Chapter 318

He now knows that love is not as simple as he imagined. In fact, it is very complicated to love someone. Even if two people have each other in their hearts, they may not be able to be together.

He understood that they must have loved each other at first, at least before she left the country.

But even two people who love each other so much will be separated because of misunderstanding.

This may be fate. Their love is destined to experience a lot of hardships.

But Lu chennian knew that he would not give up easily. He had summoned up so much courage to pursue France from home. He could even accept that she had given birth to other men's children. He had abandoned so many principles just because he loved him. Therefore, he decided that he must strive for his own happiness.

Even the hard work of love will make him black and blue.

Because he didn't want to miss her any more. He couldn't live without her.

Lu chennian looks at Chu Jinran, and the cold expression on her face makes his heart ache.

Why is she so resistant to him? Why not believe that this is a misunderstanding?

"What are you still doing here? Go away!" Chu Jinran doesn't even want to see him now.

Just after the topic was mentioned, her heart was very sad and uncomfortable. She always thought of those sad things, and the feeling of sadness and despair when she knew that he fell in love with Nian Shiya and came to France with a big stomach.

She couldn't breathe at the thought.

Lu chennian will not understand her pain. She is a weak woman with a baby in her stomach and only one friend. She doesn't know how she perseveres in a foreign country without relatives.

That feeling of despair she no longer want to experience, she is really tired, in this relationship, she has been the injured person, she has been black and blue, like a hedgehog stripped of thorns, lying weakly on the ground, panting, covered with blood, full of scars, but still holding those painful memories dejected.

Sure enough, the person who gives the most in his feelings is the most vulnerable.

It is true that whoever is serious first loses.

In the past, Chu Jinran didn't believe these poisonous chicken soup words, but after so many injuries, she realized that everything was not as beautiful as she imagined.

Maybe he really doesn't know who is right and who is wrong. He fell in love with Nian Shiya at that time. He is not wrong, but he doesn't love her any more.

But Chu Jinran knows that if you want to ensure that you will not be hurt any more, then you should never make heart to heart.

She can't be stupid enough to fall twice in one place.

Lu chennian was the biggest doom in her life. Every time she met him, she just wanted to run away. However, she found that fate was a joke. No matter what, she couldn't escape.

Just as she fled to France alone, so far away from him, she thought she could live a carefree life. She had adapted to the life of a foreign country, and even began to feel that this ordinary and peaceful life was what she wanted. However, Lu chennian appeared again and broke her peaceful life.

She thought that she would never have to face him again in her life. She thought that she was free at last. She thought that she could face herself freely and say to herself that she really forgot him.

She thought she would never be sad for him or cry for this relationship.

But she is still too naive, she thought that they can give up, in fact, all are false.

In fact, she did not forget him at all, because after seeing him this time, she found that her heart could still beat wildly for him.

What she thinks is strong is just what she thinks.

In the face of him, she will still be just like when we were together, with the feeling of bumping, when talking, she will unconsciously peek at his eyes.

She will unconsciously want to see his deep and good-looking eyes, smile, the corner of the mouth raised radian.

When she teased him, she had a little sense of happiness.

Chu Jinran knows that this kind of feeling is really terrible. This man is like a poison she can't get rid of. No matter how she warns herself not to fall in love with him, she is still trapped in it.

Now, she could only push him away with a little bit of her remaining reason.

Because she was afraid that if she didn't push him away in one second, her reason would disappear in the next second, and she would want to embrace him like crazy. When emotion conquers reason, she would have no way. Push him away.

Chu Jinran doesn't want to turn herself into a weak person. She knows herself very well. In terms of her feelings, she is a very weak person. Once she loves, she will fly a moth to the fire. She knows clearly that the abyss is ahead, but she still jumps down regardless of everything.

She was really afraid that she would smash all her pride and lose all her reason and self-confidence.Maybe this is her weakness. In love, she has been hurt and will not dare to love again.

Lu chennian had some heartache, "do you really want me to leave?"

Chu Jinran felt a little uncomfortable. She didn't want him to leave, but if he didn't leave, she was really afraid that she would fall.

Chu Jinran can only be cruel, "yes, I just want you to leave, why are you still here? Why don't you go yet? "

Lu chennian is a little uncomfortable. Why can this woman be so heartless? Didn't she remember their love at all? After all, they both loved each other.

"Well, since you let me go, I won't disturb you." Lu chennian, with a cold face, turned around and left without looking back.

The door closed heavily, the whole house left Chu Jinran alone, inexplicable, she some want to cry.

I feel that the acid in my eyes is rising, like a hot liquid is about to flow out, and my heart is never lonely when I spin around my eyes.

Why did she feel so empty in her heart after he came out of the door?

It was as if the whole house was empty and her heart was empty after he left.

It turns out that she still loves him so much, even if he has hurt her, even if he has hurt her, but she still loves him so much.

He just left, and she would feel so lost.

"Chu Jinran, are you a fool? Have you forgotten all the injuries you've ever suffered? Why do you want to get back together with him so shamelessly? Why are you so forgetful? Don't you remember who was crying in the room alone before? " Chu Jinran squatted on the ground in pain and said to himself.

She didn't want to repeat the injury she had suffered. She was really tired. She really wanted to live an ordinary life, because she couldn't afford to gamble and lose now. She already had the only one. She only wanted to live the rest of her life peacefully, and let the only one live a happy and healthy life. As long as he grew up peacefully, she would be satisfied.

As a mother, she just wants to raise the only child.

She did not want to toss, she has no strength to talk about those love without results, and no strength to love a person and bruised.

Maybe she's really tired. She just wants to live her life smoothly.

However, Lu chennian's sudden appearance finally disturbed her heart.

She really has no backbone, as long as he appears, her attention will immediately turn to him.

Chu Jinran squatted on the ground alone, and the only one sitting on the carpet gently crawled over, stretched out his fleshy, two small arms, and gently hugged Chu Jinran's calf.

Chu Jin Ran is stunned, lowers the head to see only is to raise small face, naively looking at her.

Big eyes full of pure and beautiful clear, as if one can see the edge.

Chu Jin ran looks at him, suddenly seem to become very at ease appearance.

The only gently holding Chu Jinran's calf, his two small arms, soft, strength is very light embrace her, let her heart inexplicably soft down.

Looking at the only one sitting on the ground holding her leg, Chu Jinran felt better in his heart.

When she is in a bad mood, the only thing she can rely on most is her.

Now all she can rely on in her life is him.

Chu Jinran nose acid, she bent down, stretched out her hand, will only hold up, she tightly hugged him.

He is the only thing she really has in the world. No matter what, she must not lose the only thing.

In this distant foreign land, it seems that only the only way to give her a sense of home, only the only way to make her wandering heart settle down, only the only way to make her feel alive, and only the only way to make her full of strength in despair.

"Only..." Chu Jinran holds the only one, tears suddenly flow down.

The only one stretched out a little fat hand and gently touched Chu Jinran's clothes, "Mom Mom... "

He is still too young, do not understand Chu Jinran now sad, he does not even understand now Chu Jinran's mood is not good.

But facing the only one, Chu Jinran's heart calmed down in an instant.

The only one always has this kind of magic. Every time when she is about to collapse and can't hold on, as long as she holds him in her arms, she will have enough confidence to overcome difficulties, and she will feel full of strength.

Because she is a mother, no matter what, she must let her son grow up healthy and happy.

Today is really her mood is too out of control, is she is too unpromising, in the face of a once abandoned his man, how can she so no self-control?

Say good protect yourself, she must not be like before, for love to abandon armor.

After Lu chennian left, he walked alone on the busy streets of Paris.

This street is the most prosperous one in Paris, surrounded by a lot of people.Paris is a city full of artistic atmosphere. He once dreamed that when he was old, he would let his children take over his company, and then he would bring Chu Jinran to settle in Paris.