Chapter 251: About Your Youth

'And then I fell in love with you

I let that love consume my soul

Who knew in the end,

I'd have to leave you alone.'

"When did you become a poet?" 

Yue Yue was so startled by Mu Chenyan's voice that she ended up dropping the pen and the diary that she held in her hands. She didn't even realize when Mu Chenyan had sneaked behind her. 

She turned around and started hitting Mu Chenyan who groaned, "Hey! Why are you hitting me? What did I do wrong?"

'You scared me!' said Yue Yue with her hand sign.

Mu Chenyan almost rolled her eyes at her, "How is it my fault? I called you so many times but you're in your world. So, I came to check up on what was wrong with you. Didn't think you'd be lost in poetry writing."

Yue Yue shook her head at Mu Chenyan and picked up her diary from the floor.

Mu Chenyan crouched down before Yue Yue and looked up into her eyes as she questioned, "Usually, you don't recall this lost love of yours. I wonder what happened." Seeing how Yue Yue avoided her eyes, her brows knitted up, "Did you come across him recently?" Yue Yue was stunned at how easily Mu Chenyan read through her.

'Stop playing detective,' said Yue Yue.

"If you don't want to tell me, it's okay," said Mu Chenyan as she stood up. "Oh, I was calling you to ask if you want to go out for dinner tonight or should we eat at home?"

'Home,' came the answer from Yue Yue.

"Yeah, let's eat at home. I don't want to run into my brother again." Mu Chenyan really had doubts about her luck since she had already run into Xiang Hulin twice. And there was no guarantee that there won't be a third time. So, it was better to just avoid it altogether.

As Mu Chenyan was about to leave, Yue Yue held her hand to stop her and asked, 'When are we going back?'

"Why? Is something wrong? Why do you want to go back so soon?" inquired Mu Chenyan. "Is it really because you ran into your first love?"

Yue Yue knocked on her head, 'I just want to see my son. I feel like he is hiding something from me. So, I want to go check up on him in person.'

Mu Chenyan was stunned to hear that. Indeed, a mother knew her child best. 

"Maybe you're just overthinking it," she tried to divert her attention.

Yue Yue narrowed her eyes at Mu Chenyan, 'He is my son. I know him best. He likes to hide things from me only when he gets hurt. He never wants to get me involved in things that bother him. He thinks his mother is weak.'

"I don't think that he thinks his mother is weak though," said Mu Chenyan. "If anything he just doesn't want his strong mother to become weak because of him."

'But he is all I have.'

"And you're all he has as well," answered Mu Chenyan. "Listen, Yue. Maybe our Fai is hiding something from you but he must have his reason for that. He is old enough to make his own decisions. Even if he is in trouble, he is old enough to solve it himself. He can't hide behind you for life."

'I don't want him to hide behind me. I just want him to share his worries with me. I'm strong enough to bear everything with him.' She looked quite helpless at the moment and seeing her like that Mu Chenyan felt super guilty.

"He will share everything with you when he thinks the time is right. He always does it. You must know that our Fai is just as bad of a liar as our Elle is. Both are peculiar. Fai is good at hiding things but not for long. He will eventually let it all slip but only when he feels that it's time."

Yue Yue thought about what she said before asking, 'So, we are not going back?'

Mu Chenyan chuckled as she replied, "No, we are going back. Just give me a couple more days. Then we'll go back."

'Why do you want to stay here?' asked Yue Yue. 'I still don't know why you even came all the way here.'

Mu Chenyan pressed her lips together and didn't answer.

'Did you come for that patient at the sanitorium?'

Mu Chenyan thought about it for a minute before nodding her head, "Yes, you're right. I indeed came here for that patient. Sorry for dragging you here with me."

Yue Yue shrugged her shoulders nonchalantly, 'I don't mind. I got to see Nanzhou City's beautiful spring for the very first time in my life. I can't believe I never knew this city looked this beautiful in spring.'

Mu Chenyan smiled at her, "You are right. This city indeed is a beauty."

This city and even the people here were really close to Mu Chenyan's heart. It's been years since she last came here so this visit was quite nostalgic to her. She usually didn't get attached to places but this city was different. She spent her childhood, her rebellious youth here. 

Every part of this city reminded her of the story of her youth where all that mattered to her was how she was going to cause trouble. Thinking back, she could only laugh at things she had done.

"I wish I could show you the house where I spent my youth," said Mu Chenyan.

'This is not where you spent your youth?'

Mu Chenyan shook her head, "No, this is where I spent my early childhood. Most of which I don't even remember. This is Mu House that belonged to my parents. I spent my youth at Xiang House in the military housing society. It was close to the barracks. But I can't take you there since Ge lives there now. If I went, I'll run into him again."

'I'm actually curious to know about your youth.'

Mu Chenyan laughed it off. She didn't want to tell her best friend that she was a total troublemaker in her youth. Not the cute kind but the kind which made people want to beat the hell out of her!