189 Chapter 189: I Love You So Much

Kylie looked Ethan in the eye and said, "Whatever gave you the idea that I actually cared about you? I don't, and I never did. I was inexperienced in bed, and I used you as a teacher, but I no longer need you." She wanted to hurt him, but deep inside, she's also troubling.

Ethan met Kylie's eyes and said, "That isn't true, and you know it. You think that I wasn't loyal to you, and so you are attempting to build a wall between the two of us, but it won't hold up – and you know it. I know that you love me too. I know that I own your body and soul, honey!"

Ethan stepped forward and, as he approached her, she melted in his arms and began to cry. She realizes that all of Ethan's words were right. She misses him so much. A few days that they've parted from each other seems like a few years were gone. Ethan picks her up and walks towards his bedroom.

The last room was Ethan's bedroom, and the door was open. They went into the room together and sat, side by side, on the edge of his bed.

The bedroom was decorated based on a Hello Kitty theme. It had pink curtains inlaid with golden bows, light pink wallpaper, white furniture, white carpets, and a mattress. The chairs were adorned with the Hello Kitty logo. Ethan looked around the room and asked Kylie if she liked the room.

Kylie frowned and said, "I'm sorry, but I don't like it. It looks like a teenage girl designed it. It is ridiculous. That is not why I am here, though. I am still waiting for you to explain what you were doing with another woman in Hamorna! Ethan, don't try to persuade me because it won't work. I have already given you a warning, dare to go against me, and you'll be sorry,"

"I told you that I would tell you everything," Ethan replied, "and I will!"

"No more stalling then," Kylie snapped with tears in her eyes. "I want to hear your explanation right now! Say it! You bring me here because you want me to hear your side yet you prolong this fucking agony between us,"

Ethan took her hand, smiled meekly, and said, "The woman you saw, she is the boss of Peak Pictures. Her name is Dora Hilton. I told you about her once, in an offhand way, the first time I told you a little bit about what happened to me in Thailand. Before I tell you about Dora, I need to tell you the rest of what happened in Thailand, before I was rescued…"

"When I was younger," Ethan continued, "I thought that there was nothing in this world that could scare me. I was wrong. When they had us boys line up for castration, I was weeping openly and sweating bullets. My legs were shaking and, when it was just about my turn, I begged to be allowed to use the washroom. Because of me, the boy behind me was led to the operating table while I was allowed to use the washroom."

As Ethan told his tale, he began to weep openly, and Kylie held him. She doesn't expect that it will be this hard for him to share what he had been through, "It is okay," she comforted him. "What else could you have been expected to do. I still don't see what this has to do with Dora Hilton, but carry on. It is not good that you've been quietly carrying this weight for so long. Tell me what happened next… I am willing to hear all of that past you have hidden,"

"While I was urinating," Ethan explained, "I heard what sounded to me like a thousand sirens. It was the police, and I knew that we'd been saved. I looked out of the window while I was washing my hands, and I was so happy to know that my suffering had come to an end. When the doctors heard the sirens, though, they were able to escape through a secret passage…" Ethan continues weeping. Kylie doesn't know how to comfort him this time.

"What happened to the boy on the operating table," Kylie wondered.

Ethan shook his head, but he found that he was unable to speak. It was like all of the years between then and now had slipped away. Lost in his memories, he could hear the boy's screams, and he mourned for him. By telling his past, it seemed like he returned back to that painful experience of his life. No one helped him, and his own family abandoned him. He felt the wound in his heart had opened again as he began to tell his tragic past. He had no choice but to tell her his past just to prove this woman how loyal he was to her. He can't let go of her because he only has Kylie. Seeing Ethan in distress, Kylie held him in her arms and rubbed his back. She had never realized how much weight he carried on his back.

Kylie pulled away slightly so that she could kiss his forehead, eyelashes, and nose while lightly brushing her face with his slender fingers.

"I love you so much. I love you so much....I only have you...You know that. Honey, my life would be no meaning without you," he cried while saying his love confession.

Kylie began to cry also. She feels his burden, "I know that you love me," she replied.

Ethan looked Kylie in the eyes and said, "The boy didn't make it. He bled out there, alone, in agony, on the operating table. Ever since that day, I have been riddled with guilt. I have tried to watch out for his family, but it's never seemed like enough. I could give them the world, but they would never bring that boy back… I can't remove the guilt in my heart, knowing the fact that he was left alone,"