm my hands.
When it rained in Nancheng, the weather was a little cold. It was just right to wear a thin coat, but my hands were always cold. I was shivering with cold when it rained. The guys laughed at me.
After drinking the hot water, I went to help open the business. I guess the business tonight will be mediocre.
"Madame, don't be tired. You'll scold us if you see it later." A little fellow snatched the job of wiping the glass from my hand. "By the way, our bartender is gone. No one is on duty tonight. What should we do?"
"Has the bartender left?" I'm confused. It seems that I really don't care about the business in the store.
"Yes, it's been two days. I told ken that he would think of a way. It's all because the bartender left so quickly. It's not easy to find someone for a while. I don't know what ken planned and what to do."
I looked up to find Tan Jie's voice, and he came over with a glass of wine.