239 Gigi’s choice

"Why is everything so hard? I don't understand why Things are so hard. " 

Morrigan comforts her and lets her cry till she has fallen back to sleep. Gigi watches as Uktena carries Crystal to her room. She turns to Morrigan and asks her. 

"Why has the father allowed you to be so close to them? I always felt we were to stay apart from the mortals and not get involved." 

Morrigan sighs and explains. 

"Hey , I heard the father has the horn now and that Macha is forever gone. So do you know what you will do?" Xiangin asks her elder. 

" that is what I am sitting here asking myself. What do I want to do? I don't think I will be happy as a mortal, I don't have the emotions needed to be one. I also do not want to lose the connection I have with these children either. So what will my path be?" Gigi looks at Xiangin hoping she will be able to help her. 

" well you could ask if you can be like Morrigan and Uktena. They are the celestial family, they come to help with the children's training and tell us when we are needed. That way you can do both, your bond with my children and I can continue to grow but you will still be in direct service of the father. You know I never thought I could be so happy as I am right now. I have my husband and children as well as I get to have you. It's the best of both worlds to me. I need help Gigi without my ring I do not know how to control my powers, it is not something mother taught. I'm not sure about other sirens but mother was cold and not in control. I want to be free to embrace my gifts without fear of hurting someone. Would you consider being like Morrigan and Uktena? Stay close by to teach my children and myself how to properly use our gifts. To grow the bond we have started." Xiangin pleads with Gigi to stay in their lives , that she is not ready to see her go forever yet. 

Gigi hugs Xiangin feeling her warmth makes her cold heart grow. Gigi knows now what she will ask the father. Gigi tells Xiangin 

" I will ask the father if I can be your family Guardian along with the others. I do not want to be mortal , I have never had the desire to be one. I do want to explore the feeling that I am experiencing with you and your children. I find that the intricate nature of these mortals needs to be understood. I also want to find the other siren clans and investigate what they have been doing. I do not want my kind to go the way of Macha and your mother. So I will say goodbye for a short time to ask the father what steps I need to take to repent for my kind. The final choice is always the will of the father. " Gigi nods to Xiangin and waves bye to her as she goes to see the father. 

Xiangin has tears in her eyes as she watches her grandmother disappear into the night. Kneeling at the side of Opal's bed Xiangin begins to pray. 

"Heavenly Father , I ask that you grant Gigi's wish. My children have longed for a grandmother and for someone to help me. I am grateful to you for my ring but I would like to have the control like the others have without it. I want my children to embrace their gifts not be afraid of them like I am. Father ask you to allow Gigi to be able to stay close like Morrigan and Uktena does. Let her be our Guardian. Amen" Xiangin feels her husband wrapping his arms around her. 

" I know things are not easy for you, but I am proud of you. Not many women would be able to deal with my family and how things work. I know I dint say it enough for thank you for choosing to stay with me. For loving me and giving me the most amazing children. I love you Xiangin, I cannot imagine a moment without you. Whatever Gigi decides I know she loves our children and you. I could tell the moment she saw Opal and Noah. When she thought no one was watching her face softened and she would smile at them. When I saw that I knew that her heart was warming up to us. That she no longer has s cold heart. " kissing his wife's forehead Dude walks with her back to their room. He knows that his children are pretending to sleep at this point. Letting them say their own goodbyes to Gigi he takes Xiangin to bed. 

Noah and Opal sit up in their beds, they heard what the grownups had said. So they know that Gigi is leaving . Calling out her her Opal takes her brothers hand so they can call her together. 

"Gigi we know you have to go away for awhile, just know we love you and will be waiting for you to comeback. We know that some times you may need to go do what the father needs you to. We will be here waiting always." A silver light fills the room and in front of them appears a pair of necklaces each one has a white and black pearl. Smiling they help each other put them on and go back to bed. They know their Gigi will be back.