Chapter 366 - Humanity

Back on Raelle's side, when she went back to her room with Shui Xian, she started getting ready to sleep. And as she moved around the room for one thing or another, she noticed that Shui Xian had been sitting in the same position since earlier and his eyes had been following her around as well. 

After applying moisturizer to her hands, she walked to Shui Xian and waved her hand in front of his eyes. Shui Xian snapped out of it and held her wrist before pulling her on the bed. As he settled her between his legs, he hugged her waist and placed his chin on her shoulder.

By now, Raelle had already gotten used to this position. For some reason, her husband really loved back hugs. He'd always come behind her and hug her waist and he had to place his chin on her shoulder while rubbing the side of her face against hers.

"Is something on your mind?" she questioned.

Shui Xian had his eyes closed as he was still lost in his own thoughts and subconsciously hummed in reply. 

"What is it?" 

Shui Xian opened his eyes and said, "No, it's nothing. Don't worry about it."

Raelle tilted her head and looked at Shui Xian's face closely. "I believe you are curious about something. You really want to ask me something but you're holding it back." Shui Xian bit his lip as he really had something he wanted to ask her. "Don't hold back so much. Didn't I tell you that I'd always answer?"

Shui Xian smiled softly at her as he bumped his head against hers saying, "I know you'll tell me anything I ask. But I am just not sure whether I'm supposed to bring it up or not."

"You can do it," answered Raelle. "If you won't ask, how will you understand me?"

Shui Xian thought about it a little more and finally decided to just come clean with her. If he dragged it on, it won't do him any good. And it was just as Hyson had told him in the office, he just had to ask Raelle if he wanted some answers. Because even if Hyson had all the answers he wanted, he'd never give those answers to Shui Xian. This was something Shui Xian had to seek out on his own.

"I met Fai today," said Shui Xian. "And since I was really curious, I asked him a question."

"What did you ask for?"

"When we were at that old village, you looked uncomfortable with the noise of firecrackers," said Shui Xian honestly. "Although it was just for a moment, I could see it." He took a deep breath before continuing, "When I mentioned it to Fai, he said you're sensitive to sounds. I wanted to know why but he didn't tell me."

"That's all?" asked Raelle. Shui Xian nodded his head. "That's such a small matter and it took you so long to ask me this question?" Raelle couldn't understand what was so difficult in asking this question.

But since she had never been on the same wavelength with people when it came to emotions, she didn't dwell on it.

"Didn't I tell you that I was kidnapped three times in my life?" 

Shui Xian's body froze all of a sudden when she brought it up. He thought it was a painful memory and that's why Hyson was so reluctant to answer him but he didn't expect it to be related to this. He suddenly didn't want her to continue.

"Let me give you a timeline for when I was kidnapped," said Raelle blankly. "The last time I was kidnapped was when I was about 8 years old. The second time was when was 6 and the very first time happened ten minutes after my birth."

"What?" Shui Xian was shocked when he heard the last one.

Raelle placed her hands on his which had been placed on her abdomen as she continued, "Since my parents were too busy arguing about their divorce, they didn't even realize that the newborn daughter of theirs never came back after the nurse took her out." Raelle talked so distantly that it felt like she was talking about someone else. But then again, she was just a baby at that time. No matter how clear her memory had been, it couldn't possibly start from the moment she had opened her eyes to this world.

"My mother is a renowned researcher," Raelle told Shui Xian for the first time. "She is actually pretty famous in her field. And since she works for the government, her work is quite confidential. I was kidnapped because that organization wanted to use me against my mother. It's a pity that my mother really didn't care about my life. Her work had always been her life. She would never choose her daughter over her country. Quite patriotic, don't you think?"

Shui Xian clenched his fists as he didn't want to say anything but he still gritted out, "But you're still her daughter."

Raelle patted the back of his hand saying, "You're taking it way too seriously, Hubby!"

"Am I not supposed to?" questioned Shui Xian.

"No," answered Raelle straightforwardly. "After all, it has already happened. And that too, way too long ago. You can't change anything now. And in my opinion, she didn't do anything wrong."

"What?!" Shui Xian almost lost his temper when he heard her say that. "How can you even say that?"

"Think reasonably, Hubby," said Raelle. "Giving up on my life alone to save millions is quite a good bargain. Sometimes, it's okay to choose humanity over other things."

"No!" Shui Xian refused to accept that. He knew he was being unreasonable but he couldn't help it. He couldn't possibly be as reasonable as she was.. She could think about everything like it didn't have anything to do with her but he knew that her life was at stake at that time. How was he supposed to be calm?