Chapter 255 - Kevin (4)

Rachel looked at his eyes and she felt how much he loved her, she had been always pushing him away because she was scared of getting hurt again but she realised how the 2 men were totally different. She wrapped her arms around his neck and bent down to kiss his lips without saying anything or responding to anything he said. 

He pulled her back trying hard to resist but before he could say anything she placed her hands on his cheeks and spoke first "I want to go because I want to remain by your side."

She hesitated before speaking again "I have never said this to anyone but I have always felt self sufficient, I could fight for myself and do everything but now I have become depressed on you. You are not someone I want in my life but in this short while you have become that mandatory part of my life that I can't live without."

She looked into his eyes and with a painful expression she spoke "I now feel scared when you are not by my side and I have to admit he is way too strong that I feel scared and when I am by your side I feel safe. Remember when we were in that house and he took me in his arms but you were there, I didn't feel scared at all because I knew you won't let anything happen to me. This being said it does not mean I can't fight, I will whenever required but it feels safe by your side."

As she spoke tears rolled down her eyes and she bumped her head to his "I have fallen in love with you so badly seeing the love in your eyes I want to give myself to you completely because... "

His lips landed on hers kissing her with full intensity because her words broke the last string of his resistance, he could not control himself now. She had already taken him by her words. 

His kissed her with his tongue inside her mouth and her tongue entwined with his, they had never shared this passionate kiss before, it built fire inside them. He pushed her down on the bed while lying on top of her, his lips never leaving hers, he kissed her until she was completely breathless and when he finally let go he gave her some time to even her breath but instead of doing anything else, he got off the bed and moved out the farthest corner of the room. 

Rachel looked at him as he left her hanging in the middle of the bubbling feeling that was rising inside her. He knew what he did was wrong so he spoke with pain in his voice "I want to do this more than you do but if I do this I might harm you."

She got off the bed and moved towards him when he spoke in pain again "Don't"

She didn't stop and moved to stand in front of him closing all the distance he had created, he spoke again "You are so intoxicating."

She placed her arms around his neck and said "Then have me, you know you won't harm me."

He shook his head "It's not true, you are way too intoxicating that if I start I won't be able to stop and I know how I badly I want to have you, I might end up hurting you."

She said soothing him "You won't."

He took in a deep breath taking in that intoxicating fragrance of her in once more "I will loose myself"

Rachel then thought of something "Let's make a deal, if you start hurting me, I will tell you and you can stop."

He closed his eyes and then opened them again to say "Rach, you don't understand, polymorphs tend to use a lot of strength and a normal human can not take that intensity and imagine my strength when I am the strongest polymorph."

Rachel had a hurtful look in her eyes "You mean to say we can never do that but will have to spend torturous moments like these."

Robert dropped his head as he didn't know what to say when she put it like that but Rachel continued to speak "Let's give it a try, we won't know you will hurt me or not if we don't try."

He sucked in his breath "Rachel, please don't."

She didn't let go instead moved closer to stand in his breathing space, her body was completely pushed against his and there was no space between them. His breathing was now uneven, he clenched his fists, he didn't know for how long he could keep up with this torture but she didn't want to force him anymore so she let go and got in the bed. She looked at him one last time saying "So that you know I am ready but you can take your time." and then she turned around to close her eyes. 

Robert stood there for a long while pondering at her words but it he had trouble deciding if she was trying to make his sway his decision or were these her genuine feelings. He didn't know what to do as he say the look in Rachel's eyes when she turned her back to him, his heart broke but then again, his heart feared that he might hurt her. 

He knew the way he loved her and craved for her, he was eventually going to loose himself in the pleasure and hurt her so it was only right to wait until she was strong enough to take that. His hand went into his hair as he started at her back for a long while, his head in a total mess.

Rachel felt him stare at her but she didn't move, she felt like crying seeing him in pain but she closed her eyes to go to sleep pushing him out of her head which seemed impossible. He stood up and went to the washroom to take a cold shower to clear his thoughts and calm himself down.