Chapter 168

Eli asked cautiously, "why don't you understand her hurt expression? What's wrong with your face? "

There was a complex emotion in Eli's eyes, shock and deep pity.

Eli shook his head. He didn't know what it was that made his favorite girl look like she is now. She was just a little girl who needed to be loved. Now she has become so mature and strong. It must be very hard for her to change baby's diaper for such a long time.

What makes this girl grow up so much? A young girl like her should be favored by boys.

Many girls of her age are the eldest girls in the family. They are spoiled by their parents and husbands. They don't touch Yang Chunshui, let alone change diapers. It's estimated that few of them have seen diapers.

And she, a girl, in a foreign country, with a child, to maintain life, but also take care of the baby, but also efforts to forget the pain in the heart, put the past down, she should not be easy.

Lu chennian really didn't know how to cherish. He missed a woman who was so beautiful and loved him so much.

Looking at her now living so hard, he suddenly wanted to hold her in his arms and comfort her well. If she stayed with him, he would not let her work so hard. It's not easy for a woman to take her children. What's more, she is still a single mother.

Inexplicably, Eli's heart was slightly sad. Looking at her face now with maturity and vicissitudes that she shouldn't have at her age, he felt a little uncomfortable and distressed.

Looking at Eli's complicated expression, Chu Jinran didn't understand. However, he seemed to be unhappy. She gently comforted him: "Eli, if you have something unhappy, do something happy. Nothing can't pass."

Eli looked at her, feeling a little uncomfortable, "these days, you are very hard, right?" Eli asked softly.

Chu Jinran smiles and says with some relief: "maybe it's a little bit, but as long as I think of the baby around me, I won't be tired. When I get home and see his smile, I feel that everything I do has motivation."

Chu Jinran's face is a soft smile, shining, like a maternal light shining on her face. Now Chu Jinran is not the same as she used to be. She seems to be a little softer. After becoming a mother, she seems to be more gentle.

She looked down at the baby in the cradle with a happy smile on her face.

She stretched out her hand and put it next to the child's little hand. The baby seemed to understand the love in his mother's eyes. He gently laughed, a pair of big, black eyes dribbled around, and his little mouth had no teeth. He stretched out his hand and grasped Chu Jinran's finger, laughing happily.

His hand is really small, holding Chu Jinran's hand looks like some lovely, Chu Jinran happy smile, her face can't see a trace of sadness and fatigue.

Eli's heart was infected by her strong happiness. He thought that after seeing her, he would see a busy, smiling woman.

But unexpectedly, she seems to be very happy now. She is not unhappy because of any frustration. Instead, in order to accompany her baby, she is simply happy. She is always so optimistic. There is always huge energy in her thin little body.

When I first fell in love with her, it was because she was always so optimistic and always smiling positively. By her side, he would never feel sad. Any unhappiness in her world could become a kind of relief in a second.

This girl is so special that she always attracts him deeply.

Yi Lai sees to be stupefied, Chu Jinran on the face full of happiness looks so lovely, let him reluctant to move an eye.

Chu Jinran turns his head and sees Eli looking at himself behind him. There is a complex emotion in his eyes. The atmosphere suddenly becomes delicate. He looks at her stupidly and says after a long time: "however, if you don't live well or have any difficulties, you must tell me that no matter where I am, I will always protect you."

Chu Jinran looked at Eli, with a warm smile on her face. She nodded and said with a smile, "OK, if you are unhappy, please tell me."

Eli gently smile, he loves the girl, always so warm, like a small sun general, bright shining around everyone, her world, it seems that there is no darkness, only sunshine.

Yi Lai sits on one side and quietly looks at Chu Jinran. She holds her baby and gently coaxes her baby to sleep. Her eyebrows are gentle and her eyelashes are gently hanging down. Like a small fan, she gently covers her eyes. She is lowering her head and looking at the baby in her arms. Her body seems to be shining with motherhood.

The baby's eyes in her arms blinked very slowly. It seemed that she was already sleepy. The room was very quiet, so Eli sat quietly, even afraid of the atmosphere, for fear of destroying such a beautiful atmosphere.

A big and a small, two people constitute a particularly beautiful picture, quiet, the baby lying in Chu Jinran's arms, very quiet, very safe appearance.Eli's heart gradually softens down, looking at Chu Jinran, his heart is warm, this girl, always can give him a very down-to-earth feeling.

After a while, the baby falls asleep. Chu Jinran gently puts the baby back into the cradle and turns her head to look at Eli sitting beside her. She gently smiles and makes a Shh gesture. Eli gently smiles and nods. Chu Jinran points to the door and signals Eli to go out to talk. Eli stands up for fear of waking the sleeping baby.

Two people out of the room, Chu Jinran gently with the door.

She turned her head and looked at Eli with a soft face. "Let's go to the sofa in the living room."

Eli nodded, and they sat down face to face. He looked at Chu Jinran. She seemed to have a good life. Although she was a little hard and lost a lot of weight, her face was full of gentle light. It seemed that with the company of her baby, her life was very happy.

But, she is a girl, alone in a foreign country, with a child, he is always not at ease.

"What are you going to do in the future?" Eli asked.

Chu Jinran shook her head helplessly. Her eyes were dull, and she didn't have focal length. She seemed to be hair: "to be honest, I didn't think about it well. Now the child is still young, I just want to raise him quickly, but I can't do it all the time. Now I'm very confused about the future. When the baby is a little older, I can't live here forever."

Eli asked tentatively, "have you ever thought about going back to China?"

Chu Jinran raised his head, some confused asked: "return home? What can I do when I return home? "

"Have you ever thought about going back to Lu chennian?" Eli asked. He was actually testing. After all, Chu Jinran has feelings for Lu chennian. Up to now, her favorite person is Lu chennian. Although she is still trying to forget him, the expression on her face betrays her heart when he mentions his name.

Chu Jin ran some self mockery of smile, "I return to his side why?"? Watching him and Nian Shiya live happily together every day? Do you want other women to look at his father and love me? "

Chu Jinran's face is helpless, in fact, up to now, the mention of Lu chennian's name, her heart will still be dull pain, like being stung by a bee, stinging pain.

He is like a scar growing in her heart, once stabbed in her heart by a knife, stabbed in the flesh and blood, stabbed one by one, let her forget the kind of pain all her life, with the passage of time, slowly become a deep scar, even if the blood does not flow, the wound healed, but the scar is still, he once left her pain is still.

That kind of pain is that she can't forget all her life. Sometimes she hates her disheartened appearance very much. He hurt her so much, but she still can't forget him.

At the beginning, his attitude and misunderstanding to her, and his ambiguity to Nian Shiya made her feel uncomfortable. Now, even if she was in pain again, she would make up her mind to leave him.

Even for the sake of the baby, she doesn't want to come back to him. She doesn't want her son to watch his father and other women like glue.

Yi Lai looks at Chu Jinran's face with pain and loneliness. She feels a pang in her heart. Up to now, she still can't forget Lu chennian. After all, they have been together for so many years, and she has given birth to a child for him. He should have left a deep position in her heart.

Just look at her to Lu chennian pain, he is really very distressed, this thin girl in the end still have to bear how much heavy?

"What are you going to do? Forget him? " Eli asked.

Chu Jinran nodded, this is the decision that she has already made, although other things she has not planned well, but this matter she has already thought well, and has been very firm.

"Of course, I will forget him." Chu Jinran said.

"Will it be difficult?" After all, it's very difficult to forget someone, Eli asked.

"Of course, it will be very difficult, but no matter how difficult it is, I will not look back. Without him, I can also live well. Now I have a baby and many friends who help me. In France, I also know many good friends and good people. Even without him, I can live happily." Chu Jinran said.

Eli nodded, she can have such optimism, he is very pleased that she will always be like this, setbacks will never be able to beat her optimism.

"Anyway, if you feel tired and want to find someone to talk to, I've always been there." Said Eli.

Chu Jinran nodded. She was very grateful for so many friends who could help her, including Eli. He was always so gentle and always helped her when she was in trouble.

Lu chennian, I must forget you, I will be happy.