Chapter 398 - Scared

'Luoluo, how did Boyan know?' Yu Mei texted Shi Luo while she hugged Jun Zixuan in the backseat of the car. He was barely speaking and it scared her to see him like this. 

'I informed him' Shi Luo's reply came quick. 

Yu Mei placed her phone aside and wrapped her arms tightly around Jun Zixuan, stroking his back quietly. It slipped off her mind that Shi Luo worked at that hospital. Given what Shi Luo informed her, Shen Lihua's surgery has started already. 

''Zixuan…she will be alright. We all are there for her, aren't we?" 

Steward Gu glanced at the couple from the rearview mirror as he slowly pulled up the partition between the seats, giving them some space. 

Both Jun Boyan and Jun Zixuan were attached to their mother having been grown up with her. While the former was vocal about how much he loved her, Jun Zixuan was on the quiet side. 

But… given how he could marry a random girl just for the sake of Shen Lihua's happiness, it was obvious how much he loved and cared for his mother. 

All these years, Jun Zixuan had made sure to get the best doctors for Shen Lihua to keep her health condition in check and control her Leukemia with medicines rather than opting for surgeries in the early stages which might be risky later. 

And he has been successful with that too. Shen Lihua's healthy lifestyle, happy mood, less stressful atmosphere, medicines, everything altogether ensured that she was getting better in recent months. 

But for her health to deteriorate all of a sudden, Yu Mei did not have a good feeling about this. 

Jun Zixuan pulled back from her as he looked at her face, ''She…'' He seemed to be hesitating for a moment before he spoke, ''She will get better, won't she?" 

Yu Mei felt her eyes tearing up slightly because of his tone. He looked hopeful as he waited for her answer. She blinked and stroked his face, ''Of course, she will,'' She nodded a bit before she laughed, ''I bet mother-in-law can't wait to fight and argue with me. We are there with her. What are you worried about?" 

Jun Zixuan pulled her into his arms for a hug before he buried his face in the nook of her neck. 

She stroked his back quietly. 

Sunshine Hospital. 

As soon as Yu Mei and Jun Zixuan walked out of the Director's office after talking to him regarding Shen Lihua's condition, they went straight to the VIP floor.

Yu Mei's footsteps slowed down when they stepped out of the elevator only to be greeted by the sight of Jun Zishen sitting in the hall with his palms covering his face. 

She glanced at Jun Zixuan's back before looking at the Jun Zishen who raised his head hearing the sound of approaching footsteps, her brows tugged together slightly. 

"Zixuan, I… I had no idea about her condition until…'' Jun Zishen pushed himself to his feet as he spoke, his voice was hoarse. One could see his haggard look as his face seemed to have lost its usual glow.

"Zixuan,'' Yu Mei's eyes widened when Jun Zixuan grabbed Jun Zishen's collar, aiming his fist at the man's face. 

Without thinking anything, she rushed forward and grabbed his wrist to stop him. But his hand did not stop until the very last moment when it was inches away from Jun Zishen's face. 

Jun Zixuan pursed his lips and waved his hand off and Yu Mei staggered a few steps back. Before she could stabilize herself on her feet, he came back to his senses and retracted his grip from Jun Zishen's collar as he held her wrist before pulling her close to him. 

Yu Mei looked at his quiet face with a small frown settling between her brows. She knew that he did not mean what he did just now. 

"Are you hurt?" He cupped her face. 

''I…'' She took a deep breath, ''…am fine,'' she finally said after some time. She was just caught off guard. 

Jun Zixuan looked at her from head to toe before he pulled her into his arms. He closed his eyes while mentally chastising himself for losing it a moment ago. The thought that he almost harmed her unknowingly made him feel terrible, ''I am sorry…'' He whispered. 

Yu Mei quietly stroked his back. She did not blame him but seeing him like this made her heart ache. He was like a child…insecure, afraid and angry. He was scared of losing his mother and the anger and insecurity in his heart were very apparent to her. But even at a time like this, he did not forget to care for her. 

Somewhere, she did not know what to do and she could only feel this warmth in her heart but at the same time, seeing him like this made her heart ache, ''It will be alright. She will be okay,'' Yu Mei whispered. 

Jun Zishen, who was standing rooted to his spot till this moment snapped out of his daze as he quietly stepped back from them. He saw this desolate expression on his son's face for the very first time in so many years and he watched Yu Mei consoling him. He closed his eyes, trying to calm his heart which felt like it was bleeding. His wife's life… has been hanging by a thread all this while, all these years. She had Leukemia and he was unaware of that. 

The feeling of having his collar held by his son made him realize how much of a failure he has been. 

He slowly shifted on his feet and moved towards the operation theatre. His back remained hunched while he seemed to be occupied in his thoughts as he walked forward in a daze. 

Yu Mei looked at his retreating back quietly before she pulled back from Jun Zixuan as she held his hand. 

"Brother…'' 

Jun Zixuan and Yu Mei turned to look at Jun Boyan who walked towards them with Shi Luo.