Chapter 83

Translator: HuaEditor: Bamboozled?

Chapter 83: Will Not Blacken

After chatting with Senior, Jing Xun went straight back to the office.

He still shared the same office with Shen Yijin, but after having a new laboratory, Jing Xun basically worked there. He would come back to the office only when Shen Yijin wanted to see him.

Or when he wanted to see Shen Yijin.

He pushed open the office door and saw Shen Yijin sitting behind his desk making a call. Jing Xun didn’t want to disturb the other party, so he walked in quietly.

He sat down at his desk and turned on the computer provided by the company.

Jing Xun looked at the monitor while occasionally peeking in Shen Yijin’s direction.

Finally, Shen Yijin put down the phone.

Before Jing Xun could retrieve his line of sight, he saw that the other party stood up and was walking towards him.

“What is it?” The distance between the two desks was not too far, and Shen Yijin’s long legs could easily reach him by just two steps.

Jing Xun, who was being looked at from a close distance, slightly bowed his head and moved his eyes a little awkwardly. His ears suddenly flushed again, because Shen Yijin’s breath was right next to his ear.

“What were you looking at?”

Jing Xun: “…Looking at…Sir is so handsome!”

Shen Yijin: “?”

Jing Xun raised his neck, his round almond-shaped eyes glowed with bright light, he pulled up the corners of his lips to show him a brilliant smile: “It’s because you’re too handsome. I can’t help peeking a few more times.”

Shen Yijin: “…..”

He raised his hand to caress the young man’s slender neck, and finally went around the back of it. He bent his body a little more and looked down at the young man more closely, staring into his eyes.

“Then keep looking a little longer.”

“Ha, okay.” Jing Xun nodded obediently, indicating that he would be honored.

Although in the end he still failed to do so.

——Shen Yijin directly “lifted” him from his seat, reversed his position, and finally “placed” him on the clean and tidy tabletop.

Then the two suddenly embraced and kissed affectionately.

…If it weren’t during work hours, those kind of passionate and exciting office kissing scenes that Jing Xun imagined would have unfold before his eyes…

During the process, Jing Xun took the rare initiative to hug Shen Yijin tightly, looking a bit clingy.

And this seemed to make Shen Yijin even more uncontrollable. In the end, if not for the office door being knocked on from the outside, he wouldn’t have stopped…

Amidst the sound of a polite knock on the door, Jing Xun rolled down from the desk back to his chair, and finally covered his abnormally red face with the huge monitor.

Outside, Jin Zheheng knocked on the door and came in. He professionally looked straight ahead without glancing left or right, and walked to Shen Yijin’s desk: “President Shen, this is the financial situation of Hanchao Technology in the past two years and other reports.”

“Yes, put it down.” Shen Yijin said.

Jing Xun, hiding behind the monitor, immediately pricked his ears.

…… Hanchao? !

Wasn’t that the technology company jointly opened by Mrs. Yang and scum gong in order to fight against Shen Yijin? ?

This kind of small company that was used for malicious competition, Sir wouldn’t spare it a glance in the past.

How come he suddenly asked someone to investigate…?

Jing Xun’s heart immediately sank.

He deliberately ran back to the office to accompany Shen Yijin after hearing about Mr. Villain in the original book from Senior just now.

Jing Xun’s previous perception was not wrong, Shen Yijin, the person who merrily shared the pillow and got along with him, was indeed the image of ‘Shen Yijin’ that hadn’t yet blackened in the book.

……Even though there was not much focus on the villain at the early stage, the readers could see the depth, forbearance and strength of the villain just by a few things.

It was really this exact Shen Yijin.

As for why he turned black, according to Senior Pei’s plot spoiler, it was Shen Yijin’s mother.

…His mother’s death wasn’t a suicide, but a homicide.

The murderer was the scum gong’s biological mother, and later Shen Yijin’s stepmother Yang Nianjiao.

What’s even worse, Yang Nianjiao couldn’t do things like sneaking into Shen’s house and killing people by herself. She had another helper.

And that helper was… Shen Yijin’s father.

It turned out that the two of them didn’t fall in love after Shen Yijin’s mother passed away, but they had been having a secret affair for a long time.

They concealed it closely so no one knew it before.

They were very smart.

In those years, the incident where Shen Yijin’s mother jumped off the building was classified as a suicide. Later, Yang Nianjiao entered the door as a stepmother. There was a period of time in between these two events, therefore no one had ever doubted it after so many years.

……

Jing Xun’s mood after realizing the truth could no longer be simply described as complicated.

He felt as if he was falling into an ice cave.

Just yesterday, Jing Xun had learned about Shen Yijin’s mother.

For no reason, the little Shen Yijin lying in front of the window was reflected in his mind.

…Because his mother died in front of him, he had been suffering for so many years.

But who would have thought that the incident wasn’t the end, but everything behind □□.

In Senior’s words, Shen Yijin’s blackening didn’t surprise the readers.

It only made them feel deeply regretful.

The villain, who had been troubled by his mother’s death for many years, had been a good person for many years through extreme self-restraint.

He was ruthless, but he was not selfish.

He was strict and harsh, but he had also achieved absolute fairness.

He was indifferent, but he still picked up the heavy burden of the Shen family.

His heart was empty, unable to feel any emotion and happiness, all he could feel was the endless insomnia and irritability in the rainy night.

But just like this, his moral bottom line was very high, but he was also more reasonable than anyone else.

Everything in his eyes was obviously black, white and gray, but Shen Yijin forcibly gave the surrounding people a lot of color.

In order to maintain fairness and undertake important responsibilities, sometimes he had to experience and bear more than anyone else.

But even so.

Through extreme self-control, he led a life like a precision instrument, following the rules.

But all of these disappeared after learning the real cause of his mother’s death.

How restrained and sober he was before was how crazy he was in the later stage.

But again, this seemed to make sense.

——Because Shen Yijin, who stubbornly maintained fairness and brought colors to the people around him, had never received an ounce of good karma.

He was actually living under the same roof with someone who killed his mother.

The younger brother whom he tolerated repeatedly was the son of his mother’s murdurer.

The father, who preferred his normal little brother over him, was the real culprit who teamed up with the mistress to kill his mother.

He didn’t have to tolerate them.

Then why put up with them?

There had never been a trace of color in his world.

So he would just ruin it all.

This was the cause of “Shen Yijin’s blackening” that Jing Xun had been worried about.

In the original work, after knowing the truth by chance, the villain who was originally just completely indifferent and dedicated to his career suddenly turned black.

Because he wanted to avenge his biological mother.

The method of revenge he chose was very simple. It was to exhuast all means to retaliate and torture all the parties involved, including those who tried to stop him, including the scum gong who had been constantly harassing him with small schemes, along with all others, he didn’t let them off.

…..What made Jing Xun felt powerless was that Shen Yijin’s mother had passed away for many years, and it had long been a fact that she was killed.

This kind of thing could not be changed, nor could it be reversed.

Just hearing the description, Jing Xun’s tears overflowed and couldn’t stop falling.

He was half distressed and half anxious.

Even Pei Qingnian was scared by him. He hurriedly asked him what was wrong and wiped his tears, but Jing Xun could not control it at all.

The readers would feel a touch of regret and pity for the villain, not to mention him.

What Senior read was just a book.

But what he saw was the real Shen Yijin!

That book did not describe how Shen Yijin sat until dawn, nor did it describe Shen Yijin’s depression, his silent hysteria and struggle.

But Jing Xun knew all of it.

So he felt distressed.

What’s more terrible was that he originally thought that the past was already an established fact. He only hoped that the sir would live well in the future.

But it turned out that… the key that allowed Shen Yijin to be blackened had already been forged.

He couldn’t solve it.

He couldn’t solve this problem.

Jing Xun didn’t know how he regained his senses and ran back. He didn’t know what he should do.

Now he knew the truth about the death of Shen Yijin’s mother.

He should tell Shen Yijin.

But obviously he couldn’t just tell him.

He should also do everything possible to prevent sir from knowing this.

But would that be fair to him?

As the son, Shen Yijin had the right to know the truth about the death of his mother.

After telling the other to put it down, Shen Yijin automatically picked up the document and read it.

When he was looking at the information, Jing Xun was also looking at him.

After thinking about it, Jing Xun felt that the best way was to tell him, but before that, he had to make a lot of preparations.

The first thing was to properly enlighten him, and slowly moved to the next stage, at least to ensure that he wouldn’t turn black instantly after he learned the truth.

Secondly, he had to find a way to make Mrs. Yang pay the price through legitimate means. It’s best to make the crimes committed by her and Shen Yijin’s father public and make them pay for their sin. In this case, even if sir learned the truth, he shouldn’t have used extreme methods anymore…

But these obviously took time.

And if sir accidentally learnt the truth during this period, then everything is over! …

Just now, Senior Pei said that the original book did not explain how Shen Yijin found out about this, only that the timeline happened during the original owner’s internship at Yiwei.

……This was very difficult to control, because the original plot had long been rewritten.

According to the original book, there should be a lot of time before Shen Yijin learned the truth. After all, in the original work, before the original owner entered the post, there were many disputes and entanglements with the scum gong.

But Jing Xun felt that since the plot could be easily changed, this timeline could no longer be used as a basis.

Maybe Sir would learn the truth in a twinkling of an eye, or maybe it could really be dragged on for a long time…

“Xiao Xun?”

Assistant Jin had left at some point, and Shen Yijin, who sat back at his own office desk, called him.

Seeing Jing Xun blinking and suddenly gazing at him, it was obvious that he was in a daze just now. Shen Yijin smiled softly and stretched out his hand to him: “What are you thinking about?”

Jing Xun walked around the table and came in front of him.

Shen Yijin said: “You’re very strange today. Did something happen? Tell me if there’s anything, okay?”

“…No.” Jing Xun shook his head subconsciously: “It’s nothing.”

“En.” Shen Yijin didn’t question him, but passed the investigation data of Hanchao in his hand to Jing Xun: “Then look at this.”

Jing Xun naturally took it. The first page was the company’s financial statements for the previous year. He skimmed through it, and felt that nothing could be seen.

Sir’s sudden investigation into this company still made him feel extremely uneasy.

Jing Xun couldn’t be patient, he asked, “Sir, why did you… suddenly become interested in this company?”

“Remember when someone spread rumors that my father’s car accident was related to me?” Shen Yijin lifted his chin with an expressionless face: “It was Mrs. Yang who did it.”

……!

Jing Xun: “…ah.”

The hand that clenched the report subconsciously relaxed…It turned out to be because of this.

Although it was surprising that Mrs. Yang could even use her own husband to make an article, it wasn’t a day or two that she couldn’t get along with Shen Yijin…This little rumor shouldn’t be a big deal?

At least it was still far from making him blacken!

Jing Xun was relieved in an instant, and his mind turned. He began to smooth out his thoughts on this matter: “…But spreading such a rumor, isn’t it easy to investigate? Even if your reputation is damaged, and the company’s listing will slow down, but Mrs. Yang has also exposed herself right?… To Grandpa…”

“Well, of course their purpose is not just this.”

Shen Yijin lowered his eyes indifferently, and his long eyelashes instantly covered the emotions under his eyes. Suddenly, Jing Xun, who was standing beside him, couldn’t see his eyes.

At the same time, he heard Shen Yijin say: “Their purpose is to drive me crazy… Xiao Xun, do you know? They killed my mother.”

Jing Xun: “……???”

! ! !

“Sir, how…”

The thing he was extremely worried about a minute ago had happened! Jing Xun found that his throat was tightened and he couldn’t speak at all.

He choked for a moment before reluctantly opening his mouth again: “Sir, when did you…found out….”

“Not long ago.” Shen Yijin replied in a very calm tone, as he had always said very little.

But the more this happened, the more it seemed like the tranquility before the storm. Perhaps he had noticed this too, and his long drooping eyelashes were lifted again. He raised his eyes to look at the youth: “Did I scare you?”

“No, you didn’t scare me.” Unable to think of anything, Jing Xun threw himself directly at Shen Yijin.

He stretched out his arms and tried to hug him with all his strength.

Like last time, touch him as much as possible.

He rested his chin on the other party’s shoulder, their long necks touched, he felt the other person’s breathing, and let the other person feel his.

Jing Xun couldn’t understand how Shen Yijin felt no matter what.

But at a time like this, he could only use his own feelings to measure Shen Yijin’s. He thought, if it were him, he would need to be hugged…tightly.

He said haphazardly: “You’re upset. It is reasonable to be angry…. What happened back then, we will definitely make them pay the price. But sir, you must calm down, your mother wouldn’t want you to be impulsive…”

“Xiao Xun.” Shen Yijin’s magnetic voice sounded, with a trace of worry: “Are you shaking?”

Jing Xun who couldn’t help shivering: “…..”

He didn’t want to shake either.

To be honest…he had never been so scared in his life.

He was afraid that Shen Yijin would be sad, he was afraid that Shen Yijin would be trapped in a new vicious circle, unable to get out of it. He was afraid that he couldn’t stop Shen Yijin, and what the other party was going to do…

No matter how difficult it was to break the firewall on the Internet, Jing Xun was confident to overcome it, and nothing could stop him.

But the reality wasn’t the same as the network, and the human heart was not a firewall.

He wanted to break through the wall of Shen Yijin’s heart, but he didn’t know where to start.

Therefore, he was afraid.

Can’t he be afraid…

Jing Xun didn’t know what else to say.

But suddenly, while he was still trembling, he was embraced by Shen Yijin.

The other party said in his ear: “Don’t be afraid.”

The big hand stabilized his waist. Shen Yijin’s voice was low, but soft: “Don’t be afraid, Xiao Xun.”

“……”

This time, it was Jing Xun’s turn to become speechless because of astonishment.

… Sir’s hand was still patting him on the

back regularly.

Based on the other party’s reaction, it didn’t seem like he was blacken after hearing the news.

As he realized it, shock and surprise combined in a split second, Jing Xun seemed to lose strength, and his body went straight down.

But he quickly realized that it was not the time to be paralyzed, so he reluctantly propped up his arms and stood up to look at Shen Yijin’s eyes.

Grabbing the tie on Shen Yijin’s chest, Jing Xun looked at him carefully, and cautiously asked: “Sir, you… didn’t do anything, did you?”

Shen Yijin looked at him more suspiciously: “What are you referring to?”

“……”

Seeing the other party’s eyes, Jing Xun was completely relieved: “Phew.”

He exhaled heavily, and then said, “…I was worried that you might do something…… impulsive.”

Shen Yijin asked rhetorically: “Like something illegal and disorderly?”

Jing Xun suddenly jerked his eyes up to look at him.

Shen Yijin stretched out his hand and touched the scattered hair beside his cheek: “I promised you that I won’t do anything illegal.”

“……”

Jing Xun remembered that on the night of their engagement, that was the night when he explained his identity to Shen Yijin. Shen Yijin had indeed promised him that he would not be blackened and would not do anything wrong.

Their eyes met, Jing Xun was speechless.

…Yes, Sir had promised him.

It’s not that he forgot. It’s just that although Shen Yijin had made a solemn promise, there was no guarantee that he who knew the truth would remember or care about this seemingly random promise.

After all, it was said that the instantly blackened villain had disowned all his relatives and friends.

It’s not that he didn’t believe that perhaps Sir would …… keep his sanity for his sake.

But no one could say for sure.

Just in case, Jing Xun only thought about how to deal with the worst situation.

So from the very beginning, he didn’t take his role into consideration at all.

But now, it seemed that the worst hadn’t really happened yet? ?

“Then, how do you feel now, sir? Your mother, sir, don’t worry, they will pay the price… Don’t be angry, don’t feel sad, I promise…” Jing Xun, who was finally reassured, said whatever was on his mind.

For a while, he was very concerned about Shen Yijin’s feelings, fearing that he would be uncomfortable.

A moment later, he wanted to comfort Shen Yijin, telling him that wicked people would become the victim of their own evil deeds.

This caused what he said to jump repeatedly in two directions, until Shen Yijin stopped him and kissed him lightly.

“Xiao Xun.”

Shen Yijin said, “Thank you.”

Jing Xun’s clear eyes met the other party’s, and he heard Shen Yijin say: “When you went to the interview in the afternoon… It was difficult for me to accept the news. But as soon as I think of Xiao Xun, I can calm down.”

“……”

“I promised you.” Shen Yijin raised his hand and touched his heart, his voice was as soft as a feather, scratching people’s hearts, but also powerful and sonorous.

Shen Yijin said: “I promised you that I won’t do bad things.”

In fact, apart from falling into the horrified rainy night that he couldn’t get out no matter what, before completely losing his emotions, Shen Yijin’s heart ought to feel yearning, incomprehension, and resentment toward his mother.

His mother was also suffering from a serious mental illness.

Depression. It’s been there since he was very young.

But in spite of that, the precocious Shen Yijin’s memory was also full of his mother’s gentle voice and face as she lulled him to sleep.

So what was unacceptable to him was that his mother eventually chose to end her life, leaving him alone in this world.

He couldn’t help but wonder, does that kind of mother love him?

Then why not be stronger for him?

Does she really love him?

Later on, after learning more about the illness, and experiencing the pain, Shen Yijin slowly let go and forgot the hatred towards his mother.

But even if there was no resentment, there was really nothing left.

Until just now, he learned that in his memory he would gently comfort his mother who fell asleep, in fact, she didn’t want to leave him behind…

The idea of hate swept back in.

He wanted to avenge his mother, eradicate all those who deceived him with his own hands to make them pay for what they had done all these years, and to put his mother, who had been misunderstood by him, to rest in peace.

At that moment, he even suddenly found the meaning of his efforts to live for so many years——

He wanted to kill them all.

……

But at that same moment, along with the overwhelming hatred and luster of blood, there was also a…handsome and warm face.

The owner of that face gently pinched his buttons. His cheeks were stained red, and he said softly, “Sir, don’t get lost.”

…………

For many years, Shen Yijin could not feel the temperature of the sun.

He couldn’t see any color. As if trapped in that rainy night, his world was always pale and obscure.

But from a certain day, it was suddenly different.

He who had lived until now, his life might not be completely colorless.

He promised youth that he would not blacken.

“Sir, your mother has always loved you and hopes that you can be happy.” Jing Xun said seriously.

After more or less understanding the other party’s feelings, Jing Xun’s voice also became a little muffled.

He suddenly understood one point that was not mentioned in the original book. The reason why Shen Yijin in the book turned black was not only because he hated his father and stepmother, but also because he actually recognized the killer as his mother and lived with the murderer for twenty years. At the same time, he also deeply misunderstood his biological mother for twenty years.

For all those years, he thought it was his mother who abandoned him.

This misunderstanding of his birth mother became the reason why Shen Yijin also couldn’t forgive himself.

Although apart from the murderer, no one had noticed the slightest abnormality in the past twenty one years.

There was actually nothing wrong with Shen Yijin.

The paranoid and extreme Shen Yijin in the book still chose to destroy everyone all together.

This is precisely ‘one thought becomes a demon1“One thought becomes a Buddha, one thought becomes a demon.” It is a vernacular explanation of a sentence in the Buddhist scriptures. It says that a person’s mentality when dealing with things is very important. A positive and diligent good thought can help oneself and others solve many difficulties; a negative evil thought will bring misfortune and disaster to oneself and others.’.

Perhaps Shen Yijin in that book became evil because he was too lonely.

No one would tell him that his mother must hope that he could grow up healthy and happy.

She would be sad to see him tortured by the illness.

She would be sad knowing that he chose destruction…

…… Fortunately.

What couldn’t be said to Shen Yijin in the book, he could do it now.

He gently lifted the other party’s hand, his fingers passed through the other party’s slender fingers, little by little the ten fingers intertwined.

Jing Xun solemnly said to him: “Sir, therefore you must sleep well and live a good life.”

Hua: No update this Thursday because I’m busy.  (˘･_･˘)