Chapter 128 - My First Of Everything

Madeline's POV

"I will ask you one more time, Madeline. Are you sure you are going to do this?" Gina asked me more than five times. We are already in the parking lot, and I am putting my suitcase on her car trunk, and I closed it harder than necessary, and I felt sorry for my best friend that I turn my anger to her car, but when I looked at her, it seems she doesn't care at all because she knew I was hurting too much.

"Gina, I have never been so sure my entire life, and I know when to fight when to hold on and when to accept defeat. I don't need an explanation because everything I have seen in the pictures tells me enough of what I should know. I don't want my husband to have a hard time with what to do about me. I have seen it with my two eyes how happy he is with her, and they are going to have a child, Gina. And why should I stay in this house?" I asked my best friend, and I can see the sadness on her face. And I understand Gina is also hurting me, and even Cerila felt the same way too.

"He told me once that we were only married on paper since he doesn't have time for love, business success is the only thing that makes him happy, and he can't love someone like me. I should not expect if something happens to us in bed; he will love me because he only needed an heir of his empire. He told me that with a cold voice that made my entire body shivered, and I hated myself for falling in love with my husband every day until yesterday I realized I couldn't take it anymore." I declared, and the three of us are now crying.

"But he fell in love with you, Madeline." Gina said as she wiped her tears away, and I laughed like a lunatic because I was laughing while my tears dripped down on my face.

"Yes, but he made Rebecca pregnant; how can you tell me now that he loved me, Gina? She was his first loved, and he only married me to have an heir, and now that his first love is pregnant again, do you think he still needs me? Come on, Gina, you are more sensible than I am; besides, I am tired of being a martyr for how many years he stayed with her every Monday and Wednesday. I am sharing my husband with his first love. That is why it is better I should leave this house so they can live together throughout the entire week from Monday to Sunday." I said as I try to control my tears from falling because I felt too exhausted to cry. I turned around to face Cerila.

"Cerila, thank you so much for everything that you have done for me. From the first time I arrived at the Divenson mansion, all the years that we have been together, you showed me your kindness, and I hate to say goodbye to you, but it seems good things will always come to an end. But I will forever share your friendship inside my heart, and I will never forget you. I want you to go with me, but I understand that the Divenson family will be looking for you." I said, and Cerila moves closer to me, and she hugged me.

"I should be the one thanking you, Madeline. You were the one who showed me genuine kindness, and when I worked for you, you never treated me as your helper but as a friend. You insisted to Mr. Divenson to send me to school, and you encourage me to dream higher, and I couldn't believe that in two years, it would be my time to graduate." She said.

"You are smart, Cerila, and I know you can do better, and I want you to have a better future. I know Hunter compensated you well, but it is different that you will be working in a company and you will be having your own home, and you can enjoy your life having a nightlife, and some vacation perhaps after you have a job." I said, and she smiled at me while she was still holding my hands.

"I need to go now, but you have to promise me that we will see each other again. I am going to miss you, Cerila." I said, and I can see her tears that fell on her cheeks, and I can no longer stop my tears from falling again as I stared at her and then I looked at the house, the place where I shared beautiful moments with my husband where I dreamt of having children with him.

"Of course, you have my number, and you can call me anytime, Madeline." She said, and I nodded my head, and I quickly run to the passenger's seat, and I waved my hands at Cerila as Gina drove the car far away from Hunter's enormous house. I can't stop my tears from falling as we move along the driveway. I can tell I am in too much pain as I watch the beautiful landscape fading away, and I am saying goodbye to the house and all the memories that I have in that gigantic house, both the good and the bad.

"Can you tell me where you want to go?" Gina asked me after we passed the house's main gate, and I turn my head to look at the mansion for the last time before I looked at my friend sideways.

"I want you to take me to any hotel you can find at the outskirts of the city of Archois. I want to stay away as possible from Hunter. I know he can see me anytime if he wants to. But I understand that it would be impossible for him because he didn't even attend my graduation. And it hurts me so much that he didn't even call me, Gina." I said as I watched the road ahead.

"And I know I have all the right to fight for my love for him. Still, I love him so much that I don't want him to suffer knowing it would be hard on his part to say goodbye to me because I know my husband is kindhearted, Gina, that is the reason why he didn't inform me about Rebecca's pregnancy, he was afraid to hurt my feelings, and for that, I am still grateful. Still, he didn't realize it hurts me more." I added.

"Are you planning to stay in a hotel for how many days?" My best friend asked me.

"Maybe three days until I can find a rental house or a condo unit. And I am just glad that I am now a graduate student, and I need to find a job now. I am hurting so much, and I don't know what to do, and I don't even know how I will survive without Hunter in my life, but I know I need to be strong. I have to do this, and I hope you will never leave me, Gina, because I don't know if I can take it if something happens with our friendship." I said.

"Hey, Madeline, you may lose your husband, but you are not going to lose me because I will always be here for you; I am always willing to listen and give you advice, and I don't care if you are going to listen to any of my advice as long as I give you my points of view. After all, you have to decide what do you think is good for you. I care about you, Madeline, and I can promise you that I will never leave you, and I will always be your best friend, whatever happens." She said, and I cried harder, and I close my eyes as I tried to stop myself from crying.

I couldn't believe that there is this kind of pain. I know that I have been through a lot, and I used to be so brave, but I think Hunter took away my ability to be strong in times like this. I used to believe that I am strong and can fight whatever hardship I need to face, but I couldn't erase the image of my husband in my head. I couldn't believe we shared hot sex, and our lovemaking is getting intense every time we are together, and I can tell he was in love with me, and how could he lie to me like that? 

I realized my best friend fell silent, and I felt glad that she chose to give me some space, and I felt so grateful that she is here with me. I know it would be so hard on my part to get over this pace of my life. Still, I don't have a choice but to accept the fact that Hunter Divenson could never be mine, and I think the best thing to do is to stay away from him, to completely gone from his life, and in doing that, I need to find a place where he can't see me. And to do that, I need some help. And I don't know if Gina will allow me to cross country, but I don't have a choice. I need to leave Archois, and Magnolia village is not a good place for me either.

"Get out now, Maddie." I am startled why Gina asked me to get out, and when I opened my eyes, I realized she brought me to the Archois top hills, the place where I can shout all the pain that I felt inside, and even though I was hurting, I couldn't stop myself from smiling at my best friend. And I hope the pain that I am feeling right now will go away overnight, but I know it will never be that easy because I am hurting deep inside my heart, knowing I need to forget my first of everything in terms of love.. He was my first kiss, my first love, my only love, and my husband, Hunter Divenson.