Chapter 211

Chen Xixi's mother said that she wanted to give me something. I took a taxi to her home and I came to her new home. Chen Xixi's mother met me at the gate of the community.

Chen Xima seems to be a lot older these days. She used to have black hair (I don't know if she went to dye it), but today she has a lot more white hair. She hasn't painted her make-up, and she doesn't carry the embroidered handbag she often carries.

Seeing me coming, Chen Xima immediately welcomed me.

"Here you are."

"I'm sorry to have kept you waiting, auntie."

"It's OK. Let's go upstairs."

Chen Xixi's family lives on the top floor, and the rooms on the top floor and the first floor are tens of thousands cheaper than those on other floors. Chen Xixi was tight handed at that time, and originally wanted to borrow money to buy other floors, but Chen Xixi's mother didn't want to delay, so she ordered the house that day.

"Later, Xixi always scolded me for being stupid and buying a house with a top floor. It was so hot in summer that I felt anxious at that time. Why couldn't I borrow some money from others?" Chen Xima talked to me about some trivial things, but I didn't talk much, and I didn't know how to talk to her.

My head is still muddled, even the moment I push the door, I thought I could see Chen Xixi. I imagined her sitting on the sofa with her legs crossed and eating melon seeds. When I came in, I threw the melon seeds on the ground. "Oh, pig head, how did you come? I've watched more than half of the TV series."

Unfortunately, when I pushed the door in, I only saw the black-and-white portrait of Chen Xixi on the wall.

I tried to take a breath. I was worried that my out of control mood would lead to Chen Xima's mood. She must have cried many times these days. Today, it was hard to see me calm down. How could I turn out her sad mood again.

"Purple lemon, you come here." Chen Xi's mother took me to Chen Xi's bedroom. She opened the drawer and there were several stacks of photo albums in it. "These were all put here when Xi Xi Xi moved. I have a look. Maybe it's better to keep them with you. By the way, there's also a diary. I wanted to read it, but I thought that Xi Xi hated us to look through her things before, so I'll put them with you."

"Thank you, auntie. I will keep it well." When I took these things, the skin I touched seemed to be burning. I didn't dare to stay in Chen Xixi's house for a long time, for fear that my tears might fall down accidentally.

When I went out, Chen Xima sent me to the door. She told me that I could come to her house if I had nothing to do. I nodded, but she began to cry.

"Purple lemon, you must come often. When Xixi is gone, Uncle Chen and I will be very lonely."

"Auntie, I will come to see you often. If you have anything, please call me. Don't be afraid to disturb me." I comforted Chen Xima. At the end of this passage, I even tried my best to smile at her.

Chen Xi's father came out of the inner room, dragged Chen Xi's mother back and told me to go back quickly.

As soon as I came out, I couldn't hold back my tears. It was like a dam burst. All the tears came out of my eyes. The taxi driver in the front row had looked at me in the rearview mirror for several times. I didn't dare to cry any more. I had to cover my mouth and pretend to look out of the window.

Unexpectedly, he became more and more uncomfortable. He couldn't control his mood at all. Finally, he cried so much that he forgot to get off the bus. The taxi driver had to remind me that it was time to give him the fare.

I opened the album. These are the photos I took with Chen Xixi before. I deleted all these photos, but Chen Xixi exposed them all. She also bought some albums to put them in. She even annotated the shooting time and address under the photos.

Open her diary again.

Chen Xixi should have not turned over this diary for a long time. There are some fine ashes on the cover of the diary.

The first page is about the beginning of our freshman year. She said that she was in the same dormitory with a country girl. It was really unfortunate.

After a few months, she said that she saw the country girl studying her sophomore course by herself. After asking, she found out that the country girl had taken a job and helped her sophomore do her design homework. Suddenly, she felt that the country girl could make money.

Later, ZM took the place of the name of country girl. ZM fell in love. She could no longer stay with ZM every day. Suddenly, she felt so lonely Unexpectedly, her boyfriend cheated. She spent a whole page in her diary scolding the cheater and Xiao San. Finally, she cursed both of them. It seemed that it was not ZM but she who was cheated.

later she joined ZM in love with her. She liked to read Shen, and almost every day wrote details of meeting with Shen. She was obsessed with reading details, and even secretly spent half a month's wages buying the perfume she had read. It was just because she wanted to sleep before she went to bed to smell the smell of reading. But she can also see that Shen Yue seems to like ZM better. She says that if ZM also likes Shen Yue, she will quit. She doesn't want to compete with ZM for men, because ZM is her best friend.

She also said that if in the end she and ZM are 30 years old and not married, they will buy a small house together and live together until they get old. No man can live happily.

I can't watch any more

When I went to the window sill, the window was still sunny, but I felt a little cold. The last time I had this feeling was after I found out that I was pregnant. It was also autumn. There was no difference between autumn and summer in Guangzhou. The only difference was that the night was cooler. If people were more capable of freezing, they could wear short sleeves until early November.But now I feel the cold, my arms are beginning to cool, as if the temperature dropped a few degrees in an instant, so that my tears and nose flow out together.

My concept of death is not clear, because the people I contact with have not experienced death until I met lily. Her sudden disappearance made me afraid of the word "death" for the first time. I will dream about her for a long time after Lily's death. I always feel whether she is living in another place, but we can't meet again.

But Chen Xixi's death completely let me understand the concept of death, she is not disappeared, is really dead, no matter how hard I try to find her, I can no longer meet her, can't talk to her.

I regret that I went to Zhao Guoquan's renderings company that day. If I didn't go there, I wouldn't see Chen Xixi and she wouldn't pour me tea. I would continue to hate her in my heart. Maybe I'm still glad that this stupid woman finally died But now I am in infinite pain, this gouging pain again and again hit, I have to work hard, hard, very hard to resist these pain.

It's so hard